.:Give Me A Chance:.

[[i really feel like crying...]]

2012-02-01T21:23:00.003+08:00

and it sucks when the feeling comes at you full force when you're in public.

i seriously thought i was crying in the train just now. my eyes were blurry and slightly watery. but really, this feeling. overwhelming sadness and anger. i can't cope with it. i know i'm emotionally unstable and so this seriously sucks.

i've been bombarded with more work at the office and i'm just a temporary part-time data entry worker. and and and... i've been working till 6 - 8pm... like it's 2-4 hours more than the time they stated in the contract. i'm like frustrated because i can't quit. i really want to quit!!!!!!!

i have no life from now till mid april. basket can.... how is this a part-time job? part-time jobs are supposed to let me have a life! and flexibility. gonna act like a zombie for the next two months. that's for sure.

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and somehow this is making me not even feel excited to go for SS4 or even Secret. pfft.

[[it's another week!]]

2012-01-31T07:58:00.003+08:00

i seriously have problems with myself. oh well. i am taking leave on friday. i have plans. -___-

and yesterday i almost.... almost... didn't go to work. i did and i was confused for a while because they kept asking us to switch from one server to the next... but anyways... the workload wasn't so bad... i just hope the work load isn't so bad this whole week.

because i am sure from next week on, it's hectic, hectic, hectic.

right now, just wasting my time until i get out of the house to go to work. and i see like a bunch of fics to read... but after work, i'm just too tired to read.... T___T maybe today? maybe i'll leave them in my tabs till thursday... yea maybe...

oh but i've watched white collar; the liz gillies episode. the show is interesting, liz is amazing. i think after i finish this contract, i'm gonna stay indoors for a while catching up on this drama. then i've watched victorious~!!! the new season!! omg, it's hilarious. i really like their parody of breakfast club. it's really just... AHAHAHAHAHAHA!! the tacos, the high, them just being them! but i wish trina had more screentime. and some lines. gosh. can't wait for the next. from the preview... it's gonna be really funny and chaotic!

well, i better get going. gonna take a dump before going to work.

[[i can't... this sucks...]]

2012-01-29T15:10:00.003+08:00

since i can't... i might as well keep skipping work or something...

no really. i can't resign. so i have to work till mid april. i'm sad but what can i do. sucky............ after this job... gonna take a short break till may... and then find another job.

i need to settle down or something. get married, have a family. do housework. i have no idea anymore. -____-

oh and minho drama sitcom thing is really good! i like the plot and how it's not exaggerated comedy though some parts are really weird but still. and minho's smugness.

gonna iron my clothes, eat my biscuits, read my book and go to sleep.

[[you have no idea how tempted i am to resign right now]]

2012-01-25T07:57:00.002+08:00

if they ask me again when i come into work today to change to fulltime, i will resign...

i'm already thinking of resigning at the end of february but i need money so i guess end of march instead then. need to tahan for two months. i'm not sure i can but let's just try. and my typing is still fucking slow. why can't number pads be on the left side of the keyboard. my left hand types faster than my right. -____-;; oh however, if i really cannot cannot stand it (ignore the fact that I need money) i'll quit end of february. this is how unsuitable this damn job is to me. i want warehouse assistant instead. i'd rather do some physical shit than sit there. please please please. or at least a different data entry job. this one sucks the soul out of me.

some other random things.

i met up with suhailah on friday. and it was fun. forever alone-s hanging out. and gonna meet up with her again next weekend for a styling workshop. wheeee~

i went out with my sis on friday too. bought some stuff. (how is that even possible?) i bought a pair of pumps and a dress from newlook. and lotion and lipbalm from etude house.

and saturday, supposedly, we went to the beach to picnic but it rained and we couldn't find the damn tent where my bro and family were in so we were fed up, wet and annoyed so we went to parkway parade instead.

the rest of the long weekend was spent home. me reading a novel. nothing much. and watching random movies on tv.

now i need to go out to work. sianz.

[[i'm tired man..]]

2012-01-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

i can't describe how tired i am right now.

it's been three days since I started work and while it's not so hard of a job... it's tiring. and really boring. and i think my fingers can drop off anytime. -____-;; oh well. gotta hang in there because i need the money!!

and i went to ftisland's live on sunday. let's just say that i'm not a big fan of theirs and i only went to accompany my sister... SO... anyways.. i just tried to concentrate on minhwan. and boo for not elevated seats.

AND we got the tickets for SUPER JUNIOR SUPER SHOW 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! moshpit but whatever. and i'm not going to bother too much about queuing. and i'm going to buy an led board and make KYUHAE on it. umm.. okie not exactly 'KYUHAE' but '규(heart)해'. hehehehehe.

oh well.. i'm going to bed now. don't want to feel super tired tomorrow.

[[stuff is shipped and i'll wait for a week.]]

2012-01-13T13:23:00.002+08:00

my copy of SHINee's Live DVD is shipped. will probably get it next week. hopefully. because you know, i'm losing faith in singpost...

and i got the job. oh okie. end of story.

i don't know. i feel weird. oh well.

oh but i'm re-watching summer x summer. this is probably my 4th time watching this drama. seems like i'll never get bored of it. -____-;; and i want to rewatch hello baby. and i need to iron clothes.

this sunday is ft.island live in singapore. gonna enjoy my night before the first day of work. sianz. oh and buy SS4 tickets. hmmmmm. i'm really scared that i'll not get tickets. there's a huge possibility yo. should i really drag my dad to the counter on priority sales day? there's a possibility that we could still get tickets if it's on priority day... ummm you know... the site might crash (as always) so there will be delay (as always) so there's a possibility we could get it.

and i feel like writing an essay. a useless essay that probably will not make sense to anyone. not on my life, just something. because the other day I was reading up articles and blog posts about homosexuality in south korea. (I was bored.) and I found really intriguing facts. it made it think and it made me feel disconnected.

here's a little excerpt on the essay i'm thinking of writing:

If there is anything that I've learn from reading up articles and blog posts about the homosexual culture in Korea, it is that the general Korean public are homophobic enough to state that gays do not exist. To add on to this point, the act of being touchy and close to another of the same gender is considered a normal behavior and does not indicate or even portray that you or the other is in any way gay. It is a perceived concept in Korea in which the actions are just normal.

the above is not proofread so yeah it has a lot of grammatical and sentencing errors and there's no referencing yet.

tell me right now that these facts do not seem intriguing to you. either way, this essay is not going well. i got distracted by my own stupid thoughts.

oh and tumblr is becoming a scary place. case closed.

see you. i'll be back.

[[clearly, this is not what I expected.]]

2012-01-11T11:59:00.008+08:00

12noon I am clearly not ready for this. after not facing reality and society for a whole year, to finally get a job interview, i am not ready.

i somehow regretted sending my resumes YESTERDAY. yes, I got the call this morning and off I am for an interview later in the afternoon. it's too sudden and my heart is like dying.

and because I didn't expect anything from my random resume sending, I went to sleep at 6am. I stayed up till 5am and tossed and turned in bed till 6am. I got woken up at around 8.30am by a phonecall that i didn't pick up. tried to sleep again then got woken up at around 9am by the same phonecall that i still didn't pick up. and then around 10.30am, i woke up to the phonecall. i'm tired. i barely slept. which meant, shit.

and there goes my plan of playing the piano today. and if this works, there goes the plan for tomorrow. but i should be happy if i got the job but i'm so darn nervous for the interview. and ya noe, if my mom finds out what exactly the jobs i sent my resumes for are, she'll go "why? you have a diploma..." and i'll go, "why not? it's my life." pfft. but let's see if this works, if it doesn't, forget it. i'm staying away from society again.

by the way, i feel like i sent myself rolling under a bus. preferably i would be somewhere at the gap but unfortunately i feel like i'm being rolled over by the bus.

interview done... the guy was cute but i felt irritated by him. and asking me to do a typing test when my eyes are like asleep is kinda... oh sheesh. let's see if i get the job or not. and weird that someone that was there for an interview asked me this very redundant question. she's a malay, i was wearing my tudung. she asked me, "you malay eh?".... wah redundant.

anyways, i am still going to emo at woodlands waterfront tomorrow. i'm not looking forward to if i actually get the job.

oh well...

[[why do i have such sad songs...]]

2012-01-10T22:05:00.003+08:00

emo-ing like no tomorrow...

i just realized... (weird of me to say) that i haven't blogged. I'm sure i told myself to blog after yesterday but i guess it just didn't happen. oh well. here's my update then.

yesterday, i went out at around 2pm and it took me an hour to reach bras basah. and then i took a walk. while checking out some places. boring. i tried taking pictures and again boring. some uncle that was working at waterloo centre said "hello" to me. creepy. i wanted to take a nice picture of the church but whoa, it's a church, ya noe. so ended up trying to figure out where is sunshine plaza. (by the way, i took a wrong turn for a moment and ended up at the library.)

thankfully at that moment, mummyQi texted me so I thought, yeah I'll go to sunshine plaza and wait for her there. then mummyQi didn't know the way there. So I had to go back to the mrt station. and after that, we waited for mummyAn. and then started camwhoring at the mrt station while waiting for Rabiatul. We slacked and ate at Wendy's. And coincidentally when we left Wendy's, Rabiatul was at the mrt station. Whee. After that, we made our way to sunshine plaza. and we ate snow-shaved ice. and had to converse in chinese? seriously.

while eating, we realized we were conducting some geography appreciation moment. It was because the way we ate our snow-shaved ice is very geographical. I was making a cliff, mummyAn was making a valley, Rabiatul was making a cave and mummyQi was making a plateau. after that, we made our way to Bugis.

and me and Rabiatul got distracted by Etude House. Bought some stuff. ~~she has yet to transfer back the money. waiting patiently.~~ she transferred the money~ and we finally got our SHINee files. My pretty Onho file. hah. I must annoy everyone with my kpop rant. then went home with me and mummyAn talking about malls and waterfronts.

today. it was a semi-bad day. first got news from my sis about ss4. damn priority booking. hopefully there's still seats somewhere for public sales. PLEASE. I don't want a repeat of SNSD. then, i guess there is still people who would still diss Jinri. I'm tired of this dissing game. after which, it started raining.

but thankfully! I found Blue Salt yesterday and watched it too. Good movie. I really love Sekyung-unnie. I squealed while watching her. Little fangirl right here. I did the same while watching Running Man with her on it so yeah. you get the drift.

oh some jiwang song decided to play on itunes...

i uh. sent out some job applications today. not hoping to get any because i'm unmotivated. but whatever. if I get it, I get it. if i don't, i don't.

oh and i finished two seasons of victorious. i'm waiting for season 3 episodes now. i'll never get tired of victorious man. and tomorrow, going to make emo music. and thursday, going to woodlands waterfront. having fun on my own again, yay. and emo, yay. now, i have to find my 1/4inch jack. (how long have I not said that...)

see ya.

[[updated.]]

2012-01-08T14:12:00.004+08:00

I updated the SHINee Fic Rec List. like finally.

so now, let's concentrate on new fics!! Wheee~~~

and thank you to the person (mikssi) who posted on tumblr about my fic rec~!

I never really thought anyone would see it because mostly, I made it for myself to re-read fics because I'm lazy to go look for it again.

but i'm upset that i uh lost followers. is it because i reblogged some victorious stuff? or is it the je stuff. i think it's the victorious stuff. oh well, I'll just state that I really love Victorious and their cast, especially Matt Bennett, Liz Gillies and Daniella Monet.

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my bro's birthday today.

we went to eat at Eatzi yesterday. super full. hehe.

tomorrow, i'm going out as I said. hopefully, I won't get lost and hopefully, I won't be all moody tomorrow. Should I wear heels? I feel like wearing heels. but somehow heels don't go with the outfit. hmmmm. fashion fail for tomorrow.

nothing much to say. so see you.

[[things I never knew i said...]]

2012-01-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

on an internet social network. like whut?

I wrote on tumblr a long time ago.. (was looking for something in my tumblr. ignore me.)

"it seriously sucks to have a same-aged and same-gender cousin. you're constantly being compared to her. especially since she's seemingly better than you. urgh."

and the first thought that came to me was... "yeah. but at least i look more decent than her." which shouldn't have been the first thought. oh well. right now, all i'm thinking is why i wrote that. like what happened? hmmmmm...

anyways...

i had a toothache. and now i'm fine. i extracted my tooth. yay. but know what? my wisdom tooth is irritating me now. like why are you bothering me, wisdom tooth! i can barely see you!! so i have an appointment for scaling and polishing in march. then i'm gonna make an appointment for wisdom tooth extraction then. oh well. sucks but i have to do this shits...

this whole week. i've did nothing. i think i'm giving up on the sentosa job that su offered to me. i'm just too lazy. sorry, su~~ for making you email me the details and stuff. T___T wasting your effort like that. i'm so sorry. but my motivation to work is like at -100 right now. i'm so sorry.

on a brighter side, i'm going to meet the peepz on monday. we going sunshine plaza. go figure. i better search if there's a bus there. if not, i have to walk a long distance from the mrt station. hmmmmm. okie i found a bus stop near it... but journey takes so long? forget it, i'm going by train and walking there. hey, maybe i should come earlier and walk around bras basah area? for fun? or walk around bugis area for fun? i think bugis more fun? so i guess i go walk around bugis. wheee.

hmmm. oh and happy early birthday to my brother.

[[HAPPY NEW YEAR]]

2012-01-02T15:27:00.002+08:00

weird... i actually forgot i have a blog to update...

So HAPPY NEW YEAR~! late but who cares. hee.

new year resolutions?

1) to lose weight

end.

i really don't have new year resolutions. never did and never will. but this is the only one that i have. it is to lose weight. i want to wear nice clothes you know. aish.

now what did i do on new year's eve? i watched kouhaku. then watched mbc gayo daejun. i screamed and squealed and fanchanted in the middle of the night. oh well. SHINee is finally coming back in Korea!! And I finally found the courage to go to online shops and i'm still thinking about it. i'll most likely order the live dvd regular edition. and then wait till they release their comeback album and buy that too. (most likely, i'll go to HMV. too lazy to order it.) and aside from watching that... i did basically nothing.

i was watching a bunch of fancams and saw that moment where minho picks up sulli's ring that she dropped and wore it on his pinky finger and after a while realized that sulli's is standing near him and calls out to her and instead of just giving it back to her, he puts it on her finger for her. i'm jealous. hahaha. no, i'm not. but it's cute how these two choi siblings interact with each other. and then there's that moment when krystal squeezed her way in between taemin and sulli for the ending bows. i'm annoyed at krystal for doing that. considering taemin actually ushered sulli to his side and shindong was the one who ushered krystal to them. so sulli should have been able to stand next to taemin but no, krystal had to squeeze her way in between them. i think even taemin was surprised.

ah i should shut up already.

oh and yesterday, i went to eat with my family at asli village (finally i remembered the place's name). after that went shopping at Giant. bought way too much junkfood lol. because we all separated and pick up whatever we want on our own. i picked up a bunch and then my brother picked up a bunch too. and we ignored each other when we passed each other lol.

HAPPY NEW YEAR~~~

and my sis has yet to help me cook my spicy rice cake.

[[do you wanna B?]]

2011-12-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

before i talk about the Block B stuff... i want to express how upsetting it is to search for something on youtube and you get a bunch of stuff you do not want to watch.

for example:

typing minstal and getting a minyul fanvideo that states how minyul is real and that minstal is fake. firstly, there's no minstal in the video and i hate when people write descriptions like this. like what the hell are you trying to say?

or

typing jonghyun minho and getting bunch of jongkey fanvideos/fancams. just because jonghyun is the common topic here.

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to the block b stuff.

Airport on Tuesday.

went out at around 11am. reached there around 12nn. there were tons of people already around. so waited for 2 hours and then block b came out. the screaming, oh my god. and i was standing on the unsteady chair because i can't see. and yet even then, i can't see!! okie, i can see but i can't figure out who is who. i didn't even notice which one was jaehyo-oppa. but i noticed which one was P.O and Zico... which was not what i expected. oh sheesh.

oh but they were nice to stop and let us take pics but still... *sad*

after that, me and my sis went to eat at swensens. yum. and after that, we went to buy groceries for my mother.

Fanmeeting on Wednesday.

painted my nails supposedly-dark red but it looks like blood... wheee~~~ tried to dress up nicely. and put on a bit of eye-shadow.. but mostly, it's the normal makeup i usually put on. i went out at around 1pm. went to meet mummyQi and mummyAn for lunch at tampines. ate at food culture. and then walked around a bit and then went to buy bubbletea and drank it at the open area at Tampines One.

they kept talking about husbands, boyfriends, marriage... and i zoned out at one point of time because it doesn't interest me. and they weren't talking realistically. even i know what is realistic... they seem to not realize it. *sighs* after that, went to to J.Co and ate yoghurt. then, i went to meet up my sis and Gillian (a fan my sis met during the ticket sales) and we went to the fanmeet~

the wait was boring. but whoa~~ the queue that i was in was near where they enter and exit. which is just freaking awesome~~~ they did the autograph first. and they all looked really good. ah... jaehyo-oppa is so good-looking. but from where i was standing, i can only see jaehyo-oppa, zico and b-bomb. oh well. good enough. and took lots of pictures~~ (uploading it on tumblr... and i think i have like a lot of zico?)

after that is the hi-5~~!! WHEEEE!! but because I was blur-blur a bit, I didn't get to look at at Jaehyo-oppa properly and say saranghae to him. oh well. I said "hello" to U-kwon who said it to me. hehe. but i think I bowed to everyone which is weird because I did it unconsciously. oh well.

some things I want to complain? firstly, they put fans who were not part of the hi-5 behind the people at the hi-5 and guess what, they pulled down the barricade and push us. typical. but it's annoying when they push us who can't move forward anymore. shit. then they didn't do the hi-5 properly. didn't tell us to take a poster first or later, then in the middle of it, then they said all presents at the end. so I got pushed away from jaehyo-oppa who was half-holding the present i was giving him by the security guard whom i told my sis was cute. (I keep seeing this security guard EVERYWHERE so i know exactly how he looks like... oh god.) oh well. i hope he sees it. especially since he got confused for a moment too because of me. oh shit. sorry oppa!!!!

after the whole thing, we went to eat at Texas Chicken. I shared with my sis and i take back about the chicken not being oily... it was oily. -____-;; after that, we went home.

Showcase on Thursday.

went out at around 11.40am. reached Vivocity around 12.30pm. went to eat lunch at long john silver. then walked around and saw that there's a floating book fair~ so up we went to the cruise ship and walked around. the stairs up and down the ship is bloody scary. first it's steep. secondly, it is not stairs steps... oh goodness.

after that, we went to slack at coffee bean. at around 3.45pm or so, we went to make our way to St. James Powerhouse. and the queue... whoa. then i was left alone for about two hours because my sis went to queue for merchandise. at around 6.30pm, we were making our way in~!!

firstly, i would like to say that i like the club but it's strange for us to stand like all over the place to watch Block B. I was standing on the steps. But it was a clear view of them and I couldn't ask for a better standing position that does not hurt my neck. hehe.

and now, i'm just going to be general. It's pretty awesome. there's a lot of fan interactions and it was fun and the MC made it lively for us. Block B was really amazing. (even if i'm not even a BBC, I can appreciate them.) now for the biased part... Jaehyo-oppa was beyond cute!! He was panting and being all "it's hot..." and then during the charades thing, he was all either panicky, embarrassed or blur and it was so cute!! and he kept patting the others' butts. lol. oh during the dance battle thing, he was so cute acting all embarrassed. oh god, i can stare and watch Jaehyo-oppa all day.

after the whole showcase, we slacked in the club, drinking coke. hey, they provide us with one free drink. and after that we went out of the club and waited for them to board the van and then we made our way back home...

got distracted by SMTOWN's poster at one of the shop. so bought the winter albums to get the posters. hehe. then went home~

now, time for me to watch some performances from SBS Gayo Daejun. and maybe find something to snack on. i'm hungry...

see you~~

[[sometimes i get fed up with people...]]

2011-12-24T21:11:00.003+08:00

i hate having an emotional breakdown. it sucks the energy out of you.

so so so... on thursday i went out with su~ had fun catching up with her. i didn't have much cash with me so didn't really shopped much. did i even buy anything?? i can't seem to remember... Ah! right ddukbukki. going to cook that maybe tomorrow or monday~

then friday... nothing. watched music bank. KYUHAE MOMENT BACKSTAGE!! OMG!! okie enough. but that was the only excitement. other than that, i ironed some stuff.

today, woke up early to go to the airport to see my brother and family go Bali. We reached around 9.40am. Ate breakfast at KFC. then met them around 10.30am. then chilled at a cafe. then around 11.30am, they went into the departure hall. so we went home.

after zohor, we went out to IMM. whoa the carpark was full.... but we managed to find a lot. then went to eat at Bagus. I had BBQ Chicken Bulgogi with rice~~ YUMMMMM!! maybe one of these days, going to try the korean food at food culture and see how it tastes like. then went walking around. picked up the tickets for F.T.Island and Secret. Yep, me and my sis are going~ I owe her money but the deal is that because I accompany her to F.T.Island, she goes with me to Secret. Then I pay for Secret's while she pays for F.T.Island. good deal for me. Since Secret's tickets costs less than F.T.Island's... hoho.

now I'm at home, yawning. and reading fanfics. i was hoping for some jongho fics on shineesanta... but none yet. i hope there is some at least... but hmmm there's nothing christmasy about this year's christmas. okie, let's wait till tomorrow. even while watching Good Luck Charlie: Xmas Special, it doesn't feel that christmasy... hmmmmmm...

plans for the week!

tuesday: going to airport to see Block B~~~ Gonna use continuous shutter and see how many pictures turn out nice. my sis can go film it. hehe. then going to wait till my brother and family comes back from Bali and 'pick them up'.

wednesday: going to tampines for lunch with mummyQi and mummyAn. it was troublesome to plan that lunch because mummyQi always leaves out details and then make me waste effort in typing something... after that, walk around a bit, then meet up my sis and go for Block B's fanmeeting. Going to Hi-5 with Jaehyo-oppa~~~~!!!!!! Going to give him the presents~~~~!!! OPPA!!! dunno how excited i am to see him. Shit. first time feeling this excited to see my idols. <- didn't felt it while waiting to see Minho... didn't felt it while waiting to see Chansung... didn't felt it while waiting to see B1A4... didn't felt it while waiting to see Changjo and Niel.... maybe because I didn't get a chance to see them upclose. yeah maybe. like as in really close, close. skinship close. yeah that's probably why...

thursday: Block B's showcase at St. James Powerhouse. not going to think about how wrong it is for me to be at a club. anyways, going to be there early and rot till we get to enter. i'm not looking forward to this. mostly because i don't enjoy their songs at all. i'm just accompanying my sis. so ignore me if you see someone sluggish and rolling her eyes from time to time. but i hope Jaehyo-oppa will keep me entertained. I'm going to stare at him throughout regardlessly. I'm going to give him my fullest attention. oh eww. lol.

till the next time. aka, after block b's showcase. aka, if i have time while watching gayo daejeons... hehehe. oh and i probably have to go add fics on the rec list soon. my bookmarks are getting longer... lol. maybe by new year~ so that in 2012, i can concentrate on rec-ing new fics~

[[short update]]

2011-12-21T12:29:00.002+08:00

i realized i didn't write about my ipod stuff...

see, i went to the epicentre service counter to see what was the problem with my ipod and how much it costs to repair/replace it.

well, it has a sync error which sucks really bad. and then to replace it will cost me $240 or something. which i'm not willing to pay to replace the entire thing. and i'm guessing i'll give up on the whole replacing my ipod. so i'm thinking of buying a creative mp3 player. and since it uses a microSD card, i can buy those cards and change it every other time which works. and it costs me only $89 for a 8GB one. <-and for a microSD around $40-80? the transcend one seems to be of that price at one of the simlim squares' shops... hmmmm... maybe i should scan around for other mp3 players while i'm at simlim... if not, i'll go seriously replace my ipod. i mean if the costs adds up to me replacing my ipod (which is 160gb), might as well i go replace it.

was looking around on gmarket sg... found this super cheap one but i have a feeling it'll die in a year... hahaha. i'll go simlim one of these days..

tomorrow, i'm going out with su~ i don't know if i want to use the play button thing and listen to the album for a few cycles or use my ipod. i think i'll bring both. because i want to listen to the album leh... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

see you~

[[i think all hell is breaking lose!]]

2011-12-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

just the fuck is going on in my life really.

and as time goes by, i feel like breaking this i-have-no-idea-what-to-call-it-anymore relationship.

one thing is for sure, i might never be able to complain as freely as i want to on twitter. it used to be fine... i'm still fine because i don't post the most angry of posts on my twitter. there's still LJ for that. i love my essay. oh well. not like they even care to know what's going on with my life.

to the mundane stuff.

i went out yesterday with family to my in-laws' relative's wedding. the food is not bad. love the desserts. hate the rain though. stupid rain. and thanks to the rain, we stayed there for quite some time before leaving and going to Jurong Point. Nothing much there, just walked around and checked out prices of Ipods and mp3 players. then bought dinner from Banquet. Yong Tau Fu. Yum~~

Oh i tried watching two animes. One is some shoujo anime which i'm going to finish but since it's kinda ecchi, i'm only watching it at night. to save the trouble in explaining what kind of anime i'm watching. the other is Shiki. some horror, vampire anime that i'm going to either continue watching or give up entirely because it's not exactly to my taste.

today, i woke up late. then ate lunch which was chicken rice. first time i ate the normal chicken rice from Teh Tarik near my house. It has a funny smell on the chicken which almost made me blanch. should have asked my dad to buy lemon chicken rice. i like that one the most~ oh my, that limits my choices now... considering the chicken noodles stall is not to my liking either. booooo...

after zohor, me and my sis went out to do some shopping. went to bugis first. found the alphabets pin-badges~ now if jaehyo can know i like him. LOL. walked around, went to Etude House to see stuff. But not sure what to buy... walked around BHG. nothing much.

then, we went to Orchard. Wanted to buy some stuff from New Look. Bought two pair of tights, one umbrella (yes ex but i'm investing money here and besides, i got discount so yeah...), one floral blouse and a small pink bag. my sis bought socks, a new wallet and one pair of tights. at times like this, i enjoy my membership discount. i'm still thinking whether i want that dress i saw... hmmmmmmmm....

we then went to kinokuniya. bought two fashion magazines. gonna style up my hair and make-up accordingly. next we went to F21. looked around. and amazingly felt like i was lost. hehe. there were really some cute stuff but didn't buy anything.

lastly, we went to swensens to eat dinner. yummy~ we decided to share one curry chicken baked rice and seafood combo set. and then we had ice-cream (the festive ones). really filling~ however the festive ice-cream we had were either too sugary or too creamy. <- to the lactose intolerant, please refrain.....

this thursday, i'm going out with Su~ gonna have our 'full-course meal' and walk around like usual. :D

see you! (i need to pee......)

[[to the recent essay i wrote..]]

2011-12-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

no one can read it unless you're friends with me on LJ. hahahahaha

some stuff before hell breaks lose...

Thursday, impromptu meet up with seller. so pick up the onlywith-Onew stuff at Serangoon just now with my sis. So decided to walk around NEX as well. nothing much but there's that cute little shop that sells really cute stationary and that clothes shop that I'll never be able to wear clothes from. went to Etude House and my sis bought her BB cream and she got the SHINee badge. Guess who she picked. Onew~ Feels very Onew-filled day...

Then just now wrote my freaking long essay. I've not written stuff that is 3000 words long since forever. So it's refreshing. 4 pages long on my word with Times New Roman font size 12. Wow. No need to worry about the content of it.

Later going out with the peepz. for the CO. Only for the CO because I've excused myself from the dinner. *rejoices* this is just getting more and more retarded as days pass by.

and i stayed up all night watching documentaries and writing that essay. so i'm living on barely 2-3 hours of sleep (i went to sleep at 10am.. well i went to lie down on my bed at that time not really i went to sleep at 10am... then woke up around 12nn but didn't want to wake up so kept tossing around in bed.. till 1pm). i'm not cranky. i'm just really mentally drained. i don't know how i'll stand them for three hours later. though i'll enjoy the CO, i don't think i'll appreciate their presence.

well at least mom cooked meat = to me having energy to withstand all of this. and i'm going to eat ice-cream before leaving to cool myself off. and right now i barely have two hours to relax...

Edit:

Back from CO. The performance was really good. I got goosebumps when they performed the Winter Sonata song. Randal's arrangement is really nice~~

And I don't want to talk about anything else. Seems like they are going to plan for outing next week. hmmmmmmmmmmm.......

i'll update properly another day. see you.

[[chewing on seaweed...]]

2011-12-13T21:35:00.003+08:00

and listening to SMTOWN's Christmas Album~ and I'm still upset that I have not gotten my stuff from the postman. like give it to me now, please!

I'll be honest but I can't remember if I went out recently. Like during the weekend. But I'm sure I did only, I can't remember when... But anyways, I went out with my family during the weekend. to firstly, eat lunch. So we went to eat at Downtown East. the foodcenter there i can't remember what it is called right now.

after that we made our way to expo~ for the robinsons sale~. bought a dress/shirt/whatever that is supposed to be. and food. we bought food. nothing much there. found this cute talking thing that records and repeats your words. so like wheee, cool! but didn't buy it. lol.

after that we went to the newly opened changi city plaza. or whatever it is called. it's quite big but since it's still only half done, i'll wait till it's finished before going there ever again. But I really like the open space area. the garden, the pond and the water playground! sweet~~ and it's nice and cozy too. and you can watch planes pass by. hehe. we walked around and then we bought food for dinner. Decided to try out Texas Chicken. In my opinion, it's like McDonalds meets KFC meets Popeyes. Scary thought. I like the chicken because in my opinion, it's not oily but everything else... nevermind. I still like Popeyes's mash potato and biscuit. and i still like McD's nuggets. sorry KFC... you will be the sinful delight when it comes to chicken... because though I love the KFC flavor on the chicken, I like Texas Chicken's not-oily aspect of their chicken. (now I again sound like a gourmet because I eat too much...)

on monday, i did nothing. and yet the postman didn't come. -___-;;

then today, i was waiting for the postman before going out and yet, he didn't come. he didn't even come when i was out too!

i went to eat sushi with my sis. yummy sushi~~~ tried to eat maguro sushi and i had to puke it out. whoops man. raw salmon is the limit when it comes to raw fishes. and i can't believe now the tea is charged. it used to not be charged. sheesh. -___-;;

after that we walked around at White Sands. finally bought my triangle sponge. now you'll see me do pretty nails~ but i have no tweezers so i'm going to use chopsticks to hold the sponge. and i don't have corrector pen, which annoys me but nevermind... mistakes will be cleaned with a earbud... one of these days, i'm going to buy a corrector pen. oh and i bought a new earstud. like finally. i can put away this gold stud that i've worn since i was a kid. but still i only wear one side. should have bought the type that is different on each side... nevermind.

ah... i finished watching letter bee reverse! okie, it's a nice, touching anime but i wouldn't go recommending it. it's kinda boring. now i'm going to watch gosick. whatever that is... i'm going to figure out what it is and then see if i'm going to actually watch it... -___-;;

plans: this friday, CO concert. Randal's orchestra is performing~~ going with the peepz. they haven't paid me back. so i'm going to extort the money without telling them that i am going to.

next week... not sure what plans. but maybe going out with su~ but we're both broke so... not sure.

till the next time aka this friday after the concert.

[[so so since i'm against sleeping right now]]

2011-12-11T01:44:00.002+08:00

i shall talk about my toothache. nah... just kidding.

firstly, let me fangirl for a moment....

KYAAAAAA~!!!! my otp is so damn cute~~~~~ yesterday was the birthday fanparty for minho. and EEEEEPPPPSSSS... it was filled with craziness. and random otp galore. and i have the one hour ++ clip to listen to but i'm lazy right now. But my otp. i'll never abandon that ship ever. i'll go down with it.

okie that aside....

yesterday~~ I didn't go to Stadium to buy SNSD stuff. Nope. Lazy. So no lightstick for me. But I did go out with my sister to watch Muppets~~ It's such nostalgia... It's so touching and I even teared up. *sniffs*

after the movie, we went to walk around at the still-under-renovation causeway point. well some shops didn't close down. so yeah. we went to comics connection and i bought three pin-badges. guess who~~~~ no, not minho. and no, not shinee-related either. it's~~~~ *drum rolls* Sooyoung and Tiffany~~~ two of Sooyoung and one of Tiffany. If I could have found the other one of Tiffany, I would have bought it but since I can't find it.... haiz... I wanted that one more than the other one but I can't find it. Thankfully I found both of Sooyoung. I'll hunt for that Tiffany one.

i'm going to watch hello baby SNSD version soon...

oh... after walking around, we bought gyoza from old changkee.. oh god i miss eating them. i used to buy it every other week when i was in school. then we went back to khatib and we walked around the pasar malam. nothing much but i wanted takoyaki... didn't buy them. we decided to go hei sushi on tuesday because my sis wants to eat sushi. and hopefully by monday i'll get my copy of The First. hopefully.

oh right, i bought a hat/cap for Jaehyo. I hope he'll like it. :) I'm going to pin that to the bear. oh and i haven't write the fanletter even though I already translated it to korean. oh but i think i forgot one line when i was translating it. so gonna make sure i include that in before writing it on the nice paper.

IU sounds totally jazzy and awesome in her new album. omg.

my toothache is annoying me. i should go see the dentist. but i hate dentists. i'll live with the pain for now. well at least it wasn't so bad as thursday night. i was cringing and crying. till the point that i didn't went to sleep till 6am. and even then i only managed to sleep for two hours before the pain started again and i wanted to kill myself. urgh. usually the toothaches disappears after a while. but this one seems to be staying. so i'll go the dentist. polyclinic here i come. but how come under 21 seh... why not under 20? sianz... need to fill up form if i go polyclinic. aish go private one lah...

that aside, i finished letter bee so now the reverse! GAUCHE/NOIR!!

ciao~

[[i'm confused but whatever]]

2011-12-09T03:01:00.004+08:00

i am awake at 3am. and i loaded up four episodes of Letter Bee and SHINee's interview with MTV (i think). And I have like three fics waiting for me to read. and i'm looking through all pictures.

i'm not bored.

i just can't sleep. every time i lie down, my teeth starts to hurt. and i almost cried just now because the pain was unbearable. so decided that's it, i can't sleep. and also because i wasn't falling asleep anytime soon (just now) so yeah.

but now, my eyes are tired. oh man. i'll close my eyes later and take a nap. but i'm pretty sure my teeth is gonna hurt again. because right now, there's a dull pain and it's annoying me.

and later on in the day, i'm going out with my sister to ~~buy my SNSD official lightstick~~nope i didn't go buy it. and watch muppets.

oh and today, i went out for lunch with mummyQi. but i don't know. it was awkward and excruciating. i dislike people who decided to hang out with me and first thing they do is ask me stuff about what to do with their life. What am I? A shaman? A fortune teller? and she made me ticked when she smsed me before meeting me that i didn't pick up her call. look, that's once in a while. i always pick up people's calls if I CAN HEAR THEM. look, i'm listening to music on mu ipod. so there's a chance that i can't hear it or even feel it. And really, she doesn't pick up my calls more than i don't and i have yet to complain about it.

oh and there's nothing to talk about with her. i feel like a robot. and she asks me the most 'are-you-dumb' questions. forget it. and she seems to not understand me when i told her before that i have no intention to work in the mass media industry. plus it seems she doesn't get the drift that i don't want to talk about jobs. i'll go into rant mode if i continue.

anyways, after eating lunch and walking around, i went to meet up with my sis. but before that, i got stuck at the mrt station waiting for my turn to top up my card because there was a group of tourists in front of me. they were japanese and they were cute. so i just waited for my turn.

then met my sis and we went on our search for stuff toys. And we bought a lot of them. OMG. But they are all so cute. sadly i didn't buy my cute lamb. need to save money... so now i need to make jaehyo's present's head-gear. instead of the cape, i think i make a black or blue hat. i don't know. but a cape would be nice.. let's see if i bother...

OH. and we saw Pierre Png filming for something. maybe a drama at marina square~~ WAH~~~ though i don't recognize the actress...

and there was free starbucks coffee~~~~~

and we ate at pizza hut! the festive meal or whatever it was. it was nice but so much starch. my poor stomach. and my sister said i don't need to pay back for this meal. so that means.... THAT WAS MY BIRTHDAY DINNER TREAT FROM HER~!!

oh and i forgot that i bought stuff from Etude House again. I needed eyeshadow so yeah. But my purpose was to get that SHINee badge! I choose the Minho one. Like duh. LOLOL.

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOI MINHO~~ (finally 20 around here. lol. and i already wrote a weird dedication on tumblr. so not going to do it here.)

gonna nap now and then wake up and watch my anime~~

[[it's been a while~~]]

2011-12-06T21:11:00.003+08:00

went out with Su~ today~~! random shopping time!

and finally i bought my aqua pet thingy. gonna stare at it and play with it everyday. LOL. and bought nail polish!! Okie, i'm supposed to save money but nail polish is important to my life. right....

but it was really fun to hang out with Su~ and have a really good chat. gonna hang out with her again next next week~! Can't wait. And thanks again for the present and birthday card. I really like the birthday card~~~ You are and will always be my only Escape Kaki~~ WOOOOOO~~~~!!

I realized that I have more fun with Su compared to my other peepz. they are so -___-;; sometimes. and one of them wanted to hang out for lunch... but guess what... she complains about travel time because i asked her if she wants to go tampines. right... like it doesn't take me almost an hour to reach wherever they want me to go. like harbourfront, boonlay. right. right. it doesn't matter when it's me. it matters when it's them. right. right.

okie enough about that...

to the fandom rant~!

i did not watch the shinee interview on V channel. why? because i'm lazy. but i saw gifs and that's enough to understand what is going on. though it's cute and all that... i'm not going to bother to watch it. but there's a cute little subtle moment that no one except onho shippers that are ninjas noticed. it's beyond subtle and what happened was something the other members wouldn't have bothered to do. so yeah.

oh oh oh and can i spazz over the taelli picture from H2???!!! OMG!! Right, there's jonghyun, key, krystal and victoria but... omg taelli. I need more taelli. I need moments though. Like caught by paparazzi-like fans kind. oh man.

end of fandom rant.

this friday, going to go buy SNSD merch and then go watch movie with my sis. I want to watch the muppets. hehehehehe. and go buy Jaehyo's present + B-bomb's. If I really buy that ducky for Jaehyo... then I'm going to make the little cape thing for it. OR i buy a cape (for dogs) for it. hehe. But i think i'll go make the cape. I need red ribbon though. and i wanna eat out. i'm still thinking what to get B-bomb. hmmmmmmmm..... but maybe i won't. oh well.

with that see you~~

[[old school music...]]

2011-12-04T23:51:00.004+08:00

listening to old songs on MTV while writing this. and i can't type with more than one finger on my right hand and it sucks because of an injury.

anyways... i should stop obsessing over Max. I mean, he's cute and awkward and all but I should stop obsessing over the guy. Besides, he's just a normal person. Okay, fine he is part of the cosplay group Star Princes but that does not mean that I should obsess over him.

But Max is damn cute. I would have gone to the autograph session on Saturday but I'm lazy to go all the way to *scape just to see him. And Kazue and Sammy. But whatever. Sorry, Star Princes, I'm just not willing right now. And I have flu. oh man.

Oh and TVXQ's arrival. I forgo that too. As I was saying I have flu. Well, whatever. I'll talk about the fanparty later.

I am upset with the fact that I'm not in Malaysia and I can't see F(x) and Super Junior perform. DAMN. Oh and because Minho is mc=ing mubank. And he sang that small part of Wonder Girl's song. And I was like YEAH MAN, HE CAN SING! WHOEVER STILL DISSES HIM FOR BAD VOCALS CAN DIE!

And I found an old fic that I really like reading. It took me some time to realize it but yeah. It's a nice fic. Eh, i wonder if I rec that Minkey fic though... I really wonder if I did. -___-;; i'll go check later.

TVXQ Fanparty

We reached there at around 2.30pm and started queuing for the merchandise. We bought the towel, lightsticks and poster-set. the posters looks all so nice~~~ And the towel is really nice too~~ The lightsticks looks just like SHINee's only it's red and have TVXQ written on it. (I'm going to join the merch queue for SNSD's eventhough I don't have the ticket. I want the lightstick and whatever merch that may be left. lol)

After that, we hanged out at burgerking like last time. Ate and drank. Then went to the toilet and loitered around the Kallang Leisure Park. Then we went back to the stadium and doors were still not opened. Sianz.

It wasn't opened and we had to wait a long time and so the starting time was slightly delayed. And because of the fact that the tix were not sold out and there's many gapping holes, they closed the side terraces so we ended up sitting at the arena seats (even though we paid less. WOOTS!!) And it was a nice view too~~ Happiness yo!

Then it started!!! They first showed the PV of 'Before You Go' and then they came out singing 'Maximum'!! We were all hyped up! As it was a fanparty, there were talks and stuff. But the best would have to be when they performed their old songs medley! OMG!! And then when they performed 'Wae (why)', that was probably the highlight of the whole night!

Overall, it was really, really awesome!!! I really enjoyed it (plus the fact that it was my birthday...)~~! Oh and the fanchants were totally whoa~~~

oh and thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday. i usually don't really care about my birthday, so sorry if i seem lazy to reply to them.

with that, normal everyday life posting from now on till 28th and 29th dec. <-block b!

oh and what is this i hear about minho on SNL? spotted and hiding kind of thing. ignore whatever i wrote before... MINHO FAILS AT HIDING. EVERYONE CAN TELL IT IS YOU, MINHO!!

see you~~

[[suddenly blogger is back to the original colour... like whattttttt....]]

2011-11-28T01:00:00.003+08:00

A collective post for this week's happenings~~

So on Sunday, we went to Orchard Parade Hotel's starbucks and a lot of people were there already waiting to purchase the fanmeeting tickets to Block B.

So either way, we got the tickets~~ So now I need to brainstorm on the fanletter to write for Jaehyo and the gift I want to give him. And my sister made a new friend who is my age. -__-;; I realized that I can talk to people way older than me but I have problems talking to people my age. oh well. After buying the tickets, we walked around ION orchard (and it was 10.30am or so), looking for clothes. Well my sister was looking for clothes, i was tempted. damn damn damn.

Then we traveled to City Hall. Went in search for more clothes or something. Bought stuff from Etude House. I secretly took a picture of the Minho standee. Besides I really like the BEE HAPPY line of products. It's really cute and it smells nice too. I haven't tried it yet because well I like looking at it more than anything else really. And in one day, we've been into three different outlets of New Look. -___- but my sister found whatever clothes she wants. And I bought two leggings. One grey leggings and one jeggings. And one pink t-shirt.

Monday - Woke up late. Felt super, super sluggish. Got ready at around 4.30pm. Then watched tv and lazed around till 5.40pm and went out. Felt super sad that I can't spend anymore money from my bank. Whatever is left in my wallet is what I can spend. Then took the bus. Got off the wrong bus-stop but that doesn't matter because I can still take the bus from that bus-stop. So took the other bus and got to Downtown East quite early. So went to the toilet and practically loitered around the bus-stop waiting for them.

Then met them and the first thing they said was about my clothes. Pink even said she felt that her position is being threatened. And I was like, how in the world? I wasn't even trying. I should have went for the other look. But I think the other look will get the same response. sheesh.

Either way, we went to Hei Sushi and started eating. Because it's their first time there, I had to explain everything to do. -___-;; I hate this feeling. Ate till we were really full. I didn't really feel like I was really full because I can eat more than that. I usually eat more than that when I'm with my sister or Su~

(talking about Su~ let's go out again soon. And please cheer up and not let all these negativity in your life put you down. I know alot is going on in your life but I hope you find something positive in all these negativity. And if ever you need a person to talk to, I'm here for you.)

After eating, we walked around. And they amaze me for not being there before or only have been there once or twice. I'm kinda sick of the place unless I want to eat sushi or sakura buffet. And when I walked towards the carpark (the linkway from the NTUC building to Downtown East building) they stopped and looked at me weirdly. And I was like, you don't trust me, fine. I've been here WAY MORE TIMES THAN YOU TO KNOW WHERE I AM WALKING TOWARDS! Sheesh.

Either way, after all that, we went our separate ways. With them taking the bus to the mrt station and me taking the bus to the bus-stop (instead of walking in the dark to find my bus-stop!).

Tuesday and Wednesday - nothing worth mentioning. ~~Unless you want to know that I woke up late, tweeted with my sister to get married, read fanfics, ate fruits and started snacking randomly..~~ but really nothing worth mentioning.

Thursday - The day Vivid comes to Singapore! (and Teentop but I gave no damn to Teentop. Mostly because they come at midnight. I am not camping at airport for the first train home.) So I went out at 12nn to meet MummyQi at Tanah Merah platform but ended up meeting her at Paya Lebar instead. The power of circle line~ Then we went straight to find a place to eat, called my sis to make her decide where to eat and we ate at popeyes.

After eating, and waiting for my sis to finish eating, we made our way to Terminal 1 because that's where they arrive at. And hanged around near the barricade. While waiting for them, me and mummyQi started fooling around and chatted really loudly.

When they came, sadly, I couldn't snap any photos. But my sis took a pretty clear video of them. So good enough I guess. I'm not even a fan of them anyways. But I wish they were nicer and waved at all of us instead of whizzing past us. Oh well.

Friday - Nothing worth mentioning except that I decided not to go for fanmeet. What with recent events, I'd rather not get into that whole situation again.

Saturday - SUNDOWN FESTIVAL!! So we were there since 7am. Like shift duty you know but that freaking sucks. It really sucks to sit there for hours... then stand there for hours in the rain and sun constantly... did i mention that the weather kept changing from sunny to rainy in a matter of minutes? Seriously. And at one point of time, it felt like a water themepark only... we are totally not having fun. -__-

Anyways, we got to get in by 5.45pm but we stood near the stage for HOURS. I don't know what was holding them up but it seriously sucks.

Okie, so like around 8++pm, it starts~ The MCs are funny but they keep talking in chinese so i couldn't understand them fully but good enough.

So first performance! (after that temasek poly intro...) VIVID!!!! They totally rocked the house! (okie, open space area..) Shin looks really good~~ But unfortunately, I couldn't see Ivy, Reno and Ko-ki very well. It was really awesome though I didn't know anything about them (the members to their songs) but I really enjoyed myself! Though I really wanted to jump and stuff, I couldn't because I was trying to film and take pictures. LOL. Oh and they had an one song encore which was nice~

Then second performance is by Zhang Yun Jing~ She's so handsome up close~~ And her songs are really nice~~ But she's so handsome~~ And she's so cute in a very boyish manner.

Third performance!!! The highlight for me~~ TEEN TOP!!! My babies~!! (I filmed all the performances but the beginnings of each song is kinda cut off because I was trying to snap photos + film so it was weird for me to do) BUT they were so awesome~!! They started off with "Supa Luv"! Which I think is just the perfect opening. Then before the next song, they talked a bit and L.Joe and his english. He improved I think. It's better than the time at Kpop Night. Next song was "Angel"~ Which is a song for us fans, Angels~! Their voices~~ They sound good live though there were moments where they cracked and stuff. And they came to nearer to the extended stage and that was just awesome~~ They were so close!! (I was standing three rows behind the barricade so it was close~) And they look so good~~~ Niel looks so pretty and Changjo, OMG Changjo looks so damn hot. Next song they performed was "Don't Spray Perfume On". One of my favourite songs~ I had to move because I couldn't see Changjo. But thankfully, I got to see him~~ (because my sis exchange space with me) Last song was "Your hand brushed against mine" (correct me if I'm wrong, I suck at remembering song titles). Mellow and I almost wanted to cry thinking it was the end. And they came to the extended stage again and I was all so concentrated on either Niel or Changjo that it made me really sad that I won't see them again until the next time they come. (They need a live tour man.) But when I thought it was the end, the MCs ask us to call them out again for encore~!! So the last song they performed was "Clap". And L.Joe who was asking us, "Our last song will be???" And the rest of the members were doing the 'clap-gesture'. So we all shouted, "Baksu!" And L.Joe went, "Everyone, let's clap!" And I was all, KYAAAAAAA~!!! My all-time fav song!! Their debut track~!! Sadly, when they came to the extended stage, Changjo was at the right side of the stage so I gave up trying to film him or even look at him, so Niel~~ But he was the last one to leave the stage and he was the last one to wave at us and I was really happy~~ Changjo, this noona seriously loves you!! Overall, I can't seem to stop screaming and squealing and gushing and fanchanting~

After that was Hebe. And then Show Luo but because it was getting late, me and sis left. Also because we got to see whoever we wanted aready~ But we did stayed to listen to Hebe sing at least three songs. And when we came out, we met...... SECILIA LUNA!! They were promoting themselves and giving out flyers for HAP2011. OMG!! My japanese sucks (thanks to all the korean..) but we managed to get them to take pictures with us~~ Rio-sama is so pretty~~~~ Mirai is so good looking~~~~

Sunday - HAP2011!! Secilia Luna + Star Princes~! And and, we have after party session too~~ Went out around 2++pm. Reached around 2.30pm. Got the ticket, bought some merchandise. Then watched the Haru House Anniversary stuff. Some cosplay chess game. It was fun and entertaining. Then waited for autograph session and autograph session which was held in the public openly like that... but no one even bothered about them.. Secilia Luna needs more fans!!!!!!!

Then comes the concert part~ Since the crowd was really small, we get to be like right at the barricade, in front of the stage, in front of them. OMG!!!

But before that, we have.... STAR PRINCES~~~ amazingly, thanks to the ball bouncing off from someone, I got the hand-signed ball from the super cute boy in that group~~ The blond that is not Max. Lol. I can't seem to catch his name... But they were super cute and good looking. Good, there are still good looking guys in singapore. And Max's schoolmates were there to support him, AWWWWWW~~ (they are guys though... lol)

After that, was a short video about "how to enjoy visual-kei concert". and it was totally funny and informative. But mostly funny~

Then comes.......... SECILIA LUNA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please be aware that I am totally incoherent right now. OMG!! It's so close and and they look so good and and they are totally rocking the stage and it was so fun~!! Headbanging, jumping, furi and also trying our best to reach out to them. Which is totally awesome.

I was situated near Kyoki and Rio-sama and it was totally worth standing there. I really love Rio-sama~~ And Kyoki is just so damn cute!! And I really enjoyed every single second of it~~ And whenever they talk, it's always so funny and I like how they interact with us~~ It's just awesome~~ AND AND... I touched everyone's hands~!!! Kyoki's, Mirai's and Enju's were real holding onto. Sadly, Ageha and Rio-sama was just slight slapping of our hands. And all the eye-contact with them is just totally awesome~~ And their smiles is just so pretty~ It's just so awesome!! I can't help myself. Totally worth everything. Best night ever!!!

Then after the concert part, the VIPs get to stay for a little talk session. But because it was getting late, it was cut short like seriously short. But it was nice and damn, if only Sammy threw his poster a bit harder... Oh and at the ending, before they left... I made a heart above my head for Rio-sama and she returned it~!!!

Anyways, tonight has got to be the best night. (I know I said 2PM con was the best night...) BUT TONIGHT IS REALLY THE BEST NIGHT!! Till the point that I can't even remember what the hell happened during sundown festival and 2PM and SHINee... omg what is wrong with me. But Secilia Luna, if they are coming again to Singapore, that's it, I'm going to their con again~~~~

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End of my this week's post~ Will be back with normal everyday life soon. Then this coming Sunday will be TVXQ fanparty. Stay tune for my fan account~~!!

Oh and I have to mention that I'm kinda broke so I can't even buy SHINee's Live DVD. Which seriously sucks to be honest but it's okay... I'll find it online somehow. (it always ends up there anyways...)

see you~!!

2011-11-23T23:55:00.004+08:00

updated the SHINee FIC REC LIST.

more Onho + Jongho. Stuff I refound after so long and stuff I just read but is dated way in the past. But either way, enjoy~

And I found a Jongtae fic that I really liked! I've re-read it and consider it worthy to be in the rec. Mostly because I can still remember what it is about even though I read that fic at least a year ago.

And there's two Ontae fics that I added.

(I've decided to not read Ontae, Onkey, Jongyu, Jongtae unless I really feel like it. thus the lack...)

And I think there's a trend going for the rec. but whatever. Enjoy.

HERE: http://chance-awaiting.blogspot.com/2011/08/shinee-fic-rec-list.html

[[blogger is blue....]]

2011-11-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

(irrelevant title. i'm just slightly surprised that it became blue. totally doesn't match anything right now.)

Stuff about 2PM concert.

Thursday night - Didn't really expect that they'll be coming at that night and after the time that I would be there, so in the end, we ended up waiting for them. We were at T2 to send my brother off from like 7pm and we stayed all the way till 12midnight just to see 2PM. My parents were there too.

But anyways...

It happened like really fast! I only managed to see them like for a short moment before they left in their vans. But I saw Chansung-oppa up close and he looks really good~~ And I think I saw him the longest, I didn't see the other members much because they all walked first and Chansung-oppa was the last. But I just couldn't care about the rest that I only looked at Chansung-oppa~

But though it was worth the wait, it was short-lived man. I wished I could see Chansung-oppa's face a bit more. But they all walked really fast.

Friday evening - Fanmeeting with 2PM. Was there since 3pm or so. Had to buy batteries for my cameras because well I ran out of them. And was going to put my nails on but decided nah, I'll do it on Saturday instead because the merchandise starts sales at 4pm, (which I think is rather late. Well up to them.) which allows me to go there later by a tinny-winny bit.

But anyways...

I was at first at level one before I got shooed away. then I went to level two... then decided to try again at level one so I went back down. Then after a while (some facebook conversation), I went back to level two and met up with Kak Azie. So we sat there and almost rotted. Which I think we did.

But the position that I was at kinda sucks. So didn't get to snap nice pictures, just really far and blur pictures... from a different position because the initial place we were at had a lot of shit going on. I don't really want to talk about it here but it really pissed me off.

Anyways, we moved away from that area and met this really nice lady that was taking photos using her iPad~ we can see! And she will send us the pictures too~ so nice of her~~ And at least the new position was nicer, sure a lot of pushing and someone screamed to stop pushing, but at least there was no fights or pissing off moments.

But sadly, we didn't get to see them at all. Unless you count looking through other people's cameras. Sad. Oh well. For the Sundown Fanmeet, I am seriously going to camp there really early and I'll make sure I won't block anyone and let people behind me have a fair share of the view. Yeap.

After the really short fanmeet. I think it was only 30 minutes or something. We went to eat dinner while feeling remorse and disappointment.

Saturday - The concert day! The day starts with me trying to cut my nails and laying out the clothes to wear and packing my bag properly. (hiding a camera is hard work.) Then after that, after doing my prayers, painted my nails (gave up on putting the fake nails... i won't stick for some reason..). And got ready. And off we went to Indoor Stadium! My dad sent us there~

We got there, we quickly joined the merchandise queue and waited for some time before it started to move. The merchandise sold were t-shirts, towels, scarfs, hand mirror, clear files set, postcards set, hands-up fan, live dvd, live photobook and star card. We bought the towel and the postcards set. And I bought a Chansung unofficial lightstick. It's so cute and the light is pink~ hehe.

Oh, we met up with Kak Azie and Kak Rehan but after that we got separated. So we went to sit around at Burger King at Kallang Leisure Park. Then around 5pm, we went back to the stadium and waited for the doors to open~!

Okie, my sis was sure that we couldn't see anything from where we were BUT nope, we could see pretty well~ The view is quite good for a near the back seats! So it was not so bad~

The start of the concert!! (bear with me, I can't seem to be coherent here... And I was staring at Chansung throughout the concert.)

Firstly, I would like to say that it's really fun~!! And it was cute how they kept teasing Chansung to speak English~ hehe. And he replied, "Oh no" in this super cute tone!! And the fanservice is just so scream-worthy! Especially at the end, the only time I regret not being in the moshpit. Chansung and Taecyeon took off their shirts and threw it into the crowd!!

Oh! During the intermission before Taecyeon's and Nickhun's duet, the cute talk between the rest of the members is just beyond cute~~ And they accidentally said Junho's name wrong~ LOL. Because they started with Jun-to-da-K. So they decided to do the same for Junho and it ended up saying it wrong. LOL. Anyways, Aegyo by Junho, Hip-hop dance by Wooyoung, a Christmas song by Junsu and some wriggling by Chansung. lol. Okie, fine he was trying to do aegyo or something but it was all wriggling and his butt~~ hehe.

Taecyeon's and Nickhun's duet is really nice~~ So is Junho's and Wooyoung's~~ But Chansung's solo is just beyond cool! He was doing sword-fighting on stage and it's just super cool!! (I took a vid of this... I'll upload it later.) And Junsu's solo is really enjoyable~~ (I took a vid of this too...)

And during encore, Chansung probably noticed my uchiwa and pointed and waved in my general direction which was just~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hyperventilates*

Overall, I would say 2PM's concert is really just awesome. As much as I am a Shawol and all, I have to say 2PM's concert is way more fun than SHINee's. Maybe because there's not much fan interactions by SHINee. And all we did was fanchant and screaming and waving... As for 2PM's concert, we sang along, we screamed, we laughed and basically, we had fun~ Sorry people, this is my opinion. End. But I like SHINee's stage setting better and they had flying and all that. 2PM doesn't.

But either way, both concerts were fun just I think I had more fun during 2PM's! Ah~~

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Okie, end of 2PM stuff. The next post that will come will be either the dinner outing with peepz OR fast forward straight into Sundown Festival stuff and Secilia Luna stuff.

Now tomorrow, need to wake up early and go to Orchard Parade Hotel to buy Hi-5/Autograph passes for Block B's fanmeet.

See you~!! Good night~!! *still recovering from the adrenaline rush*

[[okie too much obsessing...]]

2011-11-15T12:37:00.003+08:00

firstly, too much about Onho. then secondly, too much about Milky Holmes. (the animes + the seiyuu). Should I download the PSP game and play it?? If I bother to download the torrent. considering it took me three days to completely download the whole anime batch.

Anyways...

My sis bought the Block B showcase tickets yesterday night. Like just a click of a button and there we have it, the tickets are bought. I don't need to pay for this showcase ticket but if we get the hi-5 ticket, i have to pay for that because that's my sole purpose. But the sad thing is in the end, the TVXQ ticket is still paid by me. So it''s still a self-bought present for myself. -___-;;

And then we also going to HAP2011 to see Secilia Luna. Last minute decision. So today, we going to go to Haru House to buy the tickets. I hope there is still tickets. And maybe look through the stuff they sell too~ hehe. And also go pick up the tickets for Block B.

Okie... some dates for me to note.

This Friday 18th Nov - Go to Jurong Point for 2PM's fanmeet. Remember to bring the uchiwa and fanboard + camera. Going to be there from 4pm.

Saturday 19th Nov - 2PM concert. Going to be there by 12noon. To buy goods and meet Kak Azie and Kak Rehan.

Sunday 20th Nov - Buy Hi-5/Autograph tickets for Block B at Orchard Parade Hotel. Most likely will be there by 11am.

Monday 21st Nov - Dinner at Hei Sushi with the peepz. 7pm. -___-;; travelling in the dark baby.

Thursday 24th Nov - Going to go pick up Vivid at airport. Will be there by 3pm. Hanging out alone at airport. Hey, big brother, pei me...

Friday 25th Nov - Sundown Fanmeet at Square 2. Will be there by 4pm. Bring camera, I have no fanboard unfortunately.

Saturday 26th Nov - Sundown Festival. Will be there by 7am (shift queuing with Vivid fans. to pei my sis because I'm not part of Vivid Singapore Fanclub.).

Sunday 27th Nov - (if we get tickets) HAP2011 at *scape. Will be there early I guess. Around 12noon. Must dress up visual-kei-ish bah...

Sunday 4th Dec - TVXQ fanparty. Most likely will be there early. (I can't even remember what time the fanparty starts actually. -___-)

Wednesday 28th Dec - Block B's fanmeeting at ???.

Thursday 29th Dec - Block B's showcase at St. James Powerhouse. Going to make small fanboard for Jaehyo. for fun really.

That's all the dates that I need to care about at the moment.

i feel dizzy. i use too much braincells to rant (was ranting in another post). pain....

see you.

[[whatever it is...]]

2011-11-13T03:50:00.000+08:00

Still wondering about Block B's showcase. Oh well. We'll see, we'll see.

I finally finished watching Hanawake no Yon Shimai. I didn't expect myself to cry so much at all! But I'm glad I watched the drama. I really love this type of dramas. Now on to the next drama~ Last Money -Ai no Medan-.

Okie, I went to AFA 2011 just now... it was a last minute decision because we didn't really thought of going and I didn't even know there was an AFA this week. Oh well. But it was cool to see all those cosplayers!! And I bought a katana! Fine, bleach katana but don't care, it's still a katana. Fake, of course. Then bought a bunch of merchandise. Mostly Kuroshitsuji stuff. Don't ask. We spent about three hours there, I think. Like whoa~~~

The funny thing about this, Pink was there too. But who cares. I didn't bump into them. And really, I'd rather not bump into her.

And so in the end, I didn't do any shopping at apparel shops. Sheesh. I guess I'm going to go shopping on my own soon unless I can manage to drag my sis out. Oh well.

And thanks to AFA, I'm back to obsessing over Milky Holmes. Those pretty, cute, rather strange and funny four detectives~ Sheryl, Nero, Elly and Cordelia~ But there's one thing I'm upset with AFA, the figurine they put on display for Milky Holmes, there was only Sheryl and Elly. Though I adore Elly, I wish there was Cordelia. And then in the brochure for Milky Holmes performance (their seiyuu unit), there is no Cordelia in the picture. I'm like, "WHY?!!" Don't tell me Milky Holmes is reduced to a three-member unit. It's not the same without Cordelia!! Her voice is the nicest (to me at least) in the unit. And she's the prettiest too (to me at least, okie fine Nero is prettier..)!! WHY?! of all people, why Cordelia is not in the picture. T___T

and now I want a nendoroid. the sheryl one. and the petit ones! I want the whole set of the petit one!! I wonder if there's a normal size nendoroid for cordelia... hmmm.. going to check it out and then i'll go to sleep.

see ya~

[[stuff I want to do... but have not done...]]

2011-11-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

Notes for myself

- Start on the arrangement of 0330. (transcribe, eliminate, write violin line, bass line and vocal chorus)
- Uchiwa making. 2PM, TVXQ.
- Update fic rec list. Tons of Onho + Jongho this time round. With a bit of Ontae.

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Okie, that aside. There's something I'm wondering about.

Is it alright for me to go for a showcase at a club but on that day, no alcohol is going to be served, the whole place is being booked by the event organizer so that all ages is allowed in?

This is one of my main concerns right now because Block B's showcase is going to be held there and without the showcase ticket, I can't get a hi-5 ticket. And I really want the hi-5 ticket. (reason is i want to see Jaehyo up-close and hi-5 with him. oooo skinship.) And no I cannot ignore the showcase because my sister wants to go and she said she's going to pay for my TVXQ ticket if I go with her. Even if the amount that I'm going to pay for the Block B showcase + hi-5 ticket will amount to the same.

Anyways, is it okay? I know the place is still a club but it's just a place right? Not like we are partying and drinking in there. I mean if that's the case, we shouldn't go to public coffee shops because people drink there too. And we shouldn't go to karaoke lounges because people party and drink in there too. -___-;;

Oh well. I'm going anyways. But if I don't get hi-5 tickets, I'm reselling my ticket. Simple logic for me.

Anyways, I've finally finished Team Batista 3 and Bartender. Time to watch Hanawake no Yon Shimai and Last Money - Ai no Nedan -.

[[and it was a supposedly well-fought battle]]

2011-11-09T10:20:00.000+08:00

time to rant about TVXQ fanparty ticket booking stuff. At 11 minutes mark, the arena area is fully red. oh well. In the end, as kanchiong as we are, we are at T15, row15. Not too bad considering it's just 3 rows behind the damn arena area and it's at the side. And bleh it's cheaper. but as long as I'm there and I can see them somehow, I'm a happy girl. And it's on my birthday, so I'm beyond happy okay. I might even cry on that day because I end the day watching TVXQ man!

enough about TVXQ.

remember i had a post the other day but i 'deleted' it? well i don't really want to get into trouble for flaming people so let's ignore that post ever existed.

and hey, i did managed to go out with Su anyways~ hehe.

updates on that dinner outing. it's changed back to the original date and location. timing is at 7pm. in the dark, i have to look for my bus-stop. life is so citrus these days.

anyways on a brighter note, yesterday I had fun with Su~

We went to Cityhall. walking around cityhall area is like way more tiring than walking around orchard. like for example, it's not that far to walk to 313@somerset from orchard mrt but it feels really far to walk from cityhall mrt to suntec city convention hall. -__- like wth.

anyways, we went to look for a place to eat and decided in the end to eat at burgerking. tried the BK Spicy Chicken (or whatever it was called). It's like McD's McSpicy only... not that spicy.

And after eating, we walked around and did some shopping. Actually we did some shopping before eating. distracted before finding a place to eat. lol. At the end of the day, I bought one shawl, one cap (this cute checkered with a ribbon cap), one wallet and one bracelet. I adore the stuff i bought. ^___^

I came home around 8++pm. Oh well. I'm stressed out about that dinner outing but I'm going to be all heck care for now. And besides I have better things to care about like making the uchiwa for 2PM concert. Chansung oppa!! I wonder if he can see it... considering i'm gonna be at the back somewhere... -___-;; Then I also have other things to care about like going to Woodlands Waterfront, returning my library book, practice taking pictures and stuff like that. And trying to coordinate my clothes for sundown. my sis has an easy job because she's wearing the fanclub t-shirt. but me... damn. Then now thanks to getting the tickets, I need to make a fanboard for Yunho~~~

see you~

[[i might just go back to j-pop]]

2011-10-30T18:22:00.002+08:00

i'm falling out of k-pop fandom to say the least. i'm still into SHINee and anything SMTown at the moment but anything other than that, I'm just not interested.

Plus the fact that tickets for SNSD concert is Sold Out, I'm feeling even more pissed off. I'm freaking pissed off.

And no matter what people tell me, I'm not in the mood to look for a job. So leave me alone. And no matter what people tell me, I'm not in the mood to study either. So really leave me alone.

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Anyways to the mundane stuff.

On thursday, I went out with my sister. So we went to eat at Seoul Garden at NP. Maybe because I just woke up and ate breakfast, I became full rather quickly. oh well. Then we went walking around. Bought two dresses + one blouse at Vogue. My sis bought two dresses + three blouses. The sales person is really nice to us to give us a discount mainly because we are like regular customers. hehe.

After that, we went to AMK. To catch a movie. Paranormal Activity 3. Whatever is with this movie. I just don't want to think about it anymore. And those students from NYP who were queuing in front of us... tsk tsk. Why would you not bring your IC with you? -___-;; Anyways whatever. After the movie, walked around. Looked around at Watson and was displeased with the range of facial masks. So I'm going to order online. pfft. After which we went home.

Oh and I borrowed a book to read. I'm taking my time to read because I'm distracted by other stuff. (read: fanfiction)

Friday. Nothing much.

Yesterday, went to my parents' friend(?)'s child's wedding. Main agenda: to eat.... The food was nice. I like the meat in dunno-wat-sauce. The fish tasted bleh for some reason. After that we went to expo! Bought two cardigans + one pair of pants + slippers! My sis bought three cardigans + slippers. Tiring to walk with my heels (it's firstly loose, secondly it's like really short heels).

Then at night, it's anime time! Watched Last Exile: Fam the silverwing, Un-Go and Guilty Crown. Today I watched Fate Zero.

Going back to my distractions (read:fanfiction) while listening to j-pop. Haha.

[[I feel like selling my stuff...]]

2011-10-26T20:20:00.003+08:00

which wouldn't happen because I don't sell stuff to begin with. But I really want to sell things away.

Like that U-KISS 4th Mini-album BreakTime. I want to sell it but it's not exactly in the best of condition.

Then the SHINee Replay -君は僕のeverything- Limited Edition. This is still in good quality only without the trading card.

Then I want to sell SHINee Juliette Limited Edition Type A and B. They are still in perfect condition, only without the trading card. Type B will come with that play button thing.

Also, I want to sell off my V6 Live Tour DVD. I can't remember what Tour it was but it was in 2010. I have like two versions and I can't remember much about them. And I doubt I watched it.

Then some other stuff I want to sell are my old magazines. A LOT OF JE stuff. From 2008-2010. If I'm not wrong. Since I kinda tore up some stuff, I was thinking of selling pages. Like tell me a certain page from a certain issue of a magazine and I'll sell it for $0.20 per page or something.

I want to sell two toe nail arts too. I bought them for $5 each (there's 24 pieces) and I'm selling at $4. It's new and I only opened it once to look at them. Okie, I touched them too but mostly to look at them. I might sell some nail arts too at $3.50 per box.

And that's the stuff I want to sell but I'm not making a single effort at selling them. Why? Because I don't sell things! I bought all these stuff and I really want to keep them and use them (the nails) that's why.... boo I'm crazy.

Oh well.

[[i think i'm dying... or at the very least... i'll lose my voice...]]

2011-10-18T18:59:00.002+08:00

not a big deal. i exaggerate the truths when I am not feeling well. I've not been well since Saturday. And ever since yesterday, my throat feels like it is on fire and it feel swollen. And I can't speak. Well I can. But it hurts to talk. It hurts even more to cough. urgh. and it even hurts to drink liquid (water and etc...). It hurts to even swallow my own saliva. And my body feel achy all over but it wasn't as bad as when it was Sunday night (I couldn't sleep without facing the ceiling and that sucks like hell).

I just want to get well by the end of this week. I can't stand being sick for so long.

And today is the first day that I'm actually using the laptop properly again. (I used it the other two days but I was only checking stuff and acting like I'm alive.) Anyways. Thanks to me being all bed-ridden, (no really, I've been lying down the whole few days) I've been reduced to watch tv 24/7. Sheesh. The shows they have on tv... -___-;; I watched Melissa and Joey, Junior Master Chef Australia, Master Chef whatever season, some show I can't remember the title, Pops in Seoul, He who can't get marry... okie just to list a few. Because watching tv 24/7 means I watch more than that.

Oh well. I'll be back when I'm all well. Hopefully, my voice would be intact. If not, that's ok. I don't really want to talk anymore. (try having to translate the korean drama on tv to your mother when your throat hurts like crazy.)

this has been the update to show that I'm still alive.

[[maybe i'm just being an insensitive person again...]]

2011-10-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

not that i care. but it doesn't matter to me whether you get hurt or not.

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Okie. Yesterday I was out and about. Met up with mummyQi at Orchard MRT around 12noon. Went straight to find the burgerking outlet to eat. So we sat down and ate and talked. Like we always do.

After that, we walked around and bought stuff. Well mostly, I bought stuff. Bought makeup remover wipes, wet tissues and nail polish top coat at watsons. Looked through the facial masks... I'm thinking of browsing there again when I go out next week. I want to see if I can find the brand that I want. If there isn't, I'll just order it online. (besides online for the brand I want, I can get 50 pieces for $10, so might as well.) Then after that, we went to Daiso to look for the blank uchiwas. And mummyQi learnt a new word. UCHIWA = FAN. hehe. Then after that we tried happylemon's cocoa tea latte with cream puff. It was a strange mix at first but after a while it tasted quite delicious~ And our inside joke on the rock salt cheese. hehehe.

After that, I dragged her around and we went to Kinokuniya. Where I looked at magazines and pointed out about random JE boys. Oh my, how long have I not done that. And mummyQi said that Chinen looks so matured now. Lol. Then looked through mangas. Then after that, we went all the way to 313 but before that, we entered H&M. Looked through their line of dresses, shoes and blouses and coats.

Then at 313, went straight to the Long John Silver because mummyQi was still hungry. LOL. so we ate some sesame rice munchies and crunchy prawns. Yum~ The sesame rice munchies are really nice. Maybe we should start frying out onigiris now. hehehe. I'm thinking of buying some of those munchies home next week when I go out.

After eating, we went to NewLook where mummyQi found some shoes that she really likes (and has her size!!). But she didn't buy them.. and her mother said she can't. T-T. If I was her, I would have just bought them to spite my mother. -__-;; But either way, I'm going to NewLook next week when I go out to buy some accessories or something. Maybe a pair of pumps? Hmmmm.

After that, we went to HMV to look around. That's about it. After that, we went on our separate ways home. Well, I didn't. I went to Northpoint. Went to the library, borrowed some books. <-reason why I'm going out next week. Then met up with my sister at the sistic counter to collect the tickets for 2PM's concert. Okie, fine, I'll be sitting quite far from the stage but I DON'T CARE RIGHT NOW. -__-;; I'll regret it later when I'm at the concert okie, but right now, I don't care. After that, went to popular bookstore to buy some craft stuff for our uchiwas~ And that's about it.

I'm going to read the books I borrowed. Act all vain. Do some vain stuff tomorrow morning when I wake up. Do more vain stuff later in the afternoon tomorrow. I don't know why but I'm really vain now.

oh well.

[[my bubblegum coloured nails...]]

2011-10-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

so so so...

I got my stuff from gmarket~~ It came on Saturday without me knowing. -__-;; so I was in the toilet and my sister signed for me instead. Sometimes, singpost can be efficient, sometimes not. I think huge stuff they are efficient.. small things, they are not. -__-;;

Anyways, I love my new shawls. And since I got some free scarfs, I'll give them to mummyQi. And I love my fake nails. But I'm not going to wear them yet. I know when I'll wear them, so no worries there. And I love my stuff toy rabbit~ For fun, my sister asked me to take off his coat and put it on my other stuff toy. hahaha. But I love all my stuff toys~~

Oh and on Saturday, me and my sis woke up extra early to do the purchase of the tickets for 2PM concert. I hate how they make us kanchiong for nothing. Know why? The tickets were sold by batch. Anyways, it was kecoh on that morning. My sis and I had to try on both mine and her laptop to see if we can get the tickets. Superb. Then because I thought the tickets were sold out for Pen A and B... I suggested my sis to call up Kak Azie to see if she wants us to buy the tickets for them. So yeah. Thankfully. But I just checked sistic today and there's still tickets? Like how in the world... 2PM has not much fans? Lies...

And today, my sis-in-law and brother came. Ah my sis-in-law is not going for the concert. Dunno why. Anyways... whatever.

Then tomorrow I'll hang out with mummyQi~ I need to buy some stuff anyways. Two blank uchiwas from daiso, top coat nail polish, some accessories (maybe), art supplies. Since Yun-ie couldn't come, it's just me and mummyQi~~ hehehe. I need to wake up early tomorrow.

And I put pink and blue nail polish for tomorrow~ SO bubblegum. but so messy. oh well. Should I bring my camera tomorrow? Ah lazy. We'll take pictures using mummyQi's phone. hehe.

see ya~!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BABYQI!!!

2011-10-06T14:09:00.005+08:00

(post has nothing to do with my title)

how the heck will i save money with all these concerts that I need to pay for...

Nov. 19th - 2PM Concert (the details are not out yet but damn, confirm we all going. Me, my sis, my sis-in-law, Kak Azie and Kak Rehan.)

Nov. 26th - Sundown Festival (Teentop! Vivid! Okie, this one I have paid for it already.)

Sometime next year - Super Show 4 (Super Junior... Shit shit. Need to go for it man.)

Sometime next year February? Some said it's this year December though... - SNSD Concert. (Thinking whether I want to go...)

To see your idols is so expensive. Haiz. That's it. When SNSD comes, I will just go to the airport. I don't think I'll be going for their concert...

on a brighter note... I'll probably get my package from gmarket next week!! And add it with my lucifer single. I'll be all happy~ Broke, but happy regardless.

~~I'll update the fic rec list soon. -___-;; I'm just kinda lazy to compile the list right now.~~ I've updated it! So check it out! I have more Jongho and Onho fics to recommend!! Go here.

[[being vain is a tiring facade]]

2011-10-03T13:04:00.005+08:00

trying to break free from the little facade that i've put on for years.
not that i'm saying i've given up.

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the japanese version of lucifer mv. i just... have nothing to say except that it's really nice~ though they look like they're constipated at some moments but whatever, it's nice. I really like the red outfits they wore and I really like the water thing. High-speed cameras with water is just perfect! But whatever they are singing, I don't really understand (more like I can't make out their japanese...). But I really like Minho's rap; even if I really can't understand what he's rapping. So I'll look forward to getting my single on Oct 12th. Hehe.

most of the animes that I was watching ended. So I'm watching new animes. Fate Zero is really interesting. And the servants are FREAKING COOL looking. Okie, sorry. I'm looking forward to Kimi to Boku and also Guilty Crown.

i've reorganized my posters on my bedroom walls. It felt like tetris because I was trying to fit them together. but i've yet to reorganize my room. so many things I want to throw away. T__T

oh and I've bought a bunch of stuff from gmarket again. T__T money gone! and a pair of shoes from NewLook. I love those shoes!! Anyways, I bought 10 fake-nails sets, one pair of skirt-leggings, one bag, 7 shawls and one stuffed toy rabbit. I want to go to NewLook and buy stuff. I guess I'll drag my mummyQi to go shopping with me.

Talking about mummyQi, I wonder where we going to eat lunch on the 10th. mummyQi needs to be saved but mummyQi doesn't tell me where she's going with Yun-ie. And there's plans for November when it's still a long way from now. mummyQi wants to go shopping, so I'll bring her around shopping. Then she told me she's never been to Downtown East... which I think is a joke. Because I remembered she talking to me about that rundown themepark. Okie, maybe she's not been there recently. Anyways, we're going to go eat there but the other two hasn't replied to the event. I think. Pinky and An-chan, reply soon~~

I was just eavesdropping on my parents talking just now and I heard them talking about traveling to foreign countries on our own. ~~But what's so wrong? Everyone does that too.~~ I know why now. it's because of the news about the student who went missing in Greece. Now I have this feeling my dad won't let me and my sis go Japan next year. I want to go Japan. I'm going to even plan out our schedules and shit like that and even study the railway map! And simple japanese is good enough right? Like... "OO ga doko desuka?" is understandable right? and then the person will use their hand and point to the direction... and hotel, we'll book it beforehand and it's going to be at Tokyo. BOOO-HOOO. And the food, if we can't find the halal ones (which exists but we really have to find it), we'll eat our cup noodles. please, let us go.

what on earth am I rambling on and on about...?

[[another day... another day...]]

2011-09-24T16:24:00.003+08:00

A nice two-shot with Qilian at Sentosa Broadwalk. hehe.

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So lately, what has been happening?

Nothing! I've been chatting with Qilian on fb and went out with her last thursday to have lunch and a mini-photoshoot. Other than that, I've been doing nothing!

I was obsessing over Minstal and Taelli though. I even told Qilian about Minstal. I don't care what people think, I think Minstal and Taelli is freaking cute!

Oh but I don't get why there's a bunch of MinYul shippers who bash us, Minstal shippers. They keep chiding and saying that Minstal is mental lah, Minstal is so fake lah. blah blah blah. Excuse me? What even....

Regardless, I shall forever be a Minstal shipper. I used to be a MinYul shipper and I can accept their moments. Just don't bash each other and crap like that. I respect you, you respect me. Simple basic courtesy shit man. (This sounds like when I was talking about Jongho, Minkey, 2min and Jongkey. gosh.....)

And I really love the Minstal fb page. The fans there especially the admins are so nice and peaceful~ And they give me so much updates on everything I want to know and not know. Lol.

Okie what am I even rambling about....

Next week, Thursday, I'm going to meet Suhailah~ It feels like it's been a while since I last saw her. Then I need to go buy present for Qilian. She is so subtle in telling me she wants to hang out on the 6th. I'm going to make her go out with me then. But I don't know what to buy for her so I shall be like Minho and Key and go together with her to get her birthday present.

And today, going to the airport later. To send my brother off to India. Late, late at night...

I'll update coherently some other day~

[[this is literature, I'm telling you. Pure literature.]]

2011-09-19T11:47:00.004+08:00

no I kid. It's just stuff on my tumblr dash and it's making me think I'm reading literature. My definition of literature is a piece of text that sets me thinking. So yeah. I'm thinking alright.

anyways, it's just some awesome ask-answer things from one of the people I follow. I really love her opinions these days. Well mostly because I can relate. But anyways, I like her comment on JongHo~ hehehehe. I would have posted the excerpt of it IF blogger wasn't having picture posting issues. But anyways, I feel that Jonghyun and Minho are rather much closer to each other than Jonghyun and Key are. Well, Jonghyun can have more than one best friend if he wants. I don't really care. And the other one where she was talking about some JongKey stans. Oh wow, I am like, "YEAH GIRL!! I AGREE WITH YA!"

Okie that aside, I'm thinking of going to the library tomorrow. I want to read!! Shit. So tomorrow, I'm going to woodlands, please do not rain. Should I go cityplaza after that? I want to put extensions in hair. But I don't want to go alone. And more like I think it'll all drop off before Sundown. Ah next month, I shall put them in bah.And this Thursday, please don't rain either. I want to enjoy my day out with Qilian. And I want to wear dress de... SO please don't rain.

And I think I should go rewatch Hello Baby. My sister asked me to go watch it again to see if Minho is left-handed or right-handed. But I want to rewatch it anyways. Edit: I was right! He is right-handed! who the heck told you he was left-handed, huh, noona?

I'm going to read some fluffy OnHo and then squeal over Taelli. And then watch tv. See ya.

[[just to update...]]

2011-09-14T12:59:00.002+08:00

I'll start with the mundane shit.

So the other day, Wednesday, I went to meet my peepz for dinner. Got the tickets to SHINee WORLD from Rabiatul. Then whatever else we did, I can't seem to remember. I think we walked rather aimlessly.

Then on Thursday, I met Suhailah at Downtown East. And we ate sushi buffet at Hei Sushi~ Yum~~ Then after that, we went to Tampines. We went to the handicraft store and bought some stuff. So I bought beads and stuff. I'm going to make some bracelets. I made some hair accessories for myself. Then we walked around and drank some soda from the korean store.

Then. On Friday, I went out with my sister to buy stuff. I bought my glow-in-the-dark thingy. And bought some dramas to watch. Then I completed my uchiwa.

Saturday. Woke up early and off to Indoor Stadium for SHINee WORLD concert!! It was awesome~~ To see Minho so close is like a dream come true~ I am living in bliss at the moment. I just can't believe I was actually watching it. It didn't sunk in at all. Oh my god. (not going to say much though... since I wrote it on my tumblr that day anyways.)

Then on Sunday, did nothing. Waited for my parents to come home from KL. Ate KFC for lunch and maggie for dinner. And to hell with whatever happened this week. All I did was watch anime. And not going to care. And Rabiatul and Qilian kept saying things like, "OMG, there's a real-life hikikomori amongst us." when they hear how I've not been out of my house or even doing anything. Things that should only happen in Japan is actually happening everywhere else. But yeah, I've not been out of my house unless someone drag me out. It's been at least 6 months now.

Oh well, my life. the end.

[[so so...]]

2011-09-07T11:01:00.002+08:00

so saturday was over and done with.

went to my uncle's house for the mass gathering. then after that we made our way to the other relative's houses. when we were on the way back to yishun though, there was a traffic jam, so we got stuck there for a while before we managed to get to yishun. after that, we went to my sis-in-law's house. That was the last house. My brother talked to my eldest brother in the car ride there. And then, we started talking about buying a WII. don't know if that will happen. Then somehow, my brother started talking about how I'm a flying squirrel thanks to my clothes. -___-;; oh well.

Then on Sunday, went to one of my mother's relative's house. It's one of the most comfortable places I can be at. I ate without care, I watched tv without care, I kept pouring drinks without a care. This is bad. But it's so comfortable.

That's all for raya.

Today, I will go out with my peepz. To have dinner. man, I feel broke. I still owe my sis and Suhailah money. I'll pay Suhailah back tomorrow. My sis, later lah. Anyways, I'm going to get the tickets from Rabiatul. So Saturday will be SHINee concert. Need to start queuing from 11am though. -___-;; damn moshpit. and damn lightstick, why you freaking $9.

Okie, tomorrow, going out with Suhailah. Eat lunch then maybe movie at downtown east~

That's all for now.

ドロン。

[[what even...]]

2011-09-01T12:06:00.003+08:00

I won't even think about it. just thinking about it makes my blood boil.

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anyways, firstly it's raya~~~ not even interested in it really. at most, i'll be bothered on Saturday and then forget everything about it.

The day before the first day, busy changing the bedsheets, curtains and cushion covers. Plus, we made pineapple tarts too. busy huh. thankfully my brother was at home this year so we can exploit him in helping with the cushions and curtains. Though he made me change his bedsheets and for the first time, I see him do some b-boy on the bed. handstand yo... LOL.

Then on the first day, it was rather busy, I was as always in-charge of dishes... I can't cook so the most I could do is wash the dishes. But because of the last minute preparations and stuff like that, I had to help with miscellaneous shit around the house. Like folding clothes, changing the table cloths, helping my dad carry furniture, changing the carpets.

my brother and sis-in-law came by. Ate lunch together. then asked for forgiveness from each other and then took pictures. I'll upload the pictures once Saturday is over. No point putting up like two pictures...

Saturday, we going to one of my uncle's place for a raya gathering. Let's see if we going anywhere else.

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I will never understand them. I will never want to understand them. they make me feel insignificant and unwanted. As much as I care about them, they barely give me their time. I really want to give up caring but I just can't.

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Seen the UKISS comeback MV? Neverland? I think I can really safely state that I do not like the song. I'll see about the whole album later. But right now, I don't think Neverland will ever be on my like list. But I have only one thing I need to say, I like how Kiseop looks right now. ~~redundant comment.~~

And I'm still waiting for my Juliette single to arrive. Speedpost is being slow after a holiday. -__-;; Then after that I need to go to the atm to transfer money plus update my bankbook. Be proud of me, I've not ordered anything online since Juliette single. Not an accomplishment at all.

I'm watching Kimi ni Todoke at the moment~ The anime not the drama.

ドロン。(<-how long have i not used this?)

SHINee Fic Rec List

2011-08-22T13:10:00.016+08:00

okie, I promised to make a fic rec list. So here it is. Sorted by pairings. Mostly is Minkey, Jongho and Onho. I don't read Jongkey, 2min and Taekey, so there's no recs for those pairings (at the moment at least). and yes, this is an edited list. And I'm upset with LJ because it deleted the whole crap while I was working on them. So i'm putting it here instead

To the list!!

Minho/Key

One Year Later by jecca_09
AU. There's enough drama, angst and romance in this one. I really like how Minho's and Key's relationship is portrayed in this.

Dishes, Suitcases by quirke
In a time where SHINee disbands and Minho and Key are left in the dorm thinking of where they should go from then on.

A little longing goes a long way by closeta
this is quite fun to read. There's a side Super Junior pairing in there which is Kibum/Donghae. And they all play soccer together. Hehe.

All is not golden pumadragon
there's a slight!onkey and slight!Onew/Taeyeon in here. But I find it amusing how Onew is kind of slow and then he almost messed things up for Minho and Key.

Key and the case of the missing g.s.a. by rain_streaked
AU. I really liked this one. I like how Minho realizes about his feelings and Key's feelings.

Mot Juste by nudge
this is a very simple one-shot but it says a lot. And I like how it centers around cracking an egg and frying it. Well not like that's the main point, but anyways.

Tell me goodbye by ixjaydee
AU. This one is quite unexpected. Angst.

With him by paranoiascreams
broken!Minkey, side!Jongho and Onkey. This is angst. I like this because of how suddenly their relationship just changed and then Minho is such a jerk.

Saving Lives (two-parts) by hiroban
AU. There's side!Taekey and Jongho. But this is one creepy fic. Read it at your own risk. Lol. No, this is a really good fic.

Body Switch by vipjuly
This is fun to read. What happens when Minho and Key switches bodies. And there's a slight!Jongho too.

Do you hear what I hear by rudyard
AU. Minho is deaf and Kibum wants to make Minho realize that it doesn't matter if Minho can't hear him. This is amazing. I really like how their relationship is portrayed.

Rust and Blue by estimae
The way their relationship is portrayed in here is so complex and yet it's so simple. I really like this one.

Starlight in your eyes by chiharu (minkey)
AU. Personally, I feel this is cliche. But I like this cliche-ness. Anyways, Kibum meets Minho during some cardio exercise thing. And well, he hurts himself and Minho is this ever concern guy who 'stalks' Kibum just to see if he's fine. Somehow they form this friendship and I really like how this whole part is written. Just read it! (and maybe you'll spot what I meant by cliché.)

Cold Heart Baby (chaptered) by ixjaydee
AU. This one is really sweet and there's certain amount of angst but I just like how everything turns out good for everyone in the end. There's side!Ontae/Jongyu.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10

Up & Down (chaptered) by vipjuly
AU. Girl!Key so het!Minkey with side!Jongyu. This is a really nice read. I like how everything turns out in the end.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9

Minho/Jonghyun

In our room by little_bibelot
AU. Jonghyun and Minho shares a dorm together and well stuff happens. It's rather realistic and it is not dramatic on the relation between the two of them.

Nine point (ten if you count flipping over) by nudge
AU. All I can say is this is cute. Oh and I like how it's centered around the bus tickets.

Puppy angst by undamage
Jonghyun ponders about why Minho doesn't like him. Especially since Minho likes all his hyungs and Jonghyun is a hyung too. Another cute fic.

Side effects by namgeun
AU. A short simple fic where Minho is dense and Jonghyun keeps throwing up.

The game by ms_wolbra
It revolves around that game rule. The one where you flirt, play around with each other but the first one that falls in love loses. I find this quite cute actually.

Very long odds (but not really) by indubutably
In which SHINee needs to do more fanservice and Minho and Kibum decides to have a bet. I found this quite cute and how Minho basically smoulders Jonghyun with affection is just precious.

Wipe out by scylladakylla
In which SHINee goes snowboarding and Jonghyun just sucks at it. But he has Minho there with him.

Wish I was your lover by pinkweather
There's a side!Kyuhyun/Donghae and slight!Jonghyun/Kyuhyun. Jonghyun tries to use Kyuhyun to make Minho jealous or something like that but then ends up failing. This is fun to read.

Promises (two-parts) by ms_wolbra
AU. This makes me cry no matter how many times I've read it. Definite recommend.

Pumped up kicks by i_am_rolling
AU. Again dorm-life with Jonghyun and Minho. This one is pretty good.

Cooking 101 by saranghaehyung
This is cute. Like really cute. Minho and Jonghyun cooks dinner but Jonghyun is messing things up but who cares. This is just cute.

Twenty-one questions by thatofyou
This is also another cute one. Sweet and short. They play twenty-one questions and well it's just cute.

Experiments by nortonamo
NC-17. I need to state this because really, it revolves around porn. -__-;; But anyways, they are left alone in the hotel room and Jonghyun decides to watch porn.

Amygdala by theinterval
AU. This is one twisted fic that left me speechless. It's really good. Another definite recommend.

Cingulate Gyrus (aka Amygdala Part II) by theinterval
AU. The sequel to Amygdala. It's still as twisted. And there's a side!Ontae.

Poisonous Dreams in the morning (two-parts) by itachibana13
AU. This is really interesting to read. I really love the plot, the setting, everything! There's also side!Ontae.

After Life by vipjuly
AU. Read this! It needs no words/explanation. It's just perfect.

Love is selfish by blackprince_85
AU. Side!Jongkey. Jonghyun is Minho's mistress. And though I feel bad for Jonghyun, this is a nice representation of a mistress. I feel that too many mistresses have been depicted like bitches, so I like this.

Crossing the line by taerii
This describes just perfectly what that kiss was about. Well sort-of. Anyways, it's based on the kiss during the rehearsal that Minho obviously asked for but didn't expect to happen.

Distaste by hahappyness
It's short and really cute. Jonghyun doesn't want to eat and Minho is worried for him and feeds him.

Le Petit Minho by yunho
AU. I really liked this one. Jonghyun needed someone to illustrate the children's book he's writing and Key suggested Minho to help him. The way their relationship is portrayed and developed is really nicely written.

The Kiss by pikajoon
Another one of those fics that is written after that kiss (peck whatever) during the Nanjing Rehearsal. This is one is cute and rather hilarious, if you ask me. Especially the part where Minho has a mind-control book and Taemin tries to give advice. Go READ IT.

So Maybe by jaaycakes
AU. I think I read way too many of these type of fics. Jonghyun becomes Minho's roommate and their relationship develops from there. Only this fic centers around what Minho wanted for Christmas all his life. A puppy and someone to love.

Secrets and Lies by ebriosity
This is cute and hilarious. (well to me at least.) Minho is keeping a secret and it made him turn green, literally. So the group tries to figure out why. It's just really cute.

Behind the scenes by lucyjum
NC-17. This takes place when SHINee was in Paris for SMTown. Jonghyun feels uncomfortable and insecure at such an unfamiliar place. And Minho is there to take away all those insecurities.

The Stars by pikajoon
AU. Girl!Minho. Yeap, we need more girl!Minho fics. Anyways, Jonghyun is a jerk towards Minjung but he really likes her. This is funny.

Of Ponytails and Caps by finnish_pirate
NC-17/R. I can't remember the rating. Anyways, Jonghyun is bored and wants Minho to play with him.

Of Whispers and Punches by finnish_pirate
It's a prelude/sequel to Of Ponytails and Caps. This one is about their relationship from how it all began with all the teasing to how it developed into something more than just a normal friendship.

till I burst by scarletpeonies
warning: watersports. Hard r/nc-17. Go google the warning first before reading just to be safe. Anyways, Jonghyun has this urge to go and well Minho is there to help him go. I find this fic really interesting and I don't know I just like the fic, alright.

Backstage Pass by gurki
crossdressing Minho~! Right. nc-17, plotless smut. Minho being bottom and in mini-skirt is enough reason for me to rec this.

Never forget that by missydayy
This is beyond heartbreaking. Prepare your tissues. Anyways, Jonghyun should have walked Minho home that day. So the fic follows Jonghyun's struggle to keep sane after losing Minho.

nickels and dimes by seoulstories
Cute. Just cute. Minho says that if he could get a nickel for every time Jonghyun tries to kiss him, he'll be rich, so Jonghyun decides to help Minho get rich.

pretty the world by loverotations
AU. In which Minho is deaf. I really like how their relationship is portrayed and how it progresses and how Jonghyun learns sign language for Minho and how Minho learns to play the guitar just for Jonghyun. Gosh, it's just so sweet.

Push and Pull by sharpersong
I think it's AU. More crossdressing Minho. And more plotless smut. (what is wrong with me?) But the part with Taemin is just hilarious. Oh man. And at the end when they left, oh gosh.

Composer by Sabrina (bffimagine)
Let's see where should I begin with this. This fic is really emotional. Not the I-will-cry kind, but more of the my-chest-hurts-and-it-wont-go-away kind. In this, Minho has a habit of breaking beautiful things and Jonghyun is one of those.

Hushed (two parts) by hipslip
AU. Jonghyun doesn't speak and Minho is determined to find out why. Their relationship is rocky at first but as time goes by, it becomes really cute. And there's side!Ontae.

Jurassic Park by goyangi
Jonghyun has a weird way of trying to get attention from Minho. Inaccurate facts about dinosaur births and whatever else. But this is funny and cute at the same time. Recommended!

Someone like you by ascarybook
Firstly, I have no idea where to put this under. But since mostly it's about Jongho, I placed it under Jongho. It has Onho in it. Anyways, this fic is based on the song by Adele of the same title. And as much as I love the song, this fic is really well written. The way how Jonghyun's and Minho's relationship is portrayed from the sweet moments to the point of break-up and then when Minho meets Jonghyun again years later. And the Onho part, *flails*. Just perfect.

Replay by mintyfresh1
another fic that revolves around the Nanjing kiss. This one is so innocent yet indecent but anyways, Minho can't get to sleep because he's constantly thinking about the kiss and then Jonghyun comes knocking on his door and tries to explain to Minho what he felt and what that kiss was about. And well, there's lots of kissing, innocent not-there-yet-sex and really cute, cute conversations.

These games we play by kiwi-ism
AU. Minho likes to see people try to flirt with his boyfriend, Jonghyun. And Jonghyun plays along with his idea. I was going to say plotless smut but I realized there is a plot. Either way, smut. Hehe. (oh my life, just because I rec a lot of smut fics does not mean I read smut all the time, kay...)

When it's Christmas with you by glimmersofstars
AU. Jonghyun spends Christmas with Minho and realizes that it's everything that he's ever wanted. It's kinda dark but fluffy.

Be Quiet by mintyfresh1
NC-17. Jonghyun wants a porn-buddy. But no one is willing to so he forces Minho to watch it with him. Plotless smut, I guess? (what else is new about what I read. LOL)

Maps by gurkl
Jonghyun and Minho shoots their own holiday photobook. This is cute and realistic. I like the style of writing and everything.

The Silent Music by miss_circle (Uti)
minor Ontae and minor Gwiboon/Amber. AU. Jonghyun is a fashion journalist and Minho is a model that works for Gwiboon. However, Minho is a deaf model. This whole fic is just beautifully written. The way it progresses from one scene to another and how Jonghyun and Minho's relationship develops. And the conflict and the resolution.

Loving the rebellious (chaptered) by missydayy
AU. Plot revolves around drug usage and going cold-turkey. There's a side!Onkey.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10

It had to be you (chaptered) by paranoiascreams
AU. Plot revolves around assassins and underground societies. There's side!Ontae.
Prologue | 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | Interlude | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | Epilogue

Obsession by jaaycakes (chaptered)
AU. Another one of those definite recommends. Jonghyun is obsessed and it's killing him slowly. It's a sad yet not something you'd expect. And I like how it's written; the plot, the POV, everything.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Alternate Ending

Minho/Onew

”Hey...” by curionenene
AU. It revolves around Minho receiving unknown phone-calls and he listens to Onew talk on the phone without ever picking the phone up. Well things changes when he does. I recommend this.

One thousand and one nights by phasera
AU. This is cute. Onew is a genie and Minho has three wishes.

Alternative Advances by black_goose
AU. Side!Jongkey. This is really interesting. I really like the whole plot and concept and how Onew is just really clumsy around Minho. And the tension between Jonghyun and Key! This is worth reading.

Avoiding the truth by happyyoyo
AU. This is broken!Onho, Minkey. This is realistic. I can understand how Onew feels in this fic, about not wanting to let go even when the relationship is probably already dead.

Love in silence by blackprince_85
AU. This is simple, innocent and cute. They are both deaf and though Minho didn't want to open up to anyone, Onew managed to make Minho 'talk' to him. And their relationship is cute so innocent and cute.

Even in dreams (love still goes on) by tsukipon
AU. This is just amazing. I really like how Jinki has a sleep-walking problem and that Minho spends the night following Jinki around. It's cute and sweet.

Domesticity and a beach by thatofyou
This is cute. They are at the beach with Minho's niece. Everything about this fic is just cute.

Once, twice, thrice by nighttimefalls
AU. Minho is a rebel and Onew just happens to meet him. Their lives gets entangled with each other. It's amazingly written.

Sunset by chulhyeol
This is really angst-y. Prepare you tissues. Onew is suffering from an illness and he wants to watch the sunset, so Minho brings him to watch the sunset.

Turn a mountain of lies by writtenstones
This is more Onew-centric. And there's a lot going on in this fic. Like Onew's family and Onew's feelings and then comes in Minho and his relationship.

Yours to keep by ruethereal
AU. This is interesting and kinda sad. Onew has that illness where he won't remember what happened when he wakes up the next day. I like how Minho's character in this is like a constant for Onew and he loves Onew regardlessly.

You are beautiful by static_abyss
This is amazing. I like how they go around each other and act like they don't know that they love each other. The whole fic and how it's written is amazing.

This is how it starts by pateshie
AU. This is cute. There's a thunderstorm, Onew got struck by lightning, Minho helps and then they kissed but the next day, Onew doesn't remember what happened so Minho is all upset and avoids talking about what happened.

Those three little words: They don't come easy (four-parts) by villa_visualkei
AU. There's a lot of side pairings. And LeeJoon is a jerk; well kind of. And Minho is a such a patient boyfriend well until he's tired of being patient. Anyways, this is more Onew-centric.

Knocking on your door by icansoar
AU. Stalker-ish Minho. Minho is determined to get Onew to go out with him and Onew tries his best to avoid Minho. It's cute and I really enjoyed this fic. Go read!!

walking in the air by Sarah (heechul_oppa)
AU. I don't know what to say but the plot, the writing style, the emotions played is just amazing. Minho is a robot and he learns about emotions while living with Onew.

Home is where the heart is by nudge
Vampire AU. Onew is a vampire and it's not a typical i-stalk-you-and-bite-you kind of fic. The vampires in this fic aren't dead and a lot of myths about vampires that Minho knows of is strike off. It's really cute.

Cry, cry by naikae
To address recent discussions on the lack of Minho and Onew in the Japan activities, the author decides to write something that is both realistically and painfully truthful. I can't help but agree and cry by the end of the fic.

In dreams by kyttenfae
Too cute. And too short. Onew is sleepy and needs a cuddle. (yes, I just took the summary because I can't think of what to say anymore...)

Fly me by phasera
AU. Can I just say this fic is just perfect? I really like the setting, the plot, the relationship between Minho and Onew and how everything progresses in this fic. To summarize, Onew has a fear of flying but he is training to be a cabin crew.

I'd rather feel pain (than nothing at all) by lucyjum
AU. Minho is kind of disgusting in this fic but who cares. Onew is hung up about his girlfriend (ex I think) and goes to club and meets Minho. And well things happens.

Where the river goes by bullwolf
AU. Onew goes to live with his uncle's family at the farm and well, he tries to adjusts to the different lifestyle. He meets Minho who lives and works for his uncle and they form a friendship (and more).

Fate deals cruelly by masterk3y
AU. This is essentially an Onho fic but there's Jongho because well... Onew and Minho are dating and Minho cheats on Onew with Jonghyun. Read. I really like this. (maybe because it's two of my OTPs~)

Smiling is the easiest lie by ficcy
Onew tries to hurt himself, Minho catches him before he manages to hurt himself. Though it's sad, it's sweet and cute too. Awwww.

Slow Spiral of Insanity by hamsterhen89
It's heartbreaking. Oh and warning: character death. Minho dreams of a parallel world. This fic was so damn cute at the beginning until it starts to get dark and then we realize that Minho is dreaming. I command you to go read this!!

Lost with you by maxism12
AU. It's short, it's sweet. Minho and Jinki are lovers. They travel around without an aim; with Minho leading the way and Jinki following. Beautifully written.

Missing the cues by nerveless
there's side!jongtae and dongkey. Minho is going nuts (for Jinki really) and Jinki has no idea what is going on (especially with the way Minho is acting towards him).

Silver Coin by ikui
I trolled around in tumblr and found this fic by ikui and well, I always loved hers and capebuffalo theories on Onho's relationship. So yeah... I would recommend this fic without saying a word about what it is about. Just know that it has smut.

Hero by chulhyeol
It's the drabble below the fanmix. I don't usually rec drabbles but this is so damn cute. Minho is not going to risk Jinki getting hurt and read how he makes sure Jinki doesn't hurt himself. Hehe.

Christmas Lattes by static_abyss
AU. Jinki works at a coffee shop that Minho frequents in the morning. He tells Minho to come by in the afternoon because they have better coffee. Their relationship develops from then on. Another cute read. (either I just tend to read cute stuff, or my vocab is lacking on similes to cute. -___-)

White picket fences by capebuffalo (two parts)
Key brings Minho to a masquerade gay bar and lo-and-behold, they meet Jinki there who does not notice that the guy he was hitting on was Minho. And when he does, awkwardness ensues. I like the author's characterization of Minho and Jinki as well as her theories on Onho. So I definitely recommend this!

El Diablo (two parts) by theinterval
AU. Onew has a tough week at work and he finds himself calling out to the devil (uh Jonghyun) and the devils makes his life even worst and comes in charming Minho to help Onew get out of this mess and of course make his life better.
Part 1 | Part 2

Home is where the heart is (two parts) by touchingaheart
post-SHINee. Onew has a dream and that is to have a house. And Minho wants to be part of that dream.
Part 1 | Part 2

There's something about Jinki (three parts) by black_goose
AU. With side!Jongkey. It starts off with Onew tripping and Minho helping him out. And then Onew wants to thank him so he slips a note into his locker and unfortunately someone sees him. And oh Minho is a star soccer player and Onew is part of the school paper. Just read, there's something about this fic that will attract you to it.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

A boy brushed in red (three parts) by argh
A picture can change a lot of things in a relationship. And it always brings in misunderstandings. It starts off really dark and painful to read and stuff. But the ending will bring a smile on our faces.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Jonghyun/Onew

Tangled up in Ivy by lily_ina
AU. With side!Minkey. This is probably the one fic that changed my otp from Jongyu to Minkey. But Minkey is not even the main. -___-;; Anyways, this one is cute.

Through my brother's eyes by yunho
AU. They are brothers and Jonghyun is colorblind. So Onew is there. But it's not exactly the sweet brother type fic, it's dark and realistic in a family-centric way. I would recommend this.

Of love and other magic by salted_taiyaki
AU. Onew is Jonghyun's knight-slash-nanny. And well, Jonghyun decides to run away one day and of course it is Onew's job to get him back to the castle. This is cute.

Even if your world ends (never) by ruethereal
AU. There's bff!Onkey. Onew is just beyond adorable in this. I don't care, he is damn cute. And I like how he and Key met and also how he met Jonghyun. It's kinda cliché but cute.

My love is young (unwavering) by ruethereal
AU. Jonghyun-centric. sequel/epilogue to “Even if your world ends (never)”. This is slightly unexpected. And sad. Just go read it.

Truth and Lies by blackprince_85
AU. hinted!Jongkey. Okay, maybe i'm a sucker for this author's fics. Hehe. Anyways, this is rather sad in a way, not angst sad but just sad. Though I was expecting Jonghyun to leave Onew and go with Key, it didn't happen. But anyways, I find Onew in this one sweet.

How Roommates Make Friends (without really saying anything) by olebade (friendship!Jongyu)
AU. Jonghyun moves into his new dorm and meets Jinki who just wants to make Jonghyun laugh and smile. It's cute and I like how this fic concentrates on their friendship and doesn't turn it into a cliche romantic fic.

Jonghyun/Taemin

Walkie Talkie by vipjuly
AU. This is one of favs. Jonghyun and Taemin are neighbours and they talk to each other from their respective windows. It's sad but cute at the same time. Definite recommend.

Small notes of importance by kyaa_kawaii
This is cute. Jonghyun and Taemin writes notes to each other. It's just beyond cute.

Hidden Fears (two-parts) by night_serenade
This is a rather dark, slightly twisted fic. But it's interesting and rather well-written. There's a side!Onkeyho (love triangle of sorts).

The Mozart Effect (chaptered) by kiwi-ism
AU. This is a cute but at the same time slightly heartbreaking story between Jonghyun and Taemin. I found this really sweet and I like how Taemin's relationship with Jonghyun is portrayed. And there's side!Onho.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10 | Chapter 11

Onew/Key

Descent of Perfection (three-parts) by mumuja & luv4yen
AU. With side!Jongho. Plot revolves around psychological issues. Another twisted fic but it's really good. Definite recommend.

Onew/Taemin

of paper airplanes and nail polish by dohremi
AU. I really like the style of writing here. It's rather angst but there's this sweet element in it.

The dreamy boy from Subway by lamch0ps
AU. Het!Ontae. With side het!Jongho. Taeyeon has a crush on one of her regular customers and well, it's cute but there's a tinge of bittersweetness.

Crying with the rain by hikarinoniji
Warning: character death. Though I always think that Ontae is cute and all, why is the fics that I read of them are kinda sad or dark. Anyways, Onew (Jinki whatever, I can't seem to stick to one whenever I rec...) blames himself for Taemin's death. And he just can't cope without Taemin. And there's this side!Jongyu where Jonghyun tries to comfort Onew.

Blinded (chaptered) by ixjaydee
AU. Taemin is blind and Onew is an art student. And there's side!Jongho. This is really good. Another definite recommend.
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8

OT3/4/5

Grit (Jongho, OT5) by linnhe
R. Smut. And there's grime and dirt and blood.

Sunshine (OT3, Jongyu, broken!Onho) by ixjaydee
AU. Something about how Minho still loves Onew and Onew found someone else; Jonghyun. I find Onew in this one endearing.

Better than sex (OT3, Jonghyun/Onew/Minho) by ixjaydee
AU. Though the title is like that, it's PG. It's a cute Christmas story. Where Minho and Jonghyun are at lost at what presents to get for each other.

Christmas Wishes and New Years kisses (OT3, Jonghyun/Onew/Minho) by wishunew
AU. This is cute. Onew is a lonely guy and he wishes for someone to spend Christmas with. And poof, comes in Jonghyun and Minho! And well hilarity ensues. I really loved this. Definite recommend.

Het!Pairings

Home, sweet home (Taemin/Sulli/Minho/Krystal) by douc
AU. This is realistic in some way. And I like how their characters are portrayed as well as their relationships with each other. I especially like Taemin's and Sulli's interactions.

Sundowning (Taemin/Sulli) (two-parts) by quirke
Let's see, this is when SHINee and f(x) disbands. Taemin and Sulli are in a relationship for the media. Well this focusses on their relationship and it's really realistic. I really like this one. Definite recommend.

Of late night and an offer (Taemin/Sulli) by dellayea
This is short and fluffy and cute. Nothing much is needed to be said.

Little Surprises (Taemin/Sulli) by vibranthue
Taemin's birthday fic! It's cute how Sulli plans a surprise for Taemin and I like the text messages. It's just so cute.

If you love me let me know by miyaho (Taemin/Sulli)
This one is really good. Sulli is casted as the female lead in a new movie and realizes that Taemin is the male lead. The movie is like a link between them and their feelings for each other. Definite recommend!

Forever isn't an option by miyaho (Taemin/Sulli)
This is really sad. Sulli goes to Europe and meets a familiar face there. She got her hopes up and then everything crashes again.

Debacles (Minho/Krystal) by onew
This is just cute. Minho and Krystal talk about what they are. And it's just cute. I don't care, it's cute.

Games (Minho/Krystal) by skullchi
Set around the time of King of Idols in Pattaya. Krystal thinks Minho just uses her to win and well she's not entirely wrong. This is actually quite interesting.

The runaway kid (Minho/Krystal) by skullchi
Krystal decides to run away and Minho follows her. This starts off rather cute but it gets rather dark over time. But it's one of those fics that I would definitely recommend.

Practice (Minho/Krystal) by dellayea
This is short and it's beyond cute. Krystal is helping Minho practice pick-up lines and it's just overloaded with cheesiness.

Between the lines (Minho/Krystal) by withoutchange
I really like this one. When one loses her sense of identity with a stage name. Krystal and Soojung are like two different people, maybe but Minho still loves both as one and the same.

Flying is for lovers by bollywoodrecord (minho/krystal)
Minho learns to fall in love. With Krystal. It's sweet yet angsty. I don't know. I just really like how it's written; about how their relationship started and the ups and downs of it.

Unspoken Dialogue by mekimigure (Minho/Krystal)
Minho wants to take care of Krystal especially since she fainted during the performance but both of them just wouldn't say the most important things to each other.

General/Others

Unsaid things (One-sded Jongkey, Jongho, 2min) by scarletpeonies
It's short but has a lot of impact. I like how all the characters except Key and Onew are facing a one-sided love.

Surprises (Jongho, onesided!Onho, Ontae) by theblarghblah
This is sad. Onew's POV and it hurts to read this. Minho is a jerk; well kind of anyways. So Jonghyun and Minho are together and Onew has a one-sided love towards Minho, but it's not those typical one-sided fics where the character copes through his one-sided love. Nah, it's more than that.

Selectively Mute (general) (two-parts) by nudge
AU. This is amusing to say the least. But Jonghyun is a selfish person in here. And I like the friendship between them all. Plot revolves around them being a band. Sort-of.

Girl Time by masterk3y (gen)
AU. In which they are girls. Minjung, Gwiboon and Eunsook goes on a ski trip together. It's cute and I love how their friendship is portrayed here.

A life in G Minor (Minho-centric) by lettherebeminho
AU. Minho is a music student that wants to give up on music and everything that he had spent his life on. This one is pretty good. I like the setting and the style of writing and how Minho and Jonghyun meets in the story.

Work Hard (Minho/Minseok; his brother) by vipjuly
R/NC-17. Incest. Brothers bonding with each other.

This list will be updated as time goes by~~
(last updated: 08/01/2011)

[[just to put it out here.]]

2011-08-18T13:31:00.003+08:00

And so. I finally made that SHINee fic rec. I'm still missing fics that I enjoyed reading. I'm too lazy to go find it, so when I bother to, I'll do update the list.

~~Here it is.~~going to post it here later. the lj link won't work anymore because LJ was being dumb today and I lost everything of that post.

At first, I didn't want to sort it according to otps but damn it was messy if I didn't. So this is what happened. And really, I like reading a lot. And I think this list is biased because of the two otps I read. Jongho because that's my otp at the moment. Minkey because that's what I used to like and the one that I can at least be decent enough to remember to bookmark for easy access. I used to read jongyu and really like a lot of fics but I can't remember them now so thus the lack... Jongtae too! And Onho!! -___-;;

Besides that, I'm going out later. To break fast with Suhailah. Time for long story-telling sessions. In which I barely have much to say. -___-;; well except maybe about some typical issues.

Oh did I mention that I bought my raya clothes already. I really like them. Woots~!

[[going out for a while...]]

2011-08-16T11:09:00.006+08:00

going to Johore today with my parents. there are stuff to buy.

and i am thinking of making a fic rec list soon. only not now because i can't seem to remember quarter of the fics that I've read. It's a SHINee fic rec which includes ~~every single pairing even het!pairings. Why? Because I can ship everything. LOL.~~ for now, it'll include alot of Jongho and Minkey. I'll do a different list when I find more interesting reads from the other pairings. And really, even if you do not know SHINee, you can read them. They are pretty good.

~~Anyways. I am unsure if I'm meeting Suhailah tomorrow. I'll message her later.~~

I think I should go get ready to go out. So see you~~

Edit: 4pm

gosh the heat is killing me. and my mom is killing me too. her indecisiveness and everything just annoys me. And i feel tired even though I just went out for two-three hours.

i'm going to eat ice-cream in the middle of the night to cool myself down later. yum~~ gonna buka with some nice soupy stuff. I think I lost mostly water-weight and it's annoying me.

Oh yah! this morning, I woke up at 3.40am because I needed to laosai and then I decided to just lie down on the sofa after that and my parents both went, "Why are you sleeping outside?!" and I had to explain how I needed to laosai. -___-;; oh and another thing... my brother is very vain. he uses more facial products than me. i feel disturbed.

[[yesterday was memorable at the very least...]]

2011-08-10T10:37:00.003+08:00

but before I touch on what happened yesterday... I'll talk about other things...

so lately what have I been doing? Well nothing!! But I'm going to karaoke with the peepz today. I want to sing Jolin Tsai's old songs. I want to sing jpop though I am not entirely sure what to sing. kpop? I don't know... I'll think about it.

and I am inspired to write two stories but I just don't want to write... Like I just can't. Words won't even flow and it sucks. And I find it strange that I keep changing my writing style. Like it's so messy one day and then so structured the next day. Sheesh. And it's worst from one story to the next. I really liked the way I wrote "Butterfly". But I disliked the way I wrote "Roulette". I think from "Roulette" onwards, my writing style is really yucky. Go to my LJ to read these. My masterlist.

Okie, yesterday. Went to B1A4's showcase!! OH MY GOD!! To see them is like "KYAAAA!!" And it was really fun and they make me want to really like them. And CNU and Baro is making me confused because I like Gongchan but ever since yesterday, I feel like my bias changed to either CNU or Baro. Even Sandeul is climbing up~ He waved and looked at my general direction the most! CNU and Baro too~ Gongchan was so out-of-it. I really thought we wasn't even interested in anything. But damn lucky fans that get to be on stage with them. RAWR!! I wanted to be up there too!! Sad. And after all that screaming, I was sure I would either be deaf or mute by now. But my voice is still alright and I'm not deaf.

I'm hoping for a TeenTop showcase!! I want to see my babies!! Or or... F.cuz! But then there's no leeU by then... booo... Oh well. Let's see what group comes next.

[[oh there's so many things I can be angry about right now...]]

2011-08-03T15:21:00.003+08:00

Like for example, Japanese TV Stations' Music Shows' Editing. Die, like seriously. Why cut out his rap part which is like LESS THAN 10 SECS. It's his only freaking part and he doesn't get any screen time. Why?! Just to make the performance only 2mins? I understand that shit, the whole 2mins thing but I've never SEEN anyone's RAP PART get cut out entirely just to make that 2mins cut. And really, it's only 10 secs. They would still have 1min 50secs for one verse + one chorus + repeating the chorus.

Oh well.

I will be officially broke soon. Karaoke at CC or Partyworld. I wonder.

There are many things that I can angry at right now but I am being patient. Can't be angry. Bersabar saje lah.

[[told you I was going to make some changes...]]

2011-08-02T12:31:00.003+08:00

to my blog I mean.

it now features Sulli from f(x). And all edits by me. I think there's something wrong with the blurrines of the main picture. It looked fine on my Mac but when I looked at it on my Compaq, it looks blurry. So sorry for that. And it's pink background because I felt like having it pink.

The Japanese words are... Firstly, the big fonts are the typical my blog name. The ones below it means, "Our dreams will come true. So believe in them. As God does not let anyone down." I thought of this on the spot so it makes very little sense at the moment.

Sorry if anyone saw the before settled background. My internet was being wonky. LIke seriously annoying.

Besides my nice new layout. I would like to say that Ramdhan has started~~ My internet made it's decision to test my patience. How nice. I'm patient. It's just really hot these days and I get irritated easily.

Oh yar. About the SHINee concert. I really have no idea if my friend got the tickets. Which means, if she did not, I will hunt the other party down for my refund. If we got the tickets then, okie. But I'm like not even interested right now to go see them. I think she got the tickets. Since, I'll meet her up next week, I'll know then.

I bought my shoes for raya. Now, I want my clothes. Either jubah-type or baju-kurung with butterfly-cut sleeves. Yeap.

And I am broke. Thanks to SHINee con, B1A4 showcase, SHINee's Julliette singles and my shoes. And I don't really want to care about what the plans are for the karaoke session next week. really. If they want to plan it, plan it. I already helped them check the price-rates. But to be honest, the CC is still the best. It is cheap and has the widest range of music. Even lastest Kpop hits! Okie, not so new but still at least the first half of this year hits!! Oh whatever.

continues to fight with my internet and the heat.

[[just for the sake of updating...]]

2011-07-24T15:09:00.003+08:00

okie, for some odd miracle moment, me and my sister are going to that B1A4 showcase. We are sitting at the left side of the hall about 7 rows away from the stage. True miracle I tell you that there's still tickets left even though the tickets were on sale since last month! It's on August 9th. I am not going to be patriotic that day at all. Probably will be home before buka puasa at least.

Made some plans this week. Tomorrow, going to meet Suhailah for dinner. ~~Wednesday, going to AMK Hub to collect the tickets and maybe just walk around with my sister.~~ Friday, if this plan actually works, going to meet my peepz for dinner at our usual place. One of these days, I need to go buy my art materials though.

Going to make a B1A4 banner + Minho banner. So need materials. Black cardboards, neon-coloured paper and glue (normal glue + super glue. the super glue is for my accessories that fell off from its pins...).

Anyways, what happened lately. Yesterday, went to Expo sale. Bought some clothes. Was thinking of buying flats but meh, not really interested. Then bought bed sheets for raya. Well, we are in need of new bed sheets. But we are using last year's curtains most likely, if not, I want to order those cute curtains from gmarket. After that, we went to the electronics sale. I bought a new digital camera. Thanks to my dad. He was the one that asked me whether I wanted a camera. -___-;; So yeah. it's a cool looking fujifilm digital camera. A bit bulky though and heavy for something kinda small. and my dad bought a portable dvd player with the cash refund voucher. After which, we went to Century Square to eat and more comparing of prices on tvs.

well. i'll be back some other day. hopefully I would make a new background for this blog. Oh and remember how I said I wanted to compose songs, I am retarded and managed to make this repetitive melody which works as a second melody. I was going to make the harmony but I got lazy. So we'll see.

[[insomnia strikes again!]]

2011-07-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

this time with a stomachache. urgh. and there's cockroaches lurking around so I can't freaking go to the toilet. I'll endure this torture till 5am.

IN THE STATE OF PAIN...

okie, I have things I need to say. firstly, I should probably stop stalking the Minstal fanpage on fb. Just now, I was looking at it and I found some pictures that I've never seen before from the KOI special. Oh and no, I was not squealing over Minho and Krystal in the pictures. It was Sunhwa and Chansung that I was squealing over. Why no one wants to ship those together like I do?!!

Next... I want to complain about my internet connection. Damn it, stop disconnecting every one minute. It seriously sucks. I am serious. I really cannot stand it.

Oh I almost forgot what I wanted to say... just now, my brother complained that I wasn't working to my dad and my dad said something that made me laugh slightly. He said since I'm a girl, I don't really need to work. I just need to wait till someone ask me to marry him. LOL. Remember I said something like that before? I said, I'd rather go learn be a housewife and get married already. Thanks dad. Because I have a choice on when I want to start work, don't I? And besides, it's not like I'm bothering anyone. I sit at home, I don't ask for more money or anything like that (totally content with the little allowance that I have) and even if I'm in debt with my sister, it's not like it bothers anyone.

Okie, now I'm going to YT to stalk some videos!

[[plan: things I wanna do during fasting month]]

2011-07-14T13:19:00.002+08:00

These are just stuff I want to talk about before going to my plan:

Firstly, let me state that Rabiatul for some miracle moment managed to convince me to go to the SHINee concert with the most expensive ticket. ~~But since from what I heard about the seating arrangement, I think we need to rethink about the ticket category we going to buy. Until more details are released.~~ I looked at other indoor stadium ticket category layout and we are still determined for the expensive tickets.

Secondly, recently, I'm into Teen Top. My baby Niel is so 4D........ lol. And Ricky and Changjo are freaking cute~!! L.Joe is so cool~ C.A.P is actually quite cute! Chunji is just so calm and cute~! I'm an Andromeda now~ I wonder if Teen Top is in Singapore right now as we speak... hmmmmmmmmm.

Thirdly, Okie, why didn't I bother about the Korean Music Wave 2011? There's Teen top!! It's tomorrow!! But I know why I didn't bother. There's 2NE1 and Bigbang - Daesung. I'm not a fan of YG artistes.

Okie, now for the plans during fasting month.

One: Save money. No more online shopping except for SHINee's Japanese Juliette single.

Two: Stop being lazy.

Three: Find recipes for raya cookies/kuih. I'm going to make raya kuih/cookies this year because I have nothing to do.

Four: Make my stupid SHINee banners for the concert. It's going to be small (width of my body) or in the form of an uchiwa. And yes, it's going to be a Minho one.

Five: Clean my room and organize everything again. There's too many things that I should have thrown away long time ago.

Six: Iron my clothes and buy raya clothes. This year, I won't hesitate to buy at least one. Two years ago, I was unwilling. Last year, I couldn't be bothered. This year, I'm going to buy one!

Seven: Compose something. It has come to my attention that my piano is not being used. So I shall use it. Starting from now.

That's about it. And going to watch Harry potter soon.

[[oh whatever...]]

2011-07-09T20:07:00.002+08:00

well well well...

the little dinner outing with my peepz was quite okay. I wanted to buy clothes but decided against it. In the end, I bought three mangas instead. Two volumes of Junai Labyrinth. And the other is a one-shot. I'm going to Kinokuniya soon to buy volume 3 and 4 of Junai Labyrinth.

anyways, after that dinner outing, I came home around 10.30pm. Then, I was supposed to go to sleep because I have to wake up early the next day but I tried to sleep at 1am but couldn't so I decided to watch Sparking World DVD and well, that took about 2hours of my time. Then surfed the net for awhile. Then I tried to go to sleep at 4.30am. But I didn't fall asleep at all, even when my mother came out of the room at around 5am, I was pretending to sleep. Then I guess I fell asleep around 5.20 or so. Then my sister disturbed me around 6++am. So I woke up again. Then went back to sleep around 6.40am. Then my mother tried to wake me up at 7.30am. So I woke up but still laying on my mattress. Then around 8am, I had to wake up properly. So in the end, I had barely 2hours of sleep.

Then in that state, I followed my parents to the airport to see my brother + wife + wife's family off. Even in my sleepy state, I was reading my manga. Sure, it shouldn't take much effort to read it IF it's in English. But since it's in Japanese, it took more effort, okay!

And then blah blah blah... Yesterday, I went to sleep early so I feel better today. But again need to wake up early. Around 10.30am, we made our way to Downtown East for MND family day.

As the escape theme park was also included, we went in and gosh there's NOTHING there anymore. so many things gone!! Sucks. So while my father and sister went to wait in line for the go-kart, me and my brother went around playing whatever is left in the park. So, we went on the Viking first. Then after that we went to the kiddy rides. The lying down thingy. Then the kiddy roller-coaster. Then went to the Viking again. Then we both realize that sitting in the middle is worst then sitting right at the end of the ship. Know why? Because you go through a pendulum cycle of up-left, down-left, up-right, down-right. Whereas at the end, you go up and down and barely-there opposite-up. Get what i'm saying? Okie, nevermind... Anyways, after the second ride, by the way my father and sister were still waiting in line while all this happened... we took a short rest and then off again we went on the Viking. And yes, there was barely a line there. -___-;;

So I went on that damn ride three times and then my father and sister finally was on the go-kart. Then after that, my whole family went on the viking excluding me. -___-;;

After that, went to listen to the lucky draws thing. Watched Imran the magician. His show-part is so damn short! T___T then grand lucky draw and then home~~~

I'm going to pay back my fast next week, so don't ask me out. Unless it's dinner but even then, I don't really want to go. And then fasting month will come. And of course, me going to think about applying at either the library or for some general work job. Yeap.

Oh Suhailah, thanks for the job offers but I don't like needing to travel so far and I don't like customer-related jobs or dealing with teenagers/kids... >___<;;

[[ahahahahahahahahaha]]

2011-07-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

oh look, i am still laughing hysterically.

anyways, tomorrow, i have plans for some retail therapy on my own. At Orchard. It's been months since I last walked around that area, so I'll go there tomorrow and then meet the peepz for dinner at our usual place.

I'm hoping to find something good at Uniqlo, F21, Kinokuniya, HMV and some random shoe shops at far east plaza. I don't really have much money to spare but I just want to spend money.

Urgh, I think I'm suffering from some sort depression...

Firstly, I am secluding myself from society. Secondly, I do not even want to make an effort to find a job, making me a total NEET at the moment. Thirdly, though I am not making money, all I think about is spending money. Buy, buy, buy. Rawr. Lastly, I seem to think that I am not actually living. It's like I am not even breathing. Gasp. Oh man. I should just get married. Learn to be a housewife and live my life as a "devoted wife". I really don't mind getting married now. Just let me learn how to cook, do the laundry and I am set for the married life! Oh find a husband first I guess.

Anyways, tomorrow will the last of my crap. I'll start finding a job from next week! I promise. I'll rewrite my resume, properly. Yeah, I have to. Rawr.

2011-07-04T15:56:00.002+08:00

it has come the point where... all I can do is laugh at the hilarity of it all. if you can't change a person's perception of someone you idolize, forget it and just laugh at how they just can't see how perfect that someone you idolize is.

I am laughing right now. So much. even though I was reading a fanfiction and it had nothing to do with what I'm talking about. Really, it's hilarious.

I've gone insane. 'Nuff said.

Oh but why can't I find anything interesting on YT to watch and good mangas to read. I'm practically re-reading fanfics now. And the bunch of yaoi mangas out there are so typical, it's making me yawn.

and for once, I have no title.

[[the day... where I cried...]]

2011-07-02T00:32:00.003+08:00

maybe to sleep. because it hurts me to think about it anymore.

it breaks my heart and this is the very first time, things like this ever bothers me.

I really hate this feeling right now. Because I really hate it. This anger and disgust I have for these people. I just want to cry myself to sleep now. Because no matter how many people supports him (this person that I admire and care for) and are alike to me, it doesn't erase the fact that there are people out there that are calling him useless and insignificant, that the group doesn't need him; blatantly bashing him.

please.

that's all I ask for. to stop this nonsense.

I've re-written this short post a bunch of times... I don't want to biased, and that's all I'm going to say.

[[this is yet another rant]]

2011-06-28T13:35:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I would like to state that whatever happens on this Thursday, I will really not care. I'm just going to use that moment to reflect on what is going on with my friends. And how I am not concerned about them. Don't even judge me by what I just said. I may seem like a terrible friend but they are just as bad.

Secondly, I think I need to go out and buy newspapers. And lately I've read some random stuff on the free newspapers and I think the world is going crazy. I just don't get it. And I really don't want to get it either.

Thirdly, I have to snort. I really do. Shawols are the most retarded fandom ever. I hate to call myself one because of the rest of the majority. They get butthurt over the most smallest crap ever. They fight with each other over which OTP is "realer". Really, no matter how much you people fight with other over "moments" of your OTP, it doesn't make it any more "realer". Accept that SHINee are 5 boys who are best friends with each other. Oh but it's really annoying so I had to just dump that out. And I don't see the other fandoms fighting with each other over the most crappiest reasons. This is the one reason why I want music to be purely about music. Good looks are a plus. Good stage performance is another plus. Ah, I should just go back to listening to Japanese music. They had WAY lesser crap.

Lastly, I would like to state that I'm thinking of traveling for awhile before bothering to get myself working. So first destination in my mind right now is Japan. Next would be Korea again. After which would be European countries. I'm thinking of going Paris, London, Spain and Dutch. After which, I would like to go to Arab. Unfortunately I have no money so the furthest I can go is Japan right now. Planned to go in December but see how. That means, I need to work first. Bleh.

[[i'm starting to lose my sanity]]

2011-06-23T15:18:00.006+08:00

but that's okay really. then i can continue that asylum story i was writing. I crazy girl writing about crazy people. i think it works.

anyways, I'm starting to seriously hate the fandom. oh you people, you know who you are. I think it's time people appreciate music for what it is. MUSIC. you know, SOUNDS, MELODY, RHYTHM, PITCH, INSTRUMENTS, VOICE and etc. And please, what's with all this immature fighting? it's just crap. And really nonsensical that i'm getting tired of seeing it all over my dashboard on tumblr. And everyone needs to get over all the little issues. And I still want to emphasize that fanwars between fans in the same fandom are really just stupid.

Now to the not so moody aspect of my life. Meaning, not my internet life...

Lately, I've not been doing anything and I fell ill again. I'm used to getting sick all year round. And I need to get some exercise. I should start an exercise schedule for myself. I need to stop being so lethargic and lazy all the time. Yeap.

Seems like my peepz wants to uh come over to my house next thursday. Need to go dig out where the DDR mat now. Damn. My dad won't be pleased with that. And I don't know whether the damn PS1 even works anymore. But if I can't find the DDR mat, we shall just play PS3. and karaoke to songs blasted from youtube on my laptop or whatever. Or watch tv. yeah.

EDIT (11pm): Hah. Let me tell you something about the outing above. It's just plain RETARDED. I mean, I get the gaming part and the time from 1pm to 6pm at my house. But the fact that I need to go pick up Anqi from mrt station to my house and then eat CUP NOODLES for dinner with THEM and then I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT THEY WANT TO DO AT MY HOUSE FROM THEN ON is just plain annoying the hell out of me. I UNDERSTAND that Anqi is working and can only meet up from 6pm. But DO WE NEED to hang out at my house with Anqi? I see no FREAKING POINT. I mean, we can go eat at a proper place for dinner and chat while eating and avoid all the unnecessary awkwardness that will ensues in my freaking house but what they suggest? My damn house for dinner and it's cup noodles.

Really, I don't know why they are my friends. They freaking make me pissed off MOST of the time. Urgh. Now I'm waiting for them to tell me what their plan is as of now after I told them the situation as nicely as I can.

And yes, I am still unemployed. So? I am still unmotivated to work. So wait till I bother to buy newspaper or open jobstreet and apply for jobs. yeah. just wait.

Oh and my copy of SHINee's Japan Debut Singles has arrived. Happy. Looked through the booklets, watched the dvd and then I feel whatever about it. End of story.

That's about it. And yes, I am still annoyed at the fandom.

[[Korea Trip 10th June - 16th June]]

2011-06-17T12:53:00.005+08:00

i wrote this while I was in Korea so that I won't forget what I did. my STM is terrible you know.

First Day (10th June - 11th June)

Took a plane to Indonesia (Jakarta) then transferred to another flight to Incheon Airport. 6-7 hours flight. I almost died in the plane. Seriously, I have motion-sickness.

I didn't eat the in-flight breakfast because well I was dying, obviously. Then at Incheon Airport, met the travel tour guide, Annie-unnie. After which, off we went on the bus to Nami Island. 3 hours on the bus. Whoa, motion-sickness Part 2! But it wasn't so bad. We took a ferry at the harbour to Nami Island. About 5 minutes or so.

But before that, we had lunch first. It's mixed-nuts rice with grilled fish and soup. It was nice and simple.

Reached Nami Island. The main attraction there would be the public performances held there plus the beautiful scenery! Also, it's the place where they filmed Winter Sonata~ Though I can't remember anything from that drama. lol.

We had a free and easy time there. We walked around, bought some souvenirs for myself and my sister as well as ate soft-cream ice-cream~ Yum! After which we made our way back off from the island.

After that, we took the bus for 2 hours to Mt. Sorak. But first, we went to eat dinner. The dinner was pretty good. Mixed seafood steamboat with side dishes. Then we went to the hotel to check-in at about 8.30pm. Saw some coverages of SM TOWN on TV.

Second Day (12th June)

Wake up Call: 6am. Breakfast: 7am. Embarking: 8am.

Woke up at 5.30am becaue my sister set her alarm. Got ready and went down for breakfast by 7am. Breakfast was buffet style. Ate cereal and bread with coffee. Oh and potato wedges and scrambled eggs.

Off to Mt. Sorak by 8am. The cable car ride was fast and kinda scary. But the scenery was beautiful. Mt. Sorak is just wow~ Reached the top, we took another 10 minutes to climb up to see the view from the top (well, I didn't go all the way to the top). It was kinda scary but the view is breath-taking. And it was a nice place to just chill. After that, we went down from the top, went to the Buddha statue.

Next we went to the Fishery Market. There's many small shops that sells almost the same things but the prices may vary from one shop to another and which shop is willing to bargain with you for a good price. So we bought some prawn tempura to eat and lots of dried octopus and dried fish. Even some ikan bilis~ Also, thanks to my terrible counting, I almost paid the wrong amount to the shop owner. Whoops.

Then off to eat lunch. Lunch was simple. Grilled fish, rice, seaweed soup and side dishes.

After lunch, we went to the Herbal Farm. A cute place with lots of flowers and herbs. Some interesting plants too! Bought some souvenirs. Candle aroma therapy and a lavender sachet. Gonna stay calm from now on. hehe.

After that, a few hours to Suwon City. Had dinner there. More seafood steamboat. But this one had crab and A LOT of clams and shell-stuff. I can't eat much because I can't eat clams and other shell-stuff and I have crab allergy.

After dinner, check-in into the hotel.

Third Day (13th June)

Wake up call: 6.30am. Breakfast: 7.30am. Embarking: 8.30am

Woke up at 5.30am. Thanks to two alarms. My sister's and then mine. Lol. Got ready and went to the convenience store for a while. Then had breakfast at the hotel at 7.30am. After which, we went on our way to Everland.

At Everland, we went on the chairlift and it was scary for some reason. Seriously, it's totally scary compared to Sentosa's. Then went on the Safari trail. Cute bears, lions and tigers! Oh and camels, an elephant, zebras and giraffes too! Plus, a LIGER~!! A tiger + lion breed~

Then, we went on our own way. A water-ride that is quite fun~ Didn't get wet that much thanks to the cover and it's not as exciting as USS but it's quite fun that the boat turns so much and bumps against everything. hehe. After which, we went to the 3D movie where the glasses were spoilt and everyone was complaining about it after the whole thing was over. After that, went to the flower garden to walk around and take pictures. Then went out and on our way to our last Korean lunch.

The lunch was pretty good. yummy~ Then after which, we made our way to Seoul, to the Kimchi-making place. The kimchi-making was interesting and informative. After that, we took pictures in Hanboks~!

Then, we went to Hanok Village. Historical stuff about the olden Korean times. Then, we went to Insadong for some souvenirs shopping. After that, we went to the hotel (Hamilton Hotel) in Itaewon to put our stuff at the lobby and went to eat dinner at an Indian Restaurant. Finally, MEAT!! hehe. After dinner, back to the hotel.

Fourth Day (14th June)

Wake up call: 7am. Breakfast and Embarking at: 8am.

Woke up at 5.30am. Snoozed and woke up at 6am. Tired, man. Then went to the lobby at 8am. Went to have breakfast at a restaurant. After which, we set off to the Ginseng place. Today is all about shopping~!

There, we learnt more about Korean Ginseng and its benefits and also tried a cup of ginseng extract. My mom bought a box of ginseng powder. By the way, Korean Ginseng looks like a human-being. Seriously.

After that, we went to the cosmetics shop, Miranda. Bought some stuff. I usually don't buy cosmetics but this one, I'll use it.

Then, we went to the Amethyst place. Beautiful stones! And jewelry. Too bad, it's uh... too expensive. So only bought the cheap quality souvenirs.

After that, we went to Dongdaemun. Fashion Town! Bought nothing much. And the place is huge!! Saw the same place SHINee filmed at for Hello Baby~ After that, we went to Myeongdong and Namdaemun. Cheap stuff but can't think of anything to buy. lol. Me not into shopping so... oh well.

After all that shopping, off for dinner and then back to the hotel.

Fifth Day (15th June)

Wake up call: 7am. Breakfast and Embarking at: 8am

Today is Sightseeing day. Woke up at 6am. Met at the lobby at 8am. Went to have breakfast and then off we went to the Blue House. After which we made our way tot eh Palace. Wow. It's pretty and has a lot of history.

Then, we went to the Ice Gallery. There, we got a chance to make a cup out of ice and then drink out of it. Then, we went down to the ice exhibition. It's really cool~~~

After that was lunch. Last Pakistani/Indian/Moroccan food. Then, we made our way to the KBS drama center~ Took lots of pictures as well as saw all the cool things they use for dramas and other programs.

Then, off to our ACTUAL last Korean meal for dinner. Bulgoggi~ MEAT~ Yummy meat~! The next day will the last day and back to Singapore. Sad to leave but has lots of fun~!

Last Day (16th June)

Wake up call: 5am. Embarking: 6am.

Woke up at 4am. I'm telling you, I didn't get a good sleep at all!! Then got ready and I almost fell back to sleep while waiting at the hotel room. Got down to the lobby and off we went to Incheon.

There, we ate breakfast which is Udong or Korean Udon. It's similar to Japanese Udon but the noodles is thinner and more. Hmmm. Then last minute souvenirs shopping and candy shopping.

Then off to Incheon Airport, check-in and off to take the flight! The transit is annoying. We reached Jakarta at around 4pm (Indonesia Time) and the Flight is at 8pm. So killed the time by buying souvenirs at the airport. AHAHAHAHA!! It's like we went to two countries for holiday. hehe.

Reached Singapore at around 11pm.

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There's one awesome happening during the trip but I can't remember when exactly it was, it was in the morning at the hotel lobby. Real-life Korean Drama yo! But poor girlfriend, she cried, she got punched, pushed, hit the flower vase. The guy is terrible. But the police is EVEN worst. They did NOTHING. tsk.

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That's all. I'll upload the pictures on fb. Too lazy to sift through to see what is what. fb won't even have description. I'm too lazy to figure out what is what anymore.

ドロン。

[[something is lurking in the dark...]]

2011-06-06T02:00:00.001+08:00

and that is me. I like sitting in the dark. with my only light source is my laptop and sometimes my brother's room light. but i am lurking because sometimes, my parents gets a shock when they notice me sitting on the couch.

anyways, that was not the purpose of my post.

I was going to talk about my condition. My so-called fever/flu. Well, firstly, I have no fever anymore, I think. Then my flu seems better now. My throat is sore is all.

BUT the one thing I hate is how right now, I feel freaking fine, you know. I have no blocked nose, no coughing, nothing. And then later when I go to sleep and wake up, I'll be the living dead again. -____-;;

On a different agenda, I hope my package arrives tomorrow. I hope. Because I can't see tracking for the past 24hours. But that's because yesterday was Sunday.

Oh and yesterday, I went to some building I can't remember what... The one that has the car lift carpark + Joo Chiat + pasar geylang. Well, get things sorted out at TM Fouzy's travel agency. Then went to Joo Chiat to shop. Don't ask. I didn't buy anything at all. Except some stuff... Then ate because my dad was hungry. So we ate. Then went to the pasar. Then home.

Today, I ironed some clothes randomly. Mostly because my sister was like, "You want to gosok baju?" After that, went out to visit my mother's family's friend(?) at the Khoo Teck Phuat Hospital. Nice hospital... After that, went to Northpoint. Bought stuff for travel. Then bought food and went home.

My life is so boring now that I think about it.

No worries, I'll talk about my trip in Korea when I come back. Some excitement a bit~ I think I need to bring a small notebook, so at the end of the day, in the hotel, I'll write an entry about what happened that day. I have memory-deficiency. I'll take pictures and everything~ Hehehe.

But before I go Korea, this wednesday, I'll go meet my dearest Qilian. Hang out with her for a while since it's been a while since I last saw her. NOT. I saw her two weeks ago. I've not seen the other two for longer. I miss Rabiatul. I miss her so much that I keep thinking about her and she even appears in my dreams. And now that she's working... I can't suddenly ask her to hang out with me and Qilian anymore. gah damn it. Now I don't know when I'll see her. Missing my best friend like hell.

I should go to sleep. But I really don't want to. I think I'll nap out here. See, I'm lurking around the dark again. And my brother's not asleep yet so...

edit: okie, this is going to be random... But I just remembered that I have my cousin's fb because I just saw her status post... And I'm like whoa... She's a normal teenager alright. what did I expect?

ドロン。

[[this is just nonsense...]]

2011-06-03T11:36:00.003+08:00

not my post, i meant something else...

fanwars are stupid. it's even more stupid when it's within a fandom. and it's even more stupid when it's about the most stupidiest shit ever. let me just shake my head at all this stupidity.

I have yet to recover from my freaking flu. My fever is down but my flu is... whatever. I have to get well before 9th.

Going to Korea on the 10th. But first, I need to really hope that my package from gmarket comes before that. Please come soon. Like by Monday!!

So to address the whole thing from the previous post about the tour thing. Well firstly, my dad got a refund from the previous travel agency. Went to another travel agency and we are off on the 10th. Oh but this travel agency is TM Fouzy's travel agency. Can you believe this? Going to Korea with an Uztaz. I am... going to die. My initial idea of not wearing my headscarf has to be rethought about. Oh my..

I realize that I don't even think I'm going to ever hang out with my peepz and Suhailah. Suhailah, I'll hang out with you after my trip, I guess? Let's go eat at Sakura Buffet or something. hehehe. And please don't stress yourself out about the negativities in your life (i'm sure you know what I mean). ^___^

My peepz. I am not going to organize or plan anything if none of you are free/willing/available/going to tell me anything. Tsk.

ドロン。

[[when you're sick...]]

2011-06-01T12:47:00.002+08:00

you tend to not do anything at all. and sleep all day long...

but for me... I can't even sleep. I tried to sleep from 9pm yesterday. Couldn't get to sleep till later at around 11pm or something. Then I kept waking up which sucks. And then I woke up at 9am.

And all my senses are like doubled or something. I can hear perfectly well, see perfectly well, smell perfectly well and taste perfectly well. And let me tell you, it sucks. Know why? Smells that usually don't bother me or I can't exactly smell... I can smell now... and it's bothering me. And food that usually doesn't bother me (like spicy or sour food) now bothers me. Because it tastes TWICE as spicy or sour than before. And I can hear sounds even when it's at the most quietest volume. I can't stand this...

I need to get well, now!!

And I have a feeling that my family is not going to Korea in the end. The tour was canceled and we don't know if we are going to be transferred to another tour... So I'm thinking, maybe we are not going. If that's the case... I'll go find a job now.

This sucks. Oh well.

ドロン。

{{hey yo.]]

2011-05-29T00:29:00.003+08:00

i've officially stopped caring.

What am I talking about? Well kpop idols actually. I can't be bothered. I'll look forward to SHINee/Minho/Jonghyun/Secret/TVXQ/f(x)'s stuff and activities (lives, releases) but I can't be bothered about anything else. And I'm tired of all these overrated fangirling and obsession.

And I feel like unfollowing some people on tumblr. Why? Because I'm tired of all the emotional stuff and the nonsense that I see on my dash. But I can't. Because I don't exactly mind the rest of the things that are posted. It's just certain things makes me heave this huge sigh and make me want to go curl up into a ball and not open Tumblr ever... ever!

But on a brighter note, I finally collected my copy of Beautiful Days's Minho Photobook. I'm really happy to have the photobook! I can stare at his face the whole day.

And I went out with my family today to the expo. Bought some clothes and other stuff. Finally I have snacks to munch on at home. I've not been to the supermarket for so long!! I want to go but I don't have money to spend on at the moment. And I'm waiting for my purchases from gmarket. three dresses + four hair accessories. I really love the dresses. But I hope it doesn't take so long to be delivered to me.

I'm staying up tonight because I want to. I want to finish this fanfic that I've been taking days to read and watch some videos.

ドロン。

you may ignore this... because this is gonna be a rant.

2011-05-26T22:39:00.005+08:00

That is my tweet. That, yes, I made a few moments ago.

Why? Because my friend keeps telling me she wants to die... wants to commit suicide. But let me tell you something...

I know she has no guts to take her own life. And all she does is complain about life. If she really wanted to commit suicide.

One: She wouldn't have told me.
Two: She would have done something by now. I don't know, slash her wrists, take a knife and point it to her heart, stand at the highest level of a flat and attempt to jump.

And really, I know what she's trying to do. She just wants me to agree with her to the things she says. She wants me to tell her it's okay and she wants comfort. She thinks I have all the answers in the world. Well, sorry I don't. And I don't plan on telling you sick lies to comfort you.

And. I have to say this. She thinks dying is like the easiest escape from life. Well true. But then you're a coward to take your own life.

I give up. I don't want to talk about this anymore. And what the hell is she asking me and telling me. This conversation with her is totally uncalled for. And as a person who went through shit before, I don't really want her to talk to me about these things.

Sincerely,
A friend who cares but can't be bothered if you are going to talk shit with her.

[[i'm amazed that it's only been two hours...]]

2011-05-26T01:20:00.005+08:00

i'm trying to stay up today. But like only two hours have passed. I'm finding it strange.

Above pictures were taken yesterday (well since today is Thursday already)! Guess where I was. LOL. And yes, I edited them because I have itchy hands and want to do stupid things. And yes that IS me.

Anyways... To spare you people from figuring out where I was... I went to Vivocity today with Suhailah. Original plan for yesterday was to go Mount Faber + Henderson Waves but since it was raining and wet paths and stuff, we changed out plans~ I think we can never stick to our plans! hehe.

So, we went to eat lunch at Banquet. Okie, actually we walked around till we found a place to sit to eat which happens to be Banquet. Really, we walked till Harbourfront Centre then went all the way to the carpark of Vivocity and then we decided to eat at Banquet~

After eating, we walked around in Vivocity and then we decided to go to the Sentosa Broadwalk and take pictures! We tried all kinds of angles to make it seem like we're not where we are. Hehe. So yeah, lots of random photos taken.

Then we walked again around Vivocity. Sat down at Starbucks while trying out their new flavour. Hmmmm. It's not bad for a hot day. If it was a cold day, don't even think I'll be drinking that. I'll drink a JavaChip instead.

After that, we went to F21, I bought a bag + a lacy blouse. Both are equally cute. Then after that, we went home.

Okie at home. Firstly, I need to wait for my money to be transferred. Not sure when... Probably tomorrow or the next day. Since I transferred it like a few hours ago. Gonna order two dresses + some hair accessories.

And I was just looking at the Minstal Fanpage on fb and I saw this!! (below)

OBVIOUSLY not Minstal. But it's Taelli~!! Taemin and Sulli. I really don't know whether this is old or new but considering how the other two pictures I saw are of SHINee and f(x)'s latest hairstyles... it should be new. But Taemin's hair looks kinda faded.... Whatever. This picture is now my wallpaper. HAHAHAHAHAHA!! But I got a shock of my life when I saw this picture. Like why... how... what... SM, are you kidding me?! Now, I demand someone... anyone give me a Minho and Krystal picture. I don't care! I need to see them together!! T_____T

Well that's it from me. Next week's plans would probably be to go shopping with Qilian and meeting up with Suhailah. I am like a wandering soul, yo!

ドロン。

[[this is life... oh well.]]

2011-05-22T16:09:00.002+08:00

just an update.

let me see... thursday, i stayed at home. got a text from qilian. and we ended up deciding to meet up the next day to help her find her mom a present.

so friday, I went to meet qilian at vivocity. we ate at secret recipe. gosh the serving is small. but one of the waiter was cute. hehe. after eating, and also eating a cheesecake~ we went to walk around to find her the present for her mom. coincidentally, her mom's birthday is the same as my dad's. only her mom is two years younger than my dad. hehe. Couldn't find her a mirror but we walked around and found this cute massage cushion. I bought myself the cute brown-version of Minnie Mouse. It was by-chance that I found it because I looked for it elsewhere and couldn't find it. After much contemplation and drinking gong-cha and sitting around making weird jokes with each other, she bought the cushion. Now she owes me $20.

Then Saturday. we went to the airport. Then ate at Swensens to celebrate my dad's birthday. then nothing much, we went home.

This week. I only know that me and Suhailah are going to Mount Faber and Henderson Waves to go take our pictures on Wednesday. I don't know if I'm going to meet my peepz ever again. I think we need to uh plan for the first or second week of June. Firstly, the trip to USS with Rabiatul and Qilian. Then the other stuff that we want to do. Like arcade + para-para. Like playing PS + PS3. I don't know... I'll think about it. Then search for a job. -____-;;

ドロン。

[[let's just say...]]

2011-05-18T19:41:00.003+08:00

yeah! oh yeah! Right.... moving along.

I really need to dump these two .gifs that I made from a video quite old. Two supposedly JongHo .gifs that I made two days ago and only posted on tumblr today. I fail at making .gifs. Just so you know.

This one... I accidentally micalculated the fps. So it's moving like at rapid speed. But this is cute~

This one... is my delusional brain saying they are blowing kisses at each other. They are just making weird pouty lips and then Jjong decides to pat Minho's head~ So cute~

Okie... Time to talk about other things.

Sunday, woke up really early. Like 4.30am. I went to sleep at 12 or 1am man. That totally sucks. Went to the airport. Ate breakfast there and sent my eldest brother off. After that, we went home and while everyone else went back to sleep, I stayed awake and stared at my laptop screen.

Monday, I don't remember. Yeah. I can't remember. I think all I did was watch videos on Tudou. And making those .gifs.

Tuesday... Yesterday. Went to Woodlands to meet my peepz. Met up with Qi first at Khatib because she was early. Then met Rabiatul who was even more early at Woodlands. And lastly, Anqi came. Then we all ate at kfc. Then made our way to Marsiling Community Club to do some karaoke-ing.

2hours and half of karaoke-ing~ Mostly, I sang with Rabiatul. All kinds of random Korean Pop songs. Plus one super old school BackstreetBoys song. Qi and An sang all kinds of Chinese songs plus alot of Lady Gaga. It was fun while it lasted.

I think we need to go again and maybe stay for 4hours or something. 2hours is just not enough!

Today, went back to RP with Suhailah. Met up with her at 3pm~ Then collected whatever we needed to collect. Sat at the cafe, eating some munchies and looked through the yearbook. Didn't managed to do any phototaking because the school was freaking populated with students! It's a WEDNESDAY!! WHY?! Took the bus back to the interchange, chatted there and made our way home~

Next week! Phototaking session with Suhailah at I-have-no-idea-where. Not sure if I'm ever going to meet the peepz until June Holidays. And I need to do some shopping. Plus, celebrate my father's birthday~

ドロン。

[[not the reality i wanted?]]

2011-05-14T09:34:00.002+08:00

fine i'm starting to seriously adore jonghyun. whatever.

update for the week.

firstly, I can't remember what happened on tuesday. I have a sever case of memory defiency. I sound like a computer over time mostly because I can't store too much information in my brain.

I think I stayed at home and talked to Qilian on msn. yeah, that should be it with her fretting about her interview and talking about writing stories and I think I wrote the weird library story that day. Should be. Go over to my LJ to read that story. HERE.

Oh and I've been reading random psychological mangas and I'm starting to question my sanity. And I should stop writing stories that makes no sense. It makes sense in my head but when I re-read it, it makes no sense at all. Just what the heck. And I have another idea in my head but I'm so lazy to write it.

Then on Wednesday, went out to eat with Suhailah. At first the plan was to meet at 1pm at City Hall. But like always, we don't usually stick to our initial plan and timings so we ended up meeting at around 1.30pm at Tampines instead! hehe. So ate lunch. And then walked around and chatted. Bought bubbletea and sat at the small little garden place (i'm gonna call it a garden. lol) and chatted about life in general. Overall, I enjoyed that day with her. ^___^

Thursday, my sister made me go to NP with her. So did some shopping till the point that I am broke. Gotta withdraw money before going to meet my peepz my Tuesday. Bought three new earrings. One bracelet. A new pocket comb. Then bought a drama to watch. <- boredom makes me do these things.

Yesterday, stayed at home. Watch MuBank. Nothing much. Today, was supposed to go to Malaysia for a wedding. Didn't go. Because I don't want to rot alone especially when my sis is not going.

So yes, plans for next week? Tuesday, go karaoke at CC. Wednesday, meet Suhailah to collect cert. Then rot again at home. As I said, I'll only look for a job after June.

ドロン。

[[one whole week...]]

2011-05-09T11:17:00.002+08:00

just what have I been doing?

well firstly, slacking at home. fearing the worst case scenarios. and even some pissing off moments like usual. what else is new in my life?!

anyways, I can't remember what the happened on Tuesday - Friday. Let's just say that I was slacking at home, doing mostly nothing. I really can't remember what happened. But I think the only thing I remembered from that whole week was that my father was busy with the elections thing. The preparation because he was a polling officer. And then I also remembered that my father went to book the tickets for Korea.

Yes, I am going to Korea this June! I'll make sure to buy some sourveniers for some people.

And I have yet to receive my Pinocchio Album in the mail. *sobs*

Then Saturday, my father was busy the whole day at my ex-secondary school. My brother and sister went to vote. Then stayed up all night watching the results. I'm not going to comment on the Singapore Elections 2011.

Then on Sunday, Mother's Day. Errr... Went out for lunch that was errrr... booked and planned by my brother and his wife. Right. Not going to comment on that either.

Today, went for a job interview. I can sense failure since I woke up so forget it. Was going to go for lunch with Su but since my father bought lunch.. that plan was cancelled. I've not seen her for some time and I thought of catching up with her. I guess some other day.

I seriously don't feel like looking for a job till after June. Let me be!! there was a lot of nonsense that I wanted to blog about but because it's kinda mostly my bitching, I'll leave it out of this post.

ドロン。

[[well well...]]

2011-05-02T21:20:00.003+08:00

things you shouldn't do in public but I think me and my peepz have decided to do everything you shouldn't do in public.

firstly, I would like to state that we went out today. And a lot of random moments happened.

so. what shouldn't you do in public?

1) Laugh and talk really loudly in a restaurant. We talked, laughed so loudly in the restaurant today. Oh... And we stayed there for a very long time.

2) Rehearse Kpop dances while being filmed in public. It was probably the most embarassing things ever. Oh... and the funniest thing ever would be the commentary in the video. Qilian and Anqi don't listen to/follow up to Kpop music. And me and Rabiatul are like listening to the music using earpiece and dancing to silence. And if they were Kpop fans, they would probably be able to figure out what dances we were doing but since they were not, the commentary is really, really funny.

3) Take pictures of seriously weird positions and poses. Oh well. I uploaded the pictures on fb but I put it on private for me and them to see only because that's what they wanted. -___-;;

Oh well. Anyways, the gist of today is that we did alot of things that we would have been so totally embarrased to do. Don't ask why. From acting R&J to posing like Pagaent Queens to dancing in public. And really, like what Qilian said, it's because all of us were in a good mood. Which is rare.

Next week, we going to do some singing. Karaoke Lounge, here we come! And what I told them to do was random. Anqi can sing Chinese, Qilian can sing Japanese, Rabiatul can sing Korean and I'll sing Malay. And then we sing English together. hehe. we not going next week. Rabiatul has stuff to do... am I like the only one super free these days?

ドロン。

[[i want to uh go korea...]]

2011-04-28T12:50:00.003+08:00

i hope my parents are really willing to go to Korea this June. But one thing for sure, I'm not going to be wearing my headscarf. typical me.

my topic for today is... what happened yesterday!

so I woke up at around 10am. was looking at job ads while waiting for my mother to finish showering. Then I went to shower and then got ready to go to Johore. Listened to SHINee the whole time. The song "Up & Down" played while we were going through that whole round-round up and down road thing at Malaysia before and after the checkpoint. "Like a roller-coaster ride". Right...

Then went to Kotaraya. Bought whatever it is that we went to Johore for. Then tried finding this really small building amanah saham thing. found it and I was almost bored to hell waiting. Then finished whatever business there. went back to Kotaraya and ate. portion so small. -___-;; after that went to do some shopping but bleh. Then went home.

But because my mother pointed out the road wrongly we took a long detour till we managed to get to Woodlands checkpoint. Some arguments between my parents while I shut them out with my ipod blasting in my ears. And finally we reached home.

Today, woke up late. Later I'm going to go meet my sis for late lunch. Gonna update my bankbook + top-up my ez-link. And I ordered the SHINee Japanese debut CDs. both versions. Now I'm broke.

Not going to bother about finding a job till maybe after June. Why? Because I said so. I can live with not doing anything for a while. Pfft.

and... I was watching this random fancam from last year's King of Idols at Pattaya thing. It's amusing how out of everything that was going on, I see a tiny bit of Sunhwa and Chansung interacting. Happy person for now since I see Minho and Krystal interacting also~ And lots of other things like really cute and talkative and happy Sunhwa~ And Onew and Chansung interaction too!! Oh whatever.

ドロン。

[[supposed to do something...]]

2011-04-26T13:26:00.005+08:00

but today i feel lethargic. remember I said I want to go to the library today? forget it. It's pass noon and I don't like travelling to libraries at this timing. I like early morning especially when it just opens it's gate. I'll wake up tomorrow to go the library. And hoping my sister gets off work early tomorrow and we can go eat.

oh and i have this feeling I won't be here to make a shoutout to someone tomorrow. I'll make it right now.

HAPPY (early) BIRTHDAY SUHAILAH!!

hope all your wishes comes true. and have a great day tomorrow.
was going to arrange a meeting with you but i see you seem busy.
the next time we meet, i'll give you the present i prepared for you.

and dedicating "Best Friend" by Nishino Kana and "Happy Birthday" by NEWS to you~

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oh gosh it's so noisy here with all the renovation and stuff. I can barely hear music from my laptop. And it's freaking hot these days. I'm perspiring just sitting in my room. it's like sauna. free one. -___-

been applying for jobs. lots of admin jobs available and some clinic assistants. And I was supposed to go call a childcare centre. I kinda lost my voice so I can't really speak on the phone right now. saddened.

but anyways, I'm going to finally watch f(x)'s koala! This time at least, I have a bit more love for more than one member in f(x). My bias is Sulli. I like the rest, don't worry. But I like Krystal and Luna more than the other Victoria and Amber.

and I think I have a toothache. it still hurts since last Saturday. Sucks.

So tomorrow, wake up at 9am. out of my house by 9.30am. reach library by 10am. check out some books till 12noon. Check what time my sis finishes work. Then either sit at the library reading or walk around. Then meet up with my sister at wherever. That's my plan tomorrow. Anyone want to join me at the library? They are all welcomed. But it's woodlands library because I only like that library. -____-scratch that... i'm going to follow my parents to Johore tomorrow.

I'm going to go eat lunch now.

ドロン。

[[fine i've not updated my blog for a while now...]]

2011-04-25T16:16:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't be lazy and go call up some childcares and library to see if there's job vacancies. But I really don't feel like doing anything at all.

Some things from the past few days. Thursday, I don't know what I did. Well firstly, I did went to sleep in the morning at 4.30am. After watching some random stuff. Then I woke up late. And did mostly nothing for the whole day.

Then Friday I went out with my peepz. Vivocity. For once I wasn't early so I feel better for myself. And I gave them the gifts. Then we ate at pastamania. Then walked around. Bought Gongcha Milk Tea. Then walked around. More odd happenings between me and Rabiatul. Talked about F(x)'s comeback + SHINee. + me needing to point out to her that Minho sang in Lollipop. Also about contemporary fashion ideas. I'm telling you, Rabiatul has too many ideas for contemporary fashion that I fear for her. Then we looked at animals. Then sat around burger king talking nonsense. And then off home. Of course with one last stupid joke between us.

And when I came home that day, my sis told me that my brother didn't know I left the house at all until 4pm. That was 5 hours since I left the house. I am insignificant to my brother just like how my dongsaeng is insignificant to Rabiatul. Boooo...

Then Saturday. Went out to have lunch with family at Downtown East. Ate normal things. Had some weird moment with my sister over fruit juice combination. After that we went to Giant to do some grochery shopping. My favourite thing to do. Then went home.

Yesterday, nothing much. had kfc for dinner. then remembered what joycelyn said about ordering kfc... we can not have fries delivered to us. Like urgh. should have remembered what lynnie said before ordering. -____- oh and I spent the whole night reblogging JongHo pictures and gifs on tumblr.

today. woke up at a normal timing at the very least. then spent the whole morning + slight afternoon reading JongHo fanfics. By now, I think I can come up with a rec list. for all the glorious JE fics + SHINee fics. And I have two more fics I'm procrastinating in reading.

tomorrow I'm thinking of going to the library. The woodlands one because I like the atmosphere there. yeah right. I want to read books to uh give me a reason not to sit in front of my computer. Also, because I want to get out of my house for some fresh air. After trip to library, I'm probably going to the reservoir to have some fresh air and emo.

yeah, my plan... oh well.

ドロン。

[[i'm awake. and it's strange.]]

2011-04-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

firstly because I woke up early. Like really early. and now I'm not even sleeping.

I'll see if I'll sleep later. But most likely not. I'll sleep later in the morning like around 9am? I'll think about it. Because right now, my eyes are closing for some reason. Must be the lighting.

And I'm really thankful for the fact that macbooks have keyboard lights. Or not, I'll not even be typing this. For some reason, I have trouble typing anything right on this laptop compared to my other laptop. Like seriously. I can type without looking at the keyboard on my other laptop but this one, I kinda need to look at it.

And is it strange to realize that I utilize three fingers on my left and only one on my right? Other than pressing the enter button using my fourth finger on my right, I only use one finger on my right. And is it strange how my thumb on my left is constantly on the spacebar but never ever presses it? I must be weird. Either that or the fact that you use the left side of the keyboard more than the right side and thus you need to utilize more fingers on the left side than the right side. yep, that should be my theory for this. *nods*

oh and remember I said I wanted to watch BOSS again? I should have. Because there's season 2 now~~~ gonna watch the first episode now. *smiles* and maybe watch some stuff on td while i'm at it. And after that watch that 2minkey guesting on Danny Ahn's radio show. yeap. oh and maybe even toy story 3. (which reminds me that I have yet to watch Black Swan, Rite, My name is Khan and whatever other movies...)

and I think I want to jog around the reservoir, all the way to the bus-stop along the road and if my sis is right and I can jog all the way to YCK, I will. I really need to lose weight. Not to look pretty but for my health. Boo...

all I can think about is to make sure my parents don't find me here. then again they'll find me here at 5am anyways. what's the difference?!

ドロン。

the beetle story...

2011-04-19T09:56:00.002+08:00

there was this small beetle that started crawling on my hand...

at first, I just stared at it crawling on my hand. then decided to pick it up.

it started squirming between my two fingers.

then I said, "don't move."

I scurried to my brother's room's window while saying, "wait, let me rescue you."

and I let it go. then realized, "i probably killed you when throwing you out but whatever."

/so much for my rescue./

[[this is only the beginning]]

2011-04-17T15:39:00.003+08:00

of an endless road. the road that leads you to...nowhere

~~my battery is dying and i'm kind of lazy to charge my laptop right now. oh well.~~ i went to take my charger. so now it's charging.

supposedly, we are going out but my sister who was the one who wanted to go out decided to take a nap and is not waking up by the way. oh life. not sure if we going out in the end or not. let's see.

anyways, last friday, I went for a small picnic with Suhailah. Enjoyed a really nice breezy day out with her, took pictures and the pigeons and other birds were everywhere~ a bunch of 'paparazzi' photographers. (nah, just photographers taking scenery photos.) it was a good thing that it didn't rain. I really enjoyed the day with her~

i wonder about the Good Friday outing with my peepz. They have yet to tell me anything. I'll ask them on Wednesday. Don't want to be a bother to them. Oh and what happened to meetin with YunSheng? I wonder...

and today I received an sms about the Minho photobook I ordered!! Yayness~ Can't wait till it comes next week. This 19 year old is not going to leave the house for at least two days while staring at the pictures every single waking moment of my life. LOL.

gotta go out and buy the grad gifts for my peepz that I promised. And a birthday present for Su~ Don't really know what to buy for her though. Hmmmmmm....

the weather is terrible today. and i should try applying for more jobs till one replies me. boo-hoo. if not, this girl is going to find a simple job at the shopping centre. or supermarket. I love supermarkets. Who cares where I work! As long as I earn money, I'm happy~~

This monday, I'm going to go walk around at NorthPoint. to get the gifts + some craft stuff + survey for any job opening + grochery shopping (more like snack shopping but it's the same to me). tee hee.

ドロン。

[[watch me burn]]

2011-04-13T11:22:00.002+08:00

no i have not been listening to that song.

today, i am going to go out and eat with my sister and uh buy stuff for the picnic with Suhailah~ this friday! can't wait~~

oh and just to state something about my job status... i am still unemployed. oh well. i applied for a bunch of jobs. i feel so demotivated about finding a job.

i want to watch boss again. i've watched it at least 4 times, but I still want to watch it again. and I have not bothered about the KHJ's japanese vers. of his single. I uh just... don't feel like watching his making of dvd. I love him and all but not right now. And my sister complains about how I have his picture everywhere in the room.

i again realized how freaking quiet my neighbourhood is. it's like too silent!! till the point that if I blast my music, I feel that it can be heard from the next flat.

oh man.

ドロン。

[[post-whatever-problems-I-may-not-be-facing]]

2011-04-11T13:44:00.002+08:00

hey there's double meaning there.

I just updated my LJ. Weird post that really just is full of my weird. And it's getting difficult to type suddenly. I think it's been too long since I typed anything longer than one word on my laptop. either that or I have problems with typing on my bed. or it's just my mac keyboard not being able to indent any deeper than I would have liked. reason why I tend to like to type on my other laptop better.

Anyways. What have I been up to lately? Let's see...

last Thursday, went out with Pink and Qi. Pink is Rabiatul if people are constantly confused by my way of calling her. For my sake, I'm going to type Pink because it's shorter and I tend to misspell her name. Anyways, went to the airport. I like our timing when reaching a place. We were all supposed to meet at Tanah Merah platform and well, I was in the middle cabin, Pink was in the same train as me at the last cabin and Qi was already waiting. So when I managed to find Qi, I saw Pink walking towards us, and Qi only saw me, but all I was doing was running and pointing to the train to get in. So we all went in and Qi then realized that Pink was behind her. hehe.

Then we made our way to the airport and we ate and walked around. We played at the arcade. House of Dead 4. For first-time players, we reached chapter 4. awesome. And for some reason, Pink and Qi were shaking from the experience and Pink didn't even play! And I was all kanchiong. hahahaha!! Then we chilled at the seats in front of the bubbletea shop.

After which we decided to take the travellator back up but guess what, there's no travellator that goes up! So we took the one that went down and practically was exercising! It was totally like a treadmill. And then up we go to the observation hall and slacked there too. We talked about all kinds of stuff. And the one thing we all agreed on at the end of the day is we don't need guys to protect us. I quote Pink: "Protect us from what?! Not like someone is going to kidnap us!" Lol.

For once, I love my friends all over again. I was pissed at them for too long. And I felt happier now that it doesn't feel like I need to try too hard to be happy in front of them.

oh and me and pink had this most random conversation. She was talking about frog prince Minho when she saw a frog merchandise at minitoons. Then I was all, I want a frog-plushie that I can hug to sleep. She was all "oh okie." and then I stated that I want to change my OTP. well not exactly. So I said, "I'm shipping OT5!" and she went, "That's cool! Whee~~". then after that, Qi left us alone because she asked the shop assistant something, so me and Pink ended up looking at chains. And well there was this super colourful plastic chain and she was contemplating on buying it. Then I was like, why you want that? And then she said, "it can be worn as a necklace..." and I was all, "Contemporary fashion?!" and she, "yeah yeah!!" we laughed till Qi came up to us. And Qi knows nothing about what we were laughing about.

Anyways, the outing lasted from 12noon (well around there) till 7pm (also around there). And that's a good thing because I thought I won't last 3 hours.

Well, I wonder where I should go next. Who to go with. Hmmmm...

ドロン。

[[i realized some brutally in this...]]

2011-04-06T15:32:00.003+08:00

killing of cockroaches in the house.

in the past, all you had to do was spray at them and they die. then, they evolved and managed to survive the sprays, we use rolled up newspapers to squash them. because I'm not brave enough to chase after the cockroaches with a rolled up newspaper, I use boxes and squash them. but now, even after getting squashed by a box that still has its contents in them (shoes), they still survive!! my sister came home, took the box away from on top of the cockroach and it's still alive. so guess what she did...

She rolled the chair on the cockroach. talk about brutal.

oh and it's still there lying dead next to the chair. there's another one dead under a container box, so-called sliced in half but it took two days to die from its struggle. under further inspection, the one next to the chair lost two legs and has a fairly flattened out body. the other one i don't know because I can only see its dead head. hmmmm.

anyways...

tomorrow outing with Qilian and Rabiatul. She replied yesterday sometime in the afternoon and I didn't exactly notice it until an hour later. So off to the airport~~ And next week, outing with Suhailah~ Waiting for her confirmation. And later tonight, time to send in my resume to the zoo.

with that. see you around~

ドロン。

[[found some places but..]]

2011-04-05T16:07:00.002+08:00

i haven't rewrite my resume.

oh well. till I write it, I'm going to heck care about finding a job. by the end of the week, I'll rewrite my resume.

oh and this thursday, though I thought of going to USS with Shila and her friends, I decided against it because it's going to be major awkward for me. So instead, going to hang out with Rabiatul and Qilian. To the airport! But Rabiatul hasn't replied my sms so I really don't know if she's going or not. -___-;;

oh and about the story I was going to write. I totally forgot about it. And when I was writing the outline of the story, it sounded really, really weird. So whatever. When I feel like writing it, I'll write it.

and I think I eat nasi ayam penyet too often from different stalls that I've managed to find differences in each of them and preferences that I like for a packet of nasi ayam penyet. the first being how well the chicken taste like. there's this stall where the chicken is really just oily and doesn't taste nice at all. then the next thing is how easy it is to remove the skin from the chicken. the easier it is, the supposedly crispier the chicken is but I don't eat chicken skin, so whatever. after that the rice. some rice taste really like plain rice and some taste like chicken rice's rice. while some taste like nothing. really. I like the chicken rice's rice taste but plain rice is also nice as long as the chicken taste nice. then the veggies that they include. Some includes way too much cucumbers. Some includes two slices of tomatoes. Some includes a huge piece of salad. I like them to just include 3-4 pieces of cucumbers, one tomato and no salad.

and also I eat different stalls' chicken chop too. Till the point where I think I found a favorite stall for this. It's the one at Teh Tarik. Try eating their Chicken Chop there with a cup of bandung. The bandung there is nice too. But they kinda changed some things over the years. They used to have a garlic bread but now no. They used to have this totally awesome tasting mashed potato but now they don't. oh well, I still like the gravy there.

that was my gourmet segment. LOL. I'm being random these days. Now I want to make bandung. Why? Because I mentioned bandung just now. booo-hooo...

ドロン。

[[one of these days...]]

2011-04-03T14:05:00.002+08:00

I'm going to go take random photos of the sights in Singapore. but till then... let me be.

and someone is not telling me when she is free this week. I dislike asking her over and over again so I shall ask her later in the night.

the other day, went back to school with Suhailah. Even though we recently met on Monday, we met again on Friday and we had a lot to talk about. And I will miss the food in school and the clean toilets. And being exceptional escape artistes. hehe. Anyways, after eating at TRCC, we went to Causeway but gosh there's nothing there. So went to the pasar malam and we looked at clothes and I bought a cute blue maxi dress. Glad that it's not uh tight but a nice fit. But urgh, I need to lose weight. says the person who is eating koko krunch while typing this.

I did nothing during the weekend. Woke up late yesterday and today. Did basically nothing. Finally finished watching the korean drama that I took too long to watch, since last year... and yesterday, my brother and sis-in-law came over. whatever.

I have this stupid plot idea right now in my mind. I'll write it out later but for now, in my mind the characters are all SHINee. But when I do write it, it's going to be original because well, I fail at fanfics. But the basic plotline is finding love in the most unexpected person ever in your life. I'm still thinking if I should make it a het!story or a homo!story. really, I'm contemplating.

And with that... I'm going to eat my koko krunch in peace.

ドロン。

[[all i do is eat...]]

2011-03-30T20:42:00.003+08:00

really. today i went to eat buffet too. like i have nothing to do. well technically i don't. and it's amazing how me and my sister can gobble up more than 20 plates of sushi and fried stuff. really, wow. oh and add one bowl of udon each and ice-cream. hmmm.

friday, going to go back to school and eat at TRCC. then next week, going to meet Qi when she is free and we'll eat at the airport. see i'm telling you, all I do is eat.

and my parents keep saying to go for the damn stupid grad ceremony. no way in hell am I attending that shit. and stop talking about it being for them to be proud of me. if you're ever only going to be proud of me during my grad day, forget it. save that act of proudness. because i'm guessing i've never made you proud so forget it. i don't need you be feel proud for me. know why, because i fucking hate my diploma and whatever fuck i've wasted my time on for that whole three years there. just stop saying i should fucking go for it. because i will not.

while i'm typing this, they are still going on about making me go for that damn thing. and he even tried to bribe me. annoying seh. i don't fucking want to go why must they fucking force me to. why must i put thought in this fucking thing if i don't fucking want to go. you want me to go on stage with a fucking black face and show the fucking world that i fucking don't want to be there but i was forced to go because you fucking people want to see me there. fuck off. i give no damn to you all fucking want.

and someone fucking tell me what does paying for my tuition fees to get a diploma cert which I DO GET AFTER MAY 16TH have to do with me attending the ceremony.

i feel like disowning myself from this family. i feel so suffocated here. i can't fucking do anything that i fucking want.

blasting my rock playlist because this is fucking making me irritated. even then my rock list seems to be lacking in the screaming part. urgh.

nowplaying: ONE OK ROCK - Liar. just so you know what i'm listening to with my earpieces on and my volume at max.

on a side note, i'm going to sleep and wake up like none of this happened.

[[it's been 2 months?!]]

2011-03-28T22:25:00.003+08:00

since i last saw Su.
most probably.
and it was really fun today!
and thanks for the souvenir~~ :D

we met at downtown east just now and went straight to eating at Sakura Buffet. We chatted, laughed and ate and just basically had a catching-up session. It's been a while since I chatted with anyone other than my family members.

seriously, i barely talk when i'm with my peepz. and i'm starting to feel weird but from now on, i'm going to try to make some effort with my peepz because i've been too pissy at them lately.

anyways. after eating, we went walking around. then went back to white sands, we were contemplating to walk there but it started to rain and we randomly took whatever bus service that stops there and thankfully it stops somewhere near white sands. then after walking around white sands and Su bought some clothes, we made our way to Cineleisure to meet up with her friend. or something like that.

then went walking around Cineleisure. and we found some really nice cheap accessories and we bought some. I bought two bracelet-belts + two earrings. love them~~ really I do. oh... while we were waiting for her friend to come, we were watching the shop assistant playing kinect. the dancing thing. and it was really just funny looking at how he danced. really, he didn't look like he was dancing, more like exercising. oh well.

after buying the accessories, i made my way home. now, i'm contemplating when me and my sis want to go eat at Hei Sushi. then on friday, going back to school and eat at TRCC with Su. Then from next week onwards, search for a freaking job at preferably a shopping mall that I can stand to be in.

ドロン。

[[bloody...]]

2011-03-24T21:57:00.002+08:00

refraining from cussing. really.

i'm updating almost daily now because i'm back to being bored and i want to ramble but twitter has a 150 character word limit, tumblr is not for my nonsense and facebook has the "comment" and "like" system. get what I mean?

anyways.. i'm still not well and kinda had wished I went to see the doctor just now. but it's nice to sleep outside in the living room alone... but sometimes i realize i'm not alone. which is not as scary as it may seem.

oh and uh... someone whom i really didn't want to keep in touch with sms-ed me. i was taken aback because really i didn't want to talk to her. and she still asks me really redundant questions. like, "have you received your results?" like duh! then "you going for the ceremony?" this one is fine but since I'm not going... she asked, "can ar?" and i'm like... duh. it's up to you if you don't want to go for the ceremony. really i can't even...

then i have problems with my so-called friends. really i do. first, whenever i post anything on fb that is in japanese, one of them will definitely like the status. really even redundant phrases like, "i'm annoyed" written in japanese, she likes it because well she can't read japanese. i have this feeling if i wrote, "嫌いです", she'll like it. i wonder. oh wait, she likes almost any status i post. even redundant ones. oh whatever. then another one makes no sense to me. then the last one, nevermind. now i really wonder why we even bothered thinking of booking a chalet. i doubt we'll ever make that happen and right now, i really doubt i want to do the chalet with them.

now that aside, i'm waiting for monday to come to celebrate the end of poly life with Suhailah~~ Sakura buffet here I come!! wheeee~~~

ドロン。

[[i might just take up your offer]]

2011-03-22T19:59:00.004+08:00

my sis told me primadeli is hiring. so I thought maybe i should go try my luck at getting a job there. sounds fun to work there. that is if I move my lazy ass to go to northpoint to apply for the damn job.

and successfully, i think i've passed. yeap. or not I won't be invited to the ceremony. but i don't think i'm going to the ceremony. suhailah's not going either and i really have no mood to be there, wasting my time clapping for people i barely want to associate myself with anymore.

and lately i've been hearing disturbing ringing in my ears. shit. and ummm i'm watching yunhanam again. because i'm bored and i notice really weird things. soon you'll see me watching Hello Baby again or something.

oh whatever. i need to get well first before doing anything.

ドロン。

[[living a half-dead life.]]

2011-03-21T10:16:00.002+08:00

i kid you not.

i'm having flu + sore throat + cough and I feel like throwing up every hour. it sucks. And I have a headache.

and i couldn't sleep properly the whole night. I slept on the couch in my living room. My brother was still awake so it was pretty bright. Then he kept shuffling around the house. Then when I finally fell asleep, my brain woke me back up telling me that I shouldn't sleep and I can't understand why. Then my mom woke me up asking why I was sleeping on the couch. then my sis bothered me and asked me to go back to the room and sleep. I guess my proper sleep only started from 6.30am to 8.30am. sucks...

anyways... what's been going on lately. Went out with the peepz on thursday. i don't even want to talk about it. somehow, i'm losing interest in friends. i can be all alone for all i care. and everyone should stop asking me when I'm going to look for a job. damn it, let me be for a while. and my mom should stop asking me to be a DJ. I care-not about DJ-ing. anyways, if I apply for a job there, I won't be a DJ because that's for the mass-communication people. I will end up being the sound engineer and I will mess everything up. then people should stop telling me that my cousins are applying for university. I don't want to study anymore.

that's it. not going to talk anymore. I'm starting to like tumblr because I don't need to talk there. I just reblog, post Kpop stuff and I'll be fine. Yep, I'll be fine.

ドロン。

[[cry.try.fry.]]

2011-03-14T12:19:00.002+08:00

random titles because I can't think of anything right now.

two whole days of walking around and I'm tired. my feet and my shoulders are tired. I'll upload the photos from the two days later on fb. mostly are my pictures. because I have a camera so I end up taking selcas.

so basically, we went to the marina area on saturday. Didn't go up the flyer so me and my sis went to walk around. Then went to the helix bridge. Then went to MBS but didn't go up to the skypark. then went to take the bus back to Esplanade. Then went to Marina Square. my cousin bought a PSP and some games. Then after that, took the train back to Yishun. Went to Northpoint. My other cousins wanted korean dramas.. but sadly the one they were looking for either was not in stock or didn't have subs. After which we went to find games for my cousin to play then went to Comics Connection. Bought my light-stick and my cousins bought some kpop badges. my sis too. Then we went home.

and then on sunday we went to USS. The rollercoaster is opened and it was awesome! It was painful though. Oh and then there's the water-ride. got soaked. Like really soaked! Because we were pulled down by gravity due to our weights combined. Now I totally understand why KAN could get soaked even with a poncho on. Oh and we didn't wear any ponchos. Overall, I think it was worth it. The cost and the stuff we get to experience.

Today... nothing much. We gonna stay here and do nothing. That's why I can use my laptop. hehe.

I think it's going to rain.

ドロン。

[[watching random cartoons on tv...rotting...]]

2011-03-08T12:03:00.004+08:00

why is Angelina Ballerina not a normal cartoon anymore? Why is it not 2D? Why is it 3D now? oh.. and the storyline is so... educational now. and the original one, they don't wear clothes all the time... they only wear it when they are in their dancing class or something... and today's episode is kinda.. annoying because it reminds me of composition and improvisation class.

okie nevermind. and why is it that weird coloured clothes on cartoon characters looks fine but in real-life it's kinda disturbing.

yesterday night, I took about 4 hours to complete half of my head-dress. Told you it takes me forever to sew them. I'll finish it up later. I need a freaking sewing-machine man.

my half-complete head-dress. the ribbon is tiring to make.

After that, time to make the dress that goes with it. I have an idea in my head (better draw it later) but I'm too lazy to sew it without a machine right now! WHERE IS MY SEWING MACHINE?! I'm glad I didn't study fashion like I wanted to years ago... this is making my head spin.

time to recce tomorrow~ and gonna keep baby's (Hyungjun's I mean) mini-album playing on my Ipod the whole day.

ドロン。

[[think.]]

2011-03-07T11:45:00.002+08:00

see... I've been thinking. and not been sewing. but anyways...
I've been thinking of places to go. mostly because we need to bring my relatives out sight-seeing over here. Oh man.

So some plans is firstly, my parents will pick them up at one of the nearest rest-stop on Friday. Then, we let them rest, we eat dinner.

Then on Saturday, I have this feeling, I'm going to be sitting in front of the tv for most part of morning or on my laptop. Then around lunch time or so, we go City Hall area. We will walk around just to show them around. Might end up at the flyer again. Then of course, MBS! And maybe... Marina Barrage.

Then Sunday, off to Universal Studios Singapore. Most likely. Gonna spend the whole day there. Expect some random tweets and facebook statuses from me. Real-time photo uploading as well.

Then Monday, I don't know. This is the part where I don't know what to do. Like where can we go?! I'll think about it.

Then Tuesday, they go back home.

Okie, now about sewing. I cut out my pattern. I haven started sewing. I have ideas and about 5 drawn out designs. And I hand-sew. So gonna take a long time. But since it's not a dress I'm sewing, it's not gonna take me months to finish. No worries. I sew pretty fast. Oh and they are all head-dresses. I was going to buy headbands so that I can decorate but I didn't bring money to buy it yesterday.

Oh yesterday, went out to eat lunch because it's my mom's birthday. Not even a big deal. But anyways... We went to Downtown East to eat satay + whatever else we ate. Then walked around for a bit and then we made our way to Giant. And my dad asked why the place was called a retail park. -___-;; So we shopped. Grochery is important. But me and my brother bought a bit too much tidbits. Oh well. After that we went home.

I'll go sew. I was going to suggest a dinner outing with my peepz but then I realize that I'm not going to bother. Know why? I don't want to actually socialize right now. I have this feeling that I'll either be silent or I'll end up being rudely honest. So whatever.

ドロン。

that awkward moment when...

2011-03-04T14:49:00.002+08:00

I'm watching a supposedly Minho/Krystal fancam. Well supposedly because he mostly suddenly butts into the conversation and started coaching little Krystal. Anyways, I'm watching this fancam below...

and I squealed at the front part where JungMo and Taemin are being all bromance and all. Around 0.37, Onew decides to high-five the girls but no one wants to high-five him. So he high-fives himself at 0.40. And then Jungmo saw this and wants to hit Onew for being strange. Then around 0.45, I saw Nickhun fishing out his lipbalm... 0.50, he gives it to Minho to use. Then I see Onew, Taemin, Jungmo and Krystal talking and watching the race. with really whoa-expressions. AND THEN at 1.45 does Minho even talk to Krystal and hogs her attention. And the others guys are IGNORED. LOL. oh but Jungmo got her attention at one point of time. and alot of other random things that goes on around them. this is one... fancam that I barely looked at the main focus! But one thing I'm amazed is that Junho can practically stand there rooted to the ground. Like he barely moved!

that was me being random.

[[second little shout out...]]

2011-03-04T13:07:00.002+08:00

to you know who you are!

i don't have skype!! T___T
but i guess i can msg you, lol. let's hang out when you get back~
i have a little request~~ get me some souvenirs~~ hehe. ^^;
and lol, i haven't even started learning to sew! >___<;;
and thanks for the offer to help me sell them~ :D
oh and why of all people him and his mom! LOL.

take care~~~ ^___^

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I finished spamming Zhou Mi's pictures on tumblr. boredom does this to people.
and I reblogged tons of SHINee pictures for no reason.
Now, I going to find Chansung's pictures and Yesung's. For spamming purposes.

And lately, I've not had any dreams. The last one I remembered was that weird dream where I met the cast of 2D1N and Jongmin-ssi told me he was now going to be a comedian. what..... and the other dream I remember was running around my neighbourhood looking for a particular type of ice-cream. I have weird dreams...

Oh and I seriously love Song Ji Eun's song!! Oh she's from Secret for those who do not know. Awesome song!

okie, now I'm going to read some Taemin/Sulli fanfics and eat. Then look at the sewing book and think what I want to do. I feel like making head-dresses to sell. For dresses, I'll make it for myself or if I accidentally made it one size smaller, I'll just sell it off. I wonder if non-lolitas want to buy the head-dress though. How about bonets...?

ドロン。

[[after deciding... to rot for a while...]]

2011-03-03T22:26:00.002+08:00

I went out today with my sis. last minute decision and we didn't even buy anything except food for dinner.

it's nice to get out of the house. but I think I'm going to rot at home. There's like nothing to do and I really just don't want to do anything. gonna either learn to cook or sew.

and I thought Rabiatul is as updated as me when it comes to SHINee stuff. Guess not because when I asked if she watched the concert already, she asked me if there was a HD version of it anywhere and said all she saw were fancams.. oh poor her. She's not as updated as me. So I sent her the link to watch the concert. But I thought she knew the concert was aired. Then maybe we could have fangirl-ed properly. Well not going to happen. I don't fangirl much at all.

And I'm going to spam Zhou Mi's pictures tomorrow on tumblr. Then after that spam Chansung's. Then after that spam MinKey. Then I shall go back to reblogging.

and right now, I'm downloading Super Junior M's uh... MV and then I'm going to sleep.

ドロン。

[[little shout out]]

2011-03-01T21:14:00.002+08:00

i don't know if you're reading this but...

Thanks for being such a great friend during my last year of polytechnic! You know who you are, right? hehe. I really treasure our friendship and hope all is well for you. Take care, girl. Oh, And have a fun trip in Spain!

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i'm getting annoyed at random people again.
and my sis is suddenly listening to Big Bang. Oh man.
and i'm listening to all the random female groups' songs. not because i'm bored but because I want to listen to them.

i need to find something to do. i should seriously get that damn lolita sewing book out. i better make my dresses before i don't even have time to. and my mom should be willing to teach me.

going to find a job... but i'm lazy so not going to do that for now. gonna rot for a while. go out with my sister because she's free and it's been a while since I went out with her.

so that's my life.　私の人生や。　

ドロン。

[[ever since i got a tumblr...]]

2011-02-28T11:20:00.004+08:00

i've been looking at it. and updating it. and reblogging stuff.

i now know the torture of having a Kpop related tumblr. you are obliged to update with Kpop stuff. urgh. I want to update it with nonsense but two people following me are uh.. Kpop blogs and I don't wanna post my shit for them to see. And that includes my undying-love towards SSK and my nonsense.

But see... I don't have anything to do on tumblr. So I just reblog. And post whatever old pictures I have. Oh well. It's boring that way but what am I supposed to do? And I just saw part of SHINee World in Tokyo. I don't even have anything to say.

This is as far as I can get to be even bothered about SHINee.

Oh and good luck, have fun and take care, Qilian!! Off to HongKong she goes~~~ study trip though. I want to travel too... Suhailah is going to Spain. So to her too! Have fun and take care!! And good luck and take care to Anqi who is starting work at a childcare/kindergarden!

Okie.. ummm... my sister is cleaning the room. And I don't want to partake in any of this because my senstivity to dust is very very high. When people ask me what I'm allergic to and I say dust, they say... "but dust is everywhere..." and yar... that's why I am technically not living a normal life. Because I get itchy ALMOST all the time. I get stuffy nose ALMOST all the time. Because it's just damn dusty. Oh but it's only mostly when there's flying dust particles. When it settles down somewhere and doesn't meet my nose, I'm fine, cept for my skin condition.

And I realize something too. My nose is senstive to the body powder my family uses. This morning, my sis put up quite a lot on her body and I just well, sniffed it and down my nose goes. I sneezed. It's terrible. FML. Like seriously.

oh, that complicated weird malaysian drama is on. I still don't get it. I better watch it properly to understand it. Hmmmm....

i want to go out one of these days. yeah, just randomly go to places. and uh find a job.

oh and i pre-ordered Kim Hyung Jun's EP. like yeah! two versions because I wonder what's the diff. I couldn't find anything different about the version C so I only bought A + B. I'm kinda slow because I just saw it. No one told me!!

And I found SSK's "I'm Real" thing~~ Oh I can see her pretty face and her aegyo and her english~

ドロン。

[[oooooooo]]

2011-02-25T12:20:00.002+08:00

sukira with 2min.

taem is pretty. minho is cute. both looks sleepy. -____-

some vids.

okie so yesterday i went out with my peepz.
not something i actually expected. but whatever.

i feel estranged. being with them.
oh well. we are weird and we became friends really randomly too.

i don't feel like socializing with anyone other than my own family right now. not that i dislike people just that, i'm starting to seriously find faults in everyone very randomly. like i'm starting to get annoyed at my friend because she knows i like this other friend. LIKE WHY?! Why do you even make it a big deal... and I know her motive is to see LIFE-ACTION-REAL-LIFE shojo-ai. Shit.

And the friend that I like is like making me feel pissed because of her constant love for her OTP and showing me (well the others too) the drawings her sister drew of the OTP. and I know she likes the two OTPs that I seriously just don't like but I can stand it. I can totally cope with it but oh please. I can cope with it but don't bombard me with it. I get annoyed too. Just like how you get annoyed at looking at SNSD! Don't make me spam SNSD + f(x) + any other girl group I can think of on fb wall.

well at least the other last friend didn't do anything to piss me off. Well. that's a freaking good thing. If all my friends pisses me off, I'll be wondering WTF do i hang out with them. pfft.

ドロン。

[[okie fine...]]

2011-02-24T10:07:00.002+08:00

I made a tumblr.

find me.... here... http://keyunminew.tumblr.com

that's my epic weblink address that i was talking about. it's a combination of bunch of people.

Key, Yunho, Minho, Onew. I wanted to include other people but heck.

and I was totally upset about the whole U-KISS thing. But right now, I can't even be bothered. Too much kpop drama. Seriously, I don't need it.

So went shopping yesterday. For whatever it was that my sis wanted to buy. So ended up buying things that are useless to me but you know me, I buy things anyways. then went to the library and got some books to read. time to read, I guess. went grocery shopping too. both vegetables for myself to eat. and lastly, bought starbucks coffee. yums.

and so, today, time to go out and meet my peepz. though I kinda regret something this morning when I logged onto fb. damn it. seriously.

and gonna find a job. later. but i think i'll take up the offer on learning how to sew the dresses with my mom. Only prob... I don't know where I dumped my lolita sewing book. So gotta dig that out.

With that. And the fact that I loaded Sukira for me to watch later, I'm off! to get ready to go hang out with my peepz. To be honest, I am not exactly looking forward to it. I don't know even know why.

ドロン。

[[stupid debate]]

2011-02-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

debate of the century in my brain...

should i get a tumblr.

and i even have a nice weblink name to use.
well it's confusing but still.

oh the debate goes on.

especially when i can't think of anything to post.
and i don't even need to be tumblr famous or have any friends.
i just want to have a tumblr.
which is weird.

ah forget it.
i'll make another blog.
a picture blog.
works the same as tumblr no?
and i have no worries about anything like being famous. or having friends.
and i can still use that nice weblink name.
and wgaf to the new trends.
i like old things.

[[kiss kiss... the radio.]]

2011-02-22T10:56:00.004+08:00

at first I was disinterested because well the guests were Kevin, Eli and Kiseop. My disinterest in these three U-KISS kids are like... whoa right now.

But then I went on tumblr last night and poof, I became interested. Why? Because Minho and Key are the guest DJs while Eunteuk are away. It was supposed to be Onew and Key but... something happened and I hope Onew is alright now, so Minho took over. and wtf? it's 91 peepz!

and while watching some clips...

my dongsaeng can't dance!! ahahaha! XD and he always helps Key take off his earpiece.

imitating BoA. My dongsaeng wants to kill Key for hittng high-notes. And then he joins in.

and ooooo... minho bought key clothes.... oooo... even that cardigan he was wearing is bought by minho. oooo...

and why can't I find that clip of Key imitating IU on YT. Oh well. that was hillarious and the way my dongsaeng kept telling him to stop was so damn cute~ Ah... my life is complete right now.

oh and yesterday I made that weird graphics I said I would. I'm planning to make a proper one without the damn gifs. But I'll show you the fail attempt at the graphic.

fail right. I think the only part that was nice is the top part. So I'm going to make a proper graphic without all that moving stuff. pfft.

ドロン。

[[life is good right now...]]

2011-02-21T14:45:00.007+08:00

with all that fanservice and stuff from the yakult santafe special event. life is totally good.

I get to see my OTP together. I get to see some whoring. Uh, is that even a good thing? Nevermind. As long as I get to see Minho, my life is good.

and seriously, in korea, you can have special events of all kinds of things with idols! Like yakult! Now, I should have bought yakult before coming home. but the funny thing is, I did went to the supermarket today. (after a while, I will be like victoria-unnie. I can spend a long time there.) and I don't think I saw yakult. Oh well. I prevented myself from buying anything except a drink there. Why? I don't have that luxury to buy things at the moment.

and I walked home today from Yishun Mrt. But I took the super long-winded way of going home. So I took one whole hour to reach home. Oh plus the time I took walking inside the supermarket. But it was kinda good exercise but next time, I should just stick to the normal path. Taking the long-winded way causes me to think I got lost. Because the blocks of flats all look the same! I thought I missed the pathway to the roadside but turns out I wasn't even there yet. So had to go back into the block of flats and ended up coming out at the wrong opening again! So I followed the roadside in the end. oh roadside = normal path because it's straight. The blocks = long-winded way because we go diagonal to the point you don't even know whether you're going diagonal. I even saw The Rainbow Centre and thought I went a bit too far off. oh well. serves me right for taking wrong turns.

I edited all the SSK pictures I wanted to edit. So now, I have SeoHyun, Krystal and Luna pictures to edit. And that Park Jung Min thing I want to do. I'll figure that out later.

and yesterday I had the most random conversation with my sister about going to SHINee's fansign event. Note: it makes sense if you know inter Kpop groups relationships. as in their friendship circle.

So basically I was saying how I would go up to my dongsaeng... uh Minho and shove him some gift and tell him... "Give it to Chansung-oppa!" and of course he would have this 'what-the' face and I would end up argueing with him to make sure he passes it to Chansung. Then somewhere along the way, I said I should pass him something to pass to Jungmo-ssi. And my sister said, might as well pass it to Taemin since Taemin looks closer to Jungmo-ssi. So then comes the weirdness of it all where this weird fangirl could only manage to go to SHINee's fanmeeting and does the most weirdest thing ever.

assume we move from Taemin ----> Onew ----> Jjong ----> Minho ----> KEY.

So we go up to Taemin. I pass him something to pass to Jungmo-ssi. Taemin would just smile but have this super blur face.

Then we move to Onew. I pass him something to pass to LeeJoon-oppa. Onew will probably just stare.

Then we move to Jonghyun. I couldn't think of who to pass things to, so I ended up with beauty products for SSK. (I like her. She's pretty. and who cares if they are rumoured to be seriously not dating, I want to think they are.) Jjong will probably say thanks.

Then we move to my dongsaeng, Minho. Well the whole argument to pass things to Chansung-oppa. Like not one gift but a bunch. Because my love for Chansung-oppa is larger than anything else. Oh and I'll give Minho a plushie. Because well he is my dongsaeng.

Then lastly, KEY! I was comtemplating in my head as to who I should pass things to. So I decided. Jinwoon! And well, Key will probably hate me. But I'll give Key something too. Whatever that is.

And that was the journey of a very desperate fangirl who only managed to get to see SHINee. XD

oh and I heard that Key, Minho, Dongwoon and Jaejin went to visit Mir at the hospital. Awww~~ I feel the 91-line love~ wait Minho's a 91-line member? heck, they are all friends anyways! I hope Mir gets well soon so I can see him dance with the rest of the members again! I only saw him rap the other day.

Oh and I should mention that I just watched a super pre-debut clip of Minho. One where they were interviewing his dad. One where he was super young. And one where I can see young Minseok-oppa.

Well.. I am tired. Today's UTs are so weird. So not going to bother. *prances around*.

ドロン。

[[i miss emo-rock...]]

2011-02-20T14:41:00.002+08:00

I feel like listening to MCR for one whole day. okay, maybe only after UTs tomorrow.

I still remember writing all the shitty angst while listening to MCR. I think if I combine MCR + ONE OK ROCK + RADWIMPS, I can write something romantically angsty. Hmmm. Maybe.

Oh, I just ordered ONE OK ROCK's Live DVD. I am slow because I didn't realize it. So I went to place an order today. Hoping to get it by the end of the week. And then you'll see me sitting in front of my tv headbanging, crying, shouting, singing. that's not a good sign because I need to find a job.

I have this want to go walking around aimlessly. So tomorrow, I will do so after my last UT. I'll bring my digi-cam and walk around taking random shots. And I should be studying right now. Urgh, but I hate studying.

And I am loving ONE OK ROCK's new single~~~ Oh loves. Wait, I love everything they release. What's wrong with me?

And tomorrow after my UTs, I am going to start on a small graphics project. Using Park Jung Min's Not Alone MV. I don't know why but the other I saw the MV again on TV and felt.. I want to do something. Thus... the reason why I want to do this small graphics project.

Oh and I feel utterly drained. I don't know why but I feel choked. And I found some old shit that I wrote and drew before. Oh my. And I re-read one poem I wrote and feel seriously choked. Why does the whole shit have so much relevance to me even after 3 years? I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time while reading it.

Now I'm looking through all the random poems I wrote during my secondary school life. So bloody. So broken. OMG, like what's wrong with me during that time?! WAILT?! And what's more, I don't remember having ANY problems during that time. LIKE WAE?!

oh forget it. During secondary school was probably the best moment of my life because everything works out so well for me.

ドロン。

[[that awkward moment when...]]

2011-02-19T14:00:00.004+08:00

it's time to introduce yourself but have no microphone. XD skip to 0.32.

seriously taem, that was cute of you~~ XD

and donghae wanted to give him the microphone but was kinda too far. but i don't know who gave him a microphone later. I meant pointed their mic to him. edit: looks like Key's hand. So I guess Key?

taem~~~

[[there's a lot of things I wanna do now]]

2011-02-19T13:35:00.005+08:00

like.... *inserts dramatic drumroll and other dramatic sound effects*

this is going to be one epic list. and i am hoping my battery lasts while I write this.

Places I want to go:
- the music store. any music store.
- esplanade.
- the beach!
- Universal Studios Singapore.
- KL.
- the streets.
- Orchard Road.
- Rabi'atul's house. <- no i am not a stalker.
- the zoo. day zoo. not night safari. we always go to night safari.
- Sentosa.
- SHOPPING MALL.
- MBS.

Things I NEED to do:
- get a part-time job.
- clean my room.
- iron my clothes.
- exercise. going to go running and stuff once UTs end.

Things I WANT to do:
- shop.
- eat.
- write stories. fanfics/originals.
- finish up those stories that I left hanging.
- lie down in the middle of a grass patch.
- dance and blast my music in my room.
- learn the dances so I can do the point above.
- travel to KL by train. Like really, by train!!
- watch movies.
- karaoke.
- play rock band/guitar hero with my siblings. this will help the point above because I will be karaokeing.
- charge my PSP and find games to play on it.
- charge the nintendo DS and play games on it too.
- annoy my brother.
- force him to buy stuff for me on gmarket.
- make him listen to more kpop.
- cut my hair.

Dramas/Animes/Variety shows/Lives I want to watch:
- Aishiteru <- gonna rewatch!
- Clone Baby <- i keep forgetting to watch it.
- One liter of Tears <- i'm going to cry.
- Aishiteruze Baby <- i need to dig out the CD first.
- Black Cat <- same as above.
- Gundam Seed/Destiny <- watch this with my sis. marathon.
- Mission V6 <- about time to watch it.
- ALL V6's LIVES.
- ALL KANJANI8's LIVES.
- Hello Baby! SHINee vers. <- again.
- Kanjani8 MAP. <- i've not been watching it.
- DERO!! <- this too!
- ONE OK ROCK's LIVE DVD <- just ordered it.
- Attack of the pin-up boys. <- about time to watch it.

that's about it for now. when I can think of anything else, I'll update this for my own sake. And no, I haven't taken the picture of my shoes + bags. later.

ドロン。

[[don't ever wake me up through a phonecall]]

2011-02-18T11:14:00.006+08:00

i will sound like a total bitch or blur queen. take your pick.

but anyways, I was rolling around on my bed for an hour before my mom came in saying I had a phonecall. It was nice of the delivery lady to call me to tell me that she was coming to delivery my package. So I woke up. Was about to take a bath when the doorbell rang, so took my package and all before going to bathe.

My shoes came~ My bags came~ My polaroid came~ My life feels complete. Now I can be all cool with my shoes and bags~ This is me being retarded again. But I thought DPEX wasn't the delivery courier for gmarket anymore. Guess I was wrong, because they were. It's written there on the invoice. Oh nevermind, as long as I got my package delivered, I'll be fine. But never will I ever ACCIDENTALLY press the DPD button. I'd rather be assured of the date I get my stuff. yeah.

If I bother, I'll take a picture of my stuff. I'll take a picture of ALL my shoes. I'll take a picture of ALL my bags. -smiles-

Oh and my mom is all... "why you buy more shoes?" I'm weird that way. I haven't worn my other sneakers at all. Gonna wear it soon though. I still remember the day I bought that sneakers, my leg was injured and I couldn't wear shoes at all. Sadness.

But I have a stupid question... what do I do with those "free gifts"? the paper coupons. And I give up studying korean, so I'm really lazy to figure out what the coupons even says.

And I want to cut my hair. Layer it and cut my front fringe asymetrical and shorten + layer my side fringe. My hair right now has OVERLY uneven lengths. Oh and I need to experiment more styles. But how much does my hair matters? Booooo~~~

Okie, that's it. I wanted to continue editing but I don't think I have the mood to right now. -sighs-

Edit: I remembered something from yesterday. When I bumped into the peepz before I went for UT... When I hugged Rabi'atul just for the sake of hugging her. I remember side-glancing at Qilian and saw her smiling. Weird. I want to ask her about this but she's not replying my msn. oh well. But I can't remember whether I hugged the other two. And it's obviously impossible for me to hug YunSheng without him feeling uncomfortable. No, really, I can hug him but whether he wants to is another thing all together. But the funny thing was I waved at her first and then decided that I want to hug her. And she must have been surprised for a moment. I must be mad.

found this on one of my favourite tumblrs. and it explains EXACTLY how I feel. only problem, some of the sentences aren't relevant to me and she's not exactly my bestfriend.

ドロン。

.:Give Me A Chance:.

[[*i really feel like crying...*]]

[[*it's another week!*]]

[[*i can't... this sucks...*]]

[[*you have no idea how tempted i am to resign right now*]]

[[*i'm tired man..*]]

[[*stuff is shipped and i'll wait for a week.*]]

[[*clearly, this is not what I expected.*]]

[[*why do i have such sad songs...*]]

[[*updated.*]]

[[*things I never knew i said...*]]

[[*HAPPY NEW YEAR*]]

[[*do you wanna B?*]]

[[*sometimes i get fed up with people...*]]

[[*short update*]]

[[*i think all hell is breaking lose!*]]

[[*to the recent essay i wrote..*]]

[[*chewing on seaweed...*]]

[[*so so since i'm against sleeping right now*]]

[[*i'm confused but whatever*]]

[[*it's been a while~~*]]

[[*old school music...*]]

[[*suddenly blogger is back to the original colour... like whattttttt....*]]

[[*blogger is blue....*]]

[[*okie too much obsessing...*]]

[[*whatever it is...*]]

[[*stuff I want to do... but have not done...*]]

[[*and it was a supposedly well-fought battle*]]

[[*i might just go back to j-pop*]]

[[*I feel like selling my stuff...*]]

[[*i think i'm dying... or at the very least... i'll lose my voice...*]]

[[*maybe i'm just being an insensitive person again...*]]

[[*my bubblegum coloured nails...*]]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BABYQI!!!

[[*being vain is a tiring facade*]]

[[*another day... another day...*]]

[[*this is literature, I'm telling you. Pure literature.*]]

[[*just to update...*]]

[[*so so...*]]

[[*what even...*]]

SHINee Fic Rec List

[[*just to put it out here.*]]

[[*going out for a while...*]]

[[*yesterday was memorable at the very least...*]]

[[*oh there's so many things I can be angry about right now...*]]

[[*told you I was going to make some changes...*]]

[[*just for the sake of updating...*]]

[[*insomnia strikes again!*]]

[[*plan: things I wanna do during fasting month*]]

[[*oh whatever...*]]

[[*ahahahahahahahahaha*]]

[[*the day... where I cried...*]]

[[*this is yet another rant*]]

[[*i'm starting to lose my sanity*]]

[[*Korea Trip 10th June - 16th June*]]

[[*something is lurking in the dark...*]]

[[*this is just nonsense...*]]

[[*when you're sick...*]]

{{*hey yo.*]]